It is absurd to have an unknown wait period to be a friend of a doctor. I would never have made any fuss had things been more clear. But, what I do know, is that the attacks and brutality were real, deadly and made my life infinitely difficult and bizarre. It was hard to survive it all. I was close to praying to die.  I am worse for wear, but sad that I no have no idea how much longer I must wait, if you want me to, that is.
A person should not have to battle for their life to become someone's friend, no matter what.
I love you more than I ever thought were possible, would you want me to risk death?
I guess so.