Admire

I wish I were thin. I want to be as nice looking as possible. I remember when that awful MP said I embarrassed you. I knew she was lying, but just saying it hurt so deeply. I could never picture myself ever hurting you, or embarrassing you. Fat had to be what she meant. I do nothing much now really, but I would love to get out there and do a lot of exercise and feel better. I worked at exercising and starving myself so much, I was always on the brink of fainting. You cared. Simpler days. Anything you did meant so much to me. It still does. You are naturally caring. I really admire that about you.