I cannot be blamed for my fear, or not knowing rules. It is like blindfolding someone, plugging their ears and telling them they must win a chess match without touching the pieces, but the game is not played in the head....
Plus I was terrorized and confused. Judges should find the truth, not grind a defendant into dust with cruel words and threats. Then have people yell at me, (not speak to me) telling me that you hated me and telling me you wanted it all done to me.

They were fools thinking I would believe them over you. Even if what they said had any truth to it, I would never lose faith in you. It is how I stayed alive.
It still is.