I know I was being over the top emotionally, but when you figure it is only me to myself, I can be honest, silly, or overly emotional. It has been so long it is like people who have been stranded, or jailed, or something dramatic and they talk about what they will eat when they get home, I think of my deprivation, which is you and after all this time, I have allowed myself to get a bit more familiar, or whatever one would say about it.

I am just surviving the best I can. You are my dream. Thinking of you and my prayers really help me hold on. I have been so sad. (Angry too).