I know that K attorney wants to add on as much time as possible, hoping I have cancer and will be dead by then, or for things to change somehow and you will firmly be that woman's prisoner for life. I cannot imagine that woman being a mother. I would imagine her using a surrogate. Being raised by such a cruel monster must have been a nightmare! That ultrasound tech saying you skipped work to go to soccer games made you more endearing to me, not less. So, what is it that makes you the big target of everyone? And prisoner? I don't understand! Are you an 👽? I mean, you have no freedom like a normal person!

So, I don't understand if you are the walled in prisoner, or if that was done because I am the big gift monster? This was all mental manipulation, wasn't it? And your work went along with it? That is insane! What is it that makes you such a fair game piece of property, prisoner for them to abuse? I don't get it! I would feel so humiliated and angry. You are a prisoner/slave! Are you given any freedom at all? Call the DA's office. Let the senior inspector know how you are treated. It will help you in the case. You have been used and manipulated. You could file a labor complaint against K.

You bless everything you touch.
Are you being treated well? How could anyone who worked so hard to hurt people to try and keep you, stand to see you jerked around? I hurt seeing it. I guess you were supposed to blame me.
When I left messages, I was so nervous, or out of body, I was on autopilot. I barely remember what I said. I was extremely disappointed and so sad. I thought you wanted to hurt me, but it didn't make sense. It seems like many people who work with/for you are more like guards, than anything. They seem ready to be negative toward anyone who has anything to do with you. It would make me feel caged. I resent it. Everyone is suspect. I would not allow that treatment. Only cruel monsters do that. Break free. No one has the right to do that to another adult human
being. It just makes me want to help you and keep you safe and find freedom. I want to have fun with you. You sweet face.

I used to like dark, overcast days, but now they just make me feel lonely and wistful. I envy anyone who gets to see you, or have you touch them. I can't think about it.
I am not lovely. I would never have cared before. Now I do.

I fell asleep watching a program about the French Revolution and how Marie Antoinette was the victim of lies, really ugly ones. Even the reason for the revolution was not as it seemed. People who have enough backing can make whatever they want to happen. It is like this situation. I resent it. I don't like the awful way it feels. I was savoring knowing you and then....gone. Hit and run. I can't get you out of my head, because I don't want to and it feels so good having you there. You are like having the snuggliest, soft blanket that soothes and never lets you feel bad, there in your head. It makes everything nice, but not enough to always be a substitute for the real thing.
I love the real "thing". I love you.

I go back and look at things I have written, especially with my phone and sometimes it comes out a bit goofy, so I usually go back and correct it. Sometimes, it comes out so differently, it is bizarre.

They said and did so much to me to beat you out of me, I think it frustrated them. I never saw people do, or say such absurd things to try and make me change my mind. It seems like all my life people have been trying to persuade me into, or out of something. When I know, I know. When I was 5 and the kidnapper was beating me up and sticking a knife in my face, it was like when Dr. Moon was waving the long needle in my face threateningly. It could scare me, but it would never change my feelings. It has been so absurd. Why do people feel they have the right to do that? Also, if they want to hold on to someone, why not be nice to them? That would be my natural thought. Who wants to be treated like crap? You are so easy to love. You have beautiful, warm eyes that invite you in and caress and you never want to leave. Your smile is a mix of friendly and sensual....and a bit mischievous. "You write me a poem each time you smile at me." I truly long to see that again. I find myself holding my breath when I think about you. It makes me feel a bit weak, so it makes more of an impact....a very nice one.

I feel like I would give you anything, or do anything for you. I feel so lonely for you. I never felt like that so devotedly before.

I loved your sideways look at me and when you walked by the door and the way your legs went backward around the chair. I just loved even the small things you did and said.

I love and adore you.

All I need to know is that you care for me and I can have some peace of mind. It has been beaten out of me. I cannot even know if I have cancer, or not. Most people could not rest wondering about it. Everything was designed for my failure. It is all just so terrible to do to an innocent person who is nice. The people planning and carrying it out against me are diabolical and terrorizing monsters, yet I have been put
 into the role of the evil witch.

I have your picture next to my bed, so I can see you whenever I want, but it is no comparison to your sweet living and loving face.

My life for the last 5 years has been crazy and brutal and an emotional ride. I spent most of my time writing about the legal matter and figuring things out. I knew it was punishment for you. It was cruel and absurd. I would never humiliate you or make you suffer. That person does not love you, or respect you. It is nauseating.

Please be safe and please don't forget me.

I don't want to lose you. With all my heart and soul I don't want to lose you from my life.You mean so much to me. I want to take care of you and make you happy and keep you safe. You feel like a
part of me.

I thought I  cried out my tear ducts, guess not.

Even sad over you is better than anything over anyone else.

I never thought I could feel shittier than I did. I was wrong

It would be decent to speak with you. This has been the most poorly run circus ever. What was it all for?

I tried to offer the kind way out many times, but nothing. I have always been treated like filth.
 Again, I hope the woman who did this to me, has orange in her color pallet.

I hope you have a wonderful day.

 I know they will never let you see me again. I love you so much I could die.  (Maybe I will anyway.) I mean if this is cancer..... I just don't know what to do.

This last 5 years I hung in there only because of you. It got so hard sometimes I wanted to walk into the ocean. I was brutalized and demonized and so many parts of my personal life were invaded. Maybe you never thought I would stay so devoted to you, or live through it. I thought it was cliche to say you felt like someone was a part of you, but I understand it so very well now. Why didn't someone just talk to me? I would protect you and make sure you were happy even if you didn't care about me. I would take care of you at any time and forever. Am I never going to see you again? I could be anyone to you, but I would love to merely be near you. I would even be your maid.  

I love you dearly.  

But, please, would you help me with cancer, or not cancer?

I am here, if you decide. 

I have been so deeply in love with you for such a long time and waited so long that I could not handle the disappointment when you thought you could not speak with me.

Even as a person who could have cancer, I am pretty much ignored.

Again, so sorry for the 2 rude things I said, but it was right after that woman in your office made it could like you were angry with me and going to call an attorney. That wasn't nice, but nice seems to be unnecessary option at that place.

I would enjoy working with you.....but it would be so fun to road trip with you!

I was victimized many times over. I was treated rudely and worse, by several people. I would never do that to anyone.

Since this thing started the amount of poems I wrote inspired by you may be around 600, or more. Of course, I managed to lose maybe 100 online.

So, it had to do with the timing to become a friend, I guess. When did it become so Draconian? Most articles I have read are so much more loose about it. I guess this is a K thing?
If so, how absurd is it to not care if their patient is traumatized, jailed and nearly killed, but becoming friends is a major issue? That shows the f'd up thinking of the place.

It shouldn't be this hard to know someone as a friend.

Are you blaming me? I don't understand why the added wait. I also need to find out if I have breast cancer. I cannot wait much longer and the med is harming me needlessly, if I don't have it. I guess I have my answer, if you won't even help me. That would be beyond hate, if I were just left to die.

I don't know how to do this. I just loved to be near you. 5 years and still attacked. I waited with one thought: to see you again.

Each day I have to tell myself that I didn't start this nightmare, but I would
 certainly love to show it doesn't need to end that way.
A cruel person should not be given that power.
It just feeds their wickedness.

I have never wanted anything more than to absorb the beauty that makes you.

I still would.

I am pretty worn out. All I was hoping was to go to a fire lookout and see what it is like and sit under the stars.

Why do people make trouble? A few gifts and the most lovely conversations I've ever had. You took me from the mundane to places magical. I may never get the opportunity to visit the lands of my ancestors, but I got to visit you and that is even better.

I was focused on the end date so much that it was an unbelievable disappointment when it wasn't over, in your opinion, even though there is no restriction that I knew about. I feel like I am back in Limbo and it is a crappy place to be, but I trust you.

There would never be a reason why I wouldn't want to know you. I knew you, but I wanted to know so much more. I hope I get that chance.  I did not have an auspicious beginning. It was shock. I made an ass out of myself.

I have my faith in you.

I won't leave any messages. Frankly, I get so nervous, I can't even remember much.

I have no expectations, but I have a dream.

I guess I still feel very raw.  I am somewhat emotionally beaten up. I lost a lot of beauty from my life in five years I am angry, in despair and yet still worry what might happen to the person who started this against me. I don't know her, but I don't know how being cruel to her will make anything better. Not for herself, not for her family. Anything else is up to others. 

I am completely in the dark. Nothing is in my control. I wish I could know if I get to see you dear face. I have been dying to see it and hear your voice. I am so anxious that I don't sleep until the sun is up and I just collapse.

I am afraid. I don't know what is going to happen from here.

I hope you will trust me to see you again. I could merely just be screaming into a cave alone, but I need to believe. If you will be my friend, I will be the best one you ever had and I would fight for you to the very end. You created my love and loyalty and I am so blessed for it.

I only want your happiness for each day. I never want you to be sad, or frightened. Only sweetness and happiness.

You have always been so lovely to me, but I honestly do not know what you think of me, or maybe not even at all.

I wish I could go back and remove what I said to the woman at your office. I stupidly thought you were angry with me and were going to call to get me into trouble. It was my low point. I am so very sorry.
You know I have always felt loyal to you and loved you. You are someone I have loved from the start and you got me through the toughest times.
Sitting on the jail bed, I was so depressed, the female deputies said they were worried about me. I wasn't eating, or sleeping. But then, I got to read. That meant most to me. They had taunted me at first with medication when my MS made me feel so dizzy and sick. They said I had to throw up first. I had not eaten for 1.5 days, so I could not throw up. I had to stay nauseated.
I had to wear chains around my waist and wrists and ankles and made to walk fast. I was herded like cattle. I was given clothes 2 sizes too small and rags for underwear.
I used my time out of the cell to clean the common area. One deputy asked when I could come to his house and clean. I laugh it off, but it hurt.

I know this entire thing was made to make me feel less of myself.
The screaming in my face did it too.

I don't want to hurt any longer.  I always will love you.

All I want to do for the rest of my life is to make you so happy, it will blow off your sweet socks!

I took what you meant wrong...I think anyway.

I was an idiot & jumped the gun. I thought you meant the horrible attorney.

I truly need help with understanding my health.

How did you ever get connected with such a cruel person? She is astonishing in her cruelty!
Do you want to help her, or let her take her knocks?
I'd vote for the latter.

I am sure I made a mistake. I am sorry. Five years can erase some smooth moves....😢

I know I am responsible for my own life, but hearing you speak to me would make it delightful. It is my dream. It used to be so fun. I would be so excited knowing you would call. It made everything so vibrant and happy.
Remember when we enjoyed those calls,? Did someone do aversion therapy on you? I am so sad. Am I someone to be avoided? Yeah, I know who wants that. Why do people feel they need to jerk people around? I like people as they are, no mental manipulation. You were always so interesting and fun. You have been the most lovely person I've ever known. I miss you so much. Be well, my friend. Find your way back again. You are the only one I will ever care for so deeply.

You know, each time I drove back from the San Mateo area, I always prayed to the angel to help me find my way home. She never let me down. I didn't need drink, pills, anything other than prayer, thoughts of you and the hope of seeing you again.

Did I lose you because I waited to be your friend? Please honor the horrible treatment I endured and let me see you again.

I hope that someday I will be gifted with another 1. It lifts my spirits so much!

 I hope that someday I may give you your gifts that I have gotten for you through the years.

and half the house.

I have been treated so unfairly, but I will not blame you; I think the assholes had frightened us both.

You get right away if you are abused. I will always help you. But, call the PD on that narcissistic person.

Love doesn't hurt. I want your life to be sweet and fun. I would do anything to make that happen. You make my heart grow many times it's size. Please give me a chance. I will beg you. Your friendship is the only thing for which I would beg.

You never had to worry; I was made into the bad guy. but the DA's office knows the entire story. I was allowed to remain the bad guy and the DA's office wants to know why. I have no answer to that. I know it was difficult. It was unfair of them to have done that to you, but YOU were the one being punished, not really me, but it felt pretty terrible. Let's meet and talk and feel better and figure things out and just be as great friends as I know we can.  You are the person who means everything to me. I could never hurt you. I pray for your safety each night. Don't let my love for you bother you. Love is a good thing; you have only been around crazy. I keep saying lets go see nature. That would be amazing.
Sending love.

It was like being freed from prison after all that time. It took me by surprise.  Please forgive me. Please? Don't let them hurt me again, okay? You have been my knight.

Doesn't a person who waited 5 years to be your friend and who worried so much about you her health got worse deserve to see you? I want people to know that even after all this time we can still be friends. Isn't that possible?It  woulds how strong were both are! I want to protect you and if you could keep an eye on me....I would feel so blessed. I won't do what I did again. It was a tsunami of emotions. It took me off guard. I will be good.

I am sorry. A million times over. I was so excited, then so disappointed. I hit the floor with disappointment. It doesn't matter, don't let it bother you. You know me, right like I know you. That is how I knew how much I care about you. I wrote a lot of poems for you, because you inspire me with your beauty.
If those people said bad things about me, consider the source. They said unfair things about you, but I would never those a-holes.

Please give me another chance. This has not been a fair situation. Jailed, mocked, terrified, for caring about you. Your partner is insane. We are able to talk now. You were never restricted anyway. Could you call me at 11 pm? You would make my life so great. I have had it so very hard.

I guess I didn't handle things well. I did so well for all the years, but barely anything, and I got jumped on. It was only to mention that people were forging your signature and I was frightened because it is also identity theft.  Those people are notnice, in fact, they are deadly. You helped save my life. I will never never see a deadly situation and ignore it. I am a person of gratitude. I am certainly not a person who hires others to "get rid" of another person, like that person is who supposed to heal people, but instead attacks them viciously.

I truly can believe she is abusive.  Get away from that person. I do not think you are safe. It seems like she has escalated her unhinged behavior.
Be safe and very well.
I am the same person you knew. Please trust me. 

Would you trust me enough to see me again? I hope so. I treasure and respect you so much. I promise. I would not want to lose you again. ....although it was someone else who did the whole thing.

Remember when I used to watch "Bridget Jones Diary" when I needed a security blanket movie? Now I watch "Wine Country."

That really was not fair what that woman said about after I heard about a call to the attorney. I was really excited to talk to you and then had a cold bucket of water thrown on me. I was received with no welcome.  I let my happiness get away with me. Sorry. 

11, 12,.....good times to call. I have missed hearing your voice. It's okay now!

If anyone mentions that attorney, I freak out. That is the way it is. I would rather die than deal with him.

Heart of Heaven

Heart of Heaven

I need to also ask for your help finding out if the breast cancer is real, or if it was made up. I want to stop taking the med.  Are we friends now? 5 years of suffering should be enough, right? You don't need to be more than friends.I just want to know I can talk with you whenever it is possible. We enjoyed our visits before.

I need to know what you want me to do about the contempt charge. It is my perfect opportunity to bust the terrible people who hurt me, but I want your input.

I CAN TALK TO YOU! PLEASE CALL! I got the scoop! Let's figure out what to do about this mess!

I called the Police dept, the RO is OVER and the contempt charge HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH IT!

Do you want to come to my messy house and talk about it? :-)

You know, I could sue her for millions and people tell me I should. But, I want to confer with you. Unless there is another reason for it, the person whose name is on the RO can see the other person now. The contempt charge has to do with the court being insulted. They are completely separate.

If you want to help her get off, I think she needs some mental help. If she has abused you, she really needs help. I hope you got away from her. I am always here with your home.

It may very well be a felony to file a false restraining order.  It is back East. I have been suffering greatly. I could sue the person who did all this to me and she could go to prison! I am not sure people need to stay apart during a contempt charge. The contempt charge is false, just like the RO. Unless the person who did this to me, steps up and stops this thing, she may face prison. Also, if I am involved, I could say I forgive her and she could stay out, but by then the DA's office may take the case an then only THEY can stop it.

If she is abusive (and the inspectors WILL find out!) it will go to her character, or lack thereof and it could influence a jury. I think it is time to stop this.

To obtain a TRO, a party must convince the judge that he or she will suffer immediate irreparable injury unless the order is issued. If the judge is convinced that a temporary restraining order is necessary, he or she may issue the order immediately, without informing the other parties and without holding a hearing.

It may very well be a felony to file a false restraining order.  It is back East. I have been suffering greatly. I could sue the person who did all this to me and she could go to prison! I am not sure people need to stay apart during a contempt charge. The contempt charge is false, just like the RO. Unless the person who did this to me, steps up and stops this thing, she may face prison. Also, if I am involved, I could say I forgive her and she could stay out, but by then the DA's office may take the case an then only THEY can stop it.

If she is abusive (and the inspectors WILL find out!) it will go to her character, or lack thereof and it could influence a jury. I think it is time to stop this.

To obtain a TRO, a party must convince the judge that he or she will suffer immediate irreparable injury unless the order is issued. If the judge is convinced that a temporary restraining order is necessary, he or she may issue the order immediately, without informing the other parties and without holding a hearing.

You could alleviate my suffering and tell the DA that you didn't file the TRO. Of course I am not angry. The person who DID is a criminal many times over.

I don't have a court date until early December. If someone would confess and tell the DAs office that they did not file the restraining order, it would help me. The person who did it is a criminal. Twice she hired people to go after me to harm me. She has mental problems. Is it fair that I have been attacked over and over for 5 years because an insecure person is jealous? I was attacked again at Daly City by Dr. Moon. The longer one waits to tell the truth, the worse it could be. I appreciate saying the nice things in court, but that has stopped nothing bad from happening to me. Remember, you are a person of integrity, those other people are not.

How unfair this has been. I waited and I suffered. I counted the minutes. It went by so agonizingly slowly. I enjoyed you so much. How can a woman who gave a few gifts been made into such a reviled entity? I waited with devotion. I waited with love. The world went by and I stayed still. I remembered your beauty. I remembered your charm. I prayed for your safety. I counted the feathers.
Why was this done to me? Was I a sacrifice?
I really don't understand. People stay on high alert. Because of me? It was done to me. They created me. I asked you to keep me safe, you were there for me. I went to jail, you gave me comfort. They walled you in and walled me out. Why was I their threat? 5 years they held me back and I complied. I was kind. They were not. I caught a stream of sunlight....it faded to despair.

Please, lets fend together and get this situation straightened out. I want us to work together on this, okay?

I don't want to spend any more time with anyone else.

I get angry, but you fill me with love and compassion. I cannot feel angry when you fill my soul with the vibrant feeling of love you make me feel. I want to do what you decide, because I trust you and I believe in you.
I need your help with important decisions. Like now.

Please forgive my impulsive sadness. It caught me off guard. I felt like the floor dropped out from under me.

I know I will love you forever.

You know I love you. I love even the smallest things about you. You have been my joy, my strength during all the hideous days and hours. You did what you could to make me feel loved and supported. You kept me alive, you lovely, lovely dream of my heart. It just seems like my feelings for you get stronger by the hour. I feel so sad, because it is hard for me to to hurt others, but then I get so angry!
Help me!  I need your input!

Please tell me that you hate the pain I have been through. I know I will never hate you, because my love is so strong, but please show me some support. I really need it.

THWSS

I was doing very well for awhile, but one time I got really frightened and began thinking about all the forgeries and the more I thought about it, the more I worried. I had to do something, I had to protect you. I needed to let you know.
This time, I just thought it was over.  I was so excited, I could barely stand it. I made a mistake. Please don't hurt me over it.

When the deputies in the jail brought me books, they were saying they were worried about me since I wasn't eating, or sleeping much. They asked what had happened to put me there, I told them the story. They asked if I were mad at you. I said, "no". "Why?" they said, "because I love him", I replied. They said they wouldn't. It is a difficult situation.
Maybe it is easier to love someone under perfect circumstances, but loving someone when it is in hard times, shows me how true and deep my love is. 

If she doesn't love you, or respect you, then why does she want you........? Oh yeah........must be a warm feeling.........

If you want to take her side, let me know. Again, I did nothing wrong. You cannot have contempt with a false R.O. You know, they do not deserve your loyalty. She had you on the R.O. to make me hate you and she figured because I love you, I would never give you any trouble. Funny, she didn't mind. Why couldn't she just talk to you? It is strange how she fights tooth and nail to keep you, but she can't even talk to you? I love you and never want to hear you sad, or frightened. I want this crap over so I may talk with you, keep you safe and happy. I don't care if that is all I do for the rest of my life.

I think she abuses you. It seems to be her thing. Get somewhere safe.

This 5 years of suffering has changed me emotionally, now I cry more easily. That woman should confess soon. I don't know yet when my court trial is taking place, but the truth will all come out. Even if a person wants a restraining to be given to someone, there has to be a good reason for it. If not, it is a false restraining order and the person giving it can be charged with a crime.  I think the truth is better. She is obviously mentally ill, or just evil, but why fall on the sword for her, she does not care what happens to you.

I would never ignore you, or fail to pay attention to you.  You are the one in my life I want to know and take care of forever. 

She doesn't trust you, or respect you. She treats you so badly! She treats ANYONE who gets in her way badly! 

I would show you how it feels to be loved.

YOU MUST be PROTECTED! You are a victim, so you must speak up! Or, are you going to save her and throw me under the bus? The DA has all the evidence. If you lie, you will be refuting help for me. You should have told her to apologise, if that is what you want, otherwise, I will ask for a jury trial and who knows what they will do.
I was treated VERY badly! A person cannot get a contempt charge on a false restraining order. You KNOW I did NOTHING! I don't think the victims should fight! I think we should join as a united front and make the entire thing crumble! You suffered too! I think you deserve compensation. What I have said that you were unfairly put between a rock and a hard place: work and home. I am sure none of it could have been easy.  She did wrong, she needs to pay for it. I think she needs psychiatric help, really. Someone should be getting her treatment. But then again she is obviously a narcissist and they are tough to fix. She had 5 years to figure things out. I am just the sweet victim. Great. In a civil trial, damages would be enormous. 

But, you allowed it to go on. The restraining order was false. There were lies, false evidence, forgeries. All of this is going on because Dr. M was too cowardly to speak with me, or stop it, or apologise, or let me off by signing "hold harmless". I have bent over backward to have it "all go away!" and keep anyone from getting hurt, but I was rejected many times. I offered to go to mediation. The attorney would only agree to go with me and no client; how is that for a boot in the butt? Like I would want to go with that obnoxious He gives me nightmares bezoar troglodyte homunculus ANYWHERE!  He gives me nightmares just by seeing his face!

As you can see, Dr. M put you in a tough place. She knew that she was putting you in legal danger and didn't give a shit. I would never do that to you. She only thinks of what SHE wants, doesn't care about anyone else. 

If you spoke up and told what you know, that the case was made up, it would be over. You know it is false, but waiting this long will make it worse for you.

I will have a jury trial.

I deserve a chance to show you what a great friend I would be to you. Only the way I feel about you saved me.

I seriously believe that  I would have been in grave danger had I gone in for surgery. Please don't desert me. I need you and I love you. 

Please don't hold my knee jerk emotions against me. Please.

All I can say, is I am sorry I jumped the gun.  I have been through a lot.

Over 4 years ago, I began offering to sign "hold harmless" forms, but no takers. Recently, I only asked for an apology. STILL NOTHING! Now what?

I DO have to go to court! I am going to turn this case around and become the plaintiff, because I am in the right and this was done to me maliciously. Then to add in the terrifying attack Dr. Moon did for Dr. M. That should be the last straw. She escalated to an uber criminal. That should get her prison time. Dr. M. did not care one bit what happened to me. She never even offered to speak with me. She wanted to hurt you as well as me. She is dangerous. 

I have been so brutalized, it is no wonder I fell apart. It just made me fall apart.

I guess if I must go through court and all, I might as well tell about the further atrocities that were pulled by Dr. Moayeri.

When I heard about the business of calling the attorney, I got a sudden view of that attorney's nasty face in my head and him screaming at me, nearly touching my nose all I could think was, "No, I'd rather die than face that disgusting, lying, cheating criminal mess of a creature again." I WILL tell how it was escalated to my being terrorized at the clinic during the biopsy and who had it done. I never got a court date in the mail. That attorney with the Bar Program, never even notified me of anything!

Okay, well, now that I know the court absurdity is still going, I will have a voice and I can tell about how it is a false R.O. and all the rest that has been done to me, esp by the person who started it all. I absolutely had no idea, it was still going. NO ONE BOTHERED to tell me! (It isn't!!! It is a different entity!)

I found out that the other case did not drop off with the R.O. I did not know. I got nothing in the mail. I had no idea. I read online that after the main thing drops off, that everything drops off. I did not realise NOT everything drops off! I did not get a letter. Someone at the P.O. keeps messing up my legal mail. They have returned it at least twice before! (And my mother's birthday card 3 times.)

Meeting to discuss situation Haviva von Martinitz <countessprague@gmail.com> 4:19 PM (10 minutes ago) to Richard.Isaacs Dear Dr. Issacs, Please, if I could at last, be treated with some compassion and dignity. I have gone through horrible attacks for 5 years! I cried for most of them. I did not sleep much. I worried about my doctor. I have written so much in my defense that was just ignored. All I ask is for transparency and a small amount of help. I was viciously attacked by Dr. Moon (Radiology, Daly City), during my biopsies and she using threatening gestures, by waving a long needle in my face along with an extensive diatribe of the most terrible things to me that could only have come from someone else. She had been saying such personal things and I had only met her at that time. She was calling me cold, unfeeling, selfish, no compassion, no caring for anyone but myself, it seemed to go on forever! She even mocked me about my lack of tears! I cried because I was wishing there were someone there to make it stop and to protect me. Then, she said "oh, you DO cry!" Then, with blood running down my arm, she sent me for an MRI. It was pressed down so hard, I screamed out and nearly fainted and almost fell off the machine stand, but someone caught me. There was a puddle of my blood on the floor. I know Dr. Moon was doing it all for Dr. Moayeri who was angry because I had the audacity to live through 5 years of her absolute torment and torture. She is not normal. Hiring a hitman, basically twice to harm me, is not legal. Hiring an attorney to put someone else's name on a protective order and then use forgeries, is not legal. These are NOT SMALL CRIMES! They are serious! I am reaching out to you to assist me. I want to understand the best course of action! I want to help my healthcare provider and myself to work this out amongst ourselves. I want to fix things, not put them in the garbage, or under a rug. I am still uncertain if all the stress and terrible treatment by that gang of Moayeri, Petrovic, Guasco, and the two former security guards, Souza (Janitor at Kaiser SSF) and de Guzman (now Communications at Kaiser SSF) caused me to get breast cancer. Suddenly no one seems to care at all about cancer, when before, my phone was taking messages on a grand scale! I truly do not think they expected me to live through it all, which I suppose is why Dr. Moayeri is having me attacked again. All I can say is that it was enormously illegal (prison type illegal) but I am volunteering to discuss it, rather than the legal route. Will you do that with me at some point? It is IMPORTANT! This is not something a top healthcare professional should be doing to anyone, much less someone who did nothing wrong! I am used to top level meetings. I was on the board of directors of a tech start-up with Mark Barrenechea (executive VP of Oracle and CEO of his new company, Open Text) and took part in many high level meetings and those including Gavin Newsom. Please help this situation with me. What was done to me was anathema to decency and sanity. I am a decent, law abiding citizen. I do not deserve to have my plight ignored. I deserve better, anyone deserves better. Ignoring me is an insult. Thank you.     -- Sincerely, Cheryl Petrovich 650 490 6550 P.O. Box 120 Gualala, CA  95445

I will always welcome you. I think of this as your home.

You will always be loved.
Please be the wonderful person I know you to be, the one I trust and in whom I have faith so call me at some point just to help me understand. You are the only one who I trust with my life, a phone call isn't asking much.
You MUST be careful! That woman is truly vicious!
Call me ANY time you need to talk, or need help.
I have always loved you and miss you more than I can even say.