I don't want to wait any longer than absolutely necessary. I have never been told anything. I don't want to ruin anything. I have been jerked around plenty by the mean people. I just want to stop feeling so anxious; it has to be the worst feeling. I have suffered so long, feeling happy will be a welcome stranger; it will overwhelm me. All range of emotions will flood in. I worry I will cry, or faint....or both.