TY

 I have been in love for a very long time. It is a part of me. You are a part of me, but I want what you want. That is love. I just feel like things are too unsettled. I would rather die than have such an unsettled life.  Maybe I have BC and it will settle things for me, but I pray to God you will see me first. I need to see your face, especially your eyes. I need to say to you, "thank you", and, "I love you." 

Then, I will be in the hands of a higher power.