It is hard to keep up good spirits with so much uncertainty going on. It is a tough fight. At times, I just cry. Uncertainty is the hardest for me, yet there is so much of it in life, isn't there? I only wanted to have more time to talk with you, because to me, it was the best life could offer to me, ever. I never enjoyed anything more, except, looking into your eyes. That was absolutely spectacular. I swear, I just vanished into the most comforting place that felt so good, I never wanted to leave. It was like finally finding Heaven, but being forced to leave. (Sorry, I am indulging in my memories.)