When able, please contact me, so I can understand things, I think of you as my lovely friend and miss you so much, but I know now that it was not going to just be a simple waiting period.  I have been beaten up pretty well with all kinds of mental challenges and outright cruelty too. That is not you. Someone wants to make me mess up, hate you, or maybe die from health issues. I wish they would understand I want to know you, not take anything from you. Are you not allowed to have friends? Give me another lie detection, if you have any doubts. I would not be offended.