Please don't take things I write, badly. I am struggling. Sometimes I am not sure I want to live any longer. Life is nothing without you in it. I want you to have the life you want and be happy. Just tell me if I am not included, honestly, then I could make decisions about my remainder of time. No one else needs to design our friendship. Please don't tell anyone else that you don't like me, just me. I really do not care what happens to me, without your friendship in it. Also don't believe anyone but me about what I want, or feel. I won't believe anything they tell me you have said, if it is negative.