You know I have just been doing what I could to get by without being so sad I could not take it, don't you? I was left with such negative thoughts in my head that were meant to depress me. No one would tell me anything. I have no help. It was like I was drowning and kept fighting to stop from sinking. I had to stay positive. I had to beg everyone to keep you safe. I know I am no one special, but I will always do everything to keep you safe and happy. That is how I stayed alive. It has been 4 + years and you never left my thoughts. (I know your kindness)