You know my poems are about and for you, right? The majority are about you and the situation. I needed to do them to stop the pain. It worked to a degree, but it hurt so very much. I cannot even describe how bad it felt, except sheer despair. You had changed my life and I was enjoying it so much, that the shock and sadness of losing you, cut me so low I was stunned. I became so used to the rare beauty you provided in my life, it was the way I always wanted to feel. The lovely way you treated me and your sweetness and the things we had in common kept my feelings alive and cherished. I hold you in such high esteem and love, nothing could ever take that beautiful feeling of love away.