I keep writing like I did when I used to write to you, because it hurts too much not to feel connected. I know I am a fool and writing to myself, but people need to get by in life the best way they can. I am doing that. I have to pretend, yes. Maybe I seem pathetic, but at least I am not a criminal like the people who did this to me. They are abusive, callous, greedy, uncaring, narcissistic MONSTERS!