I don't mean to be off putting with my feelings, but I get scared, which this strange behavior that I have experienced was supposed to generate. I can display as much, or as little as desired, but when I think I am facing death, I want to be honest. It comforts me to know you are in my corner. Nothing else has been positive, but you. You are the good in life and beyond. I do get frightened, but beyond the surface, there is a calm.