I miss you so much. It has been extremely hard dealing with it. I have needed to vent my feelings, because it has been so awful, but whatever I do is up to you, so it is all up to you. There are many things I do not know and may never know. All I know is that I have spent 5 years ignored and abused. I don't ever want that again for me and I don't want it for you either. I don't blame you, I hope you don't blame me. I had no idea that people were so abjectly evil. All I want is to take care of you, love you and protect you.
I come from a place of love, they come from a place of destruction, hate and evil. No comparison. At all.