I am astounded that you could ever stand to be with such a self-centered conniving, cruel individual who would use you to do something horrible to me to make me angry with you, so I would stop caring about you. Too bad for her that she doesn't understand love, faith, trust, or a belief in someone. She thinks she rules the world and all should bow down to her. She is mentally ill. You need to be far away from her.
I did not believe you had anything to do with this EVER! I love you and trust you and always will!

Do what you want, but you need to stand up to her. No one deserves to be treated as you have been. I want to take care of you, not take advantage of you.