What it all comes down to is.....time and trust, waiting and hope and faith.
I have gotten by with them so far, but a lack of patience, fairness and my own weakness and doubts about my own importance to anyone, make it excruciating.

I look at the time remaining and it seems like an endless dark tunnel and anxiety floods in, as was intended; that horrible man's words of making it last forever assist in making a tough situation worse. Only desperate, evil people who know what mental harm those words could inflict, use that kind of tactic. (Psychological espionage)

They did such horrible, dirty things!
Why can't it end earlier?