Obviously I feel like shit, but my WORRY ABOUT YOU IS WORSE!
I had to do something desperate to help free you,
but if you don't want to leave and will risk abuse, or death, then tear me down and deny me. PARDON ME, BUT I HAPPEN TO LOVE YOU AN CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU! Denying your rescuer is not a smart thing to do.
This truly proves that her attorney does NOT care what happens to his clients, or any of the docs he claims to be out to help. Unless she is willing to be thrown into prison for at least 5 years she should drop this entire farce.
Contempt of court can rack up some pretty hard years too. I would not do that to you, but it would be so easy to prove. I never questioned it in the first place. I always thought that you were in trouble with your place of business and we would both be punished for a bit, but it was much worse on me, but that recent court thing was bad. Who is responsible for this? IT WAS ENTIRELY HER! She did not have the GUTS to TALK TO ME!
I do not understand how a company is allowed to force a person adhere to faux legal "law?" The sooner one gets away from it, the sooner one begins a new life without worry of abuse. The entire atmosphere is absolutely unlawful and felonious; not a drop of caring, or compassion.
It is weird that I did nothing to have this happen to me, yet it seems like when I have gotten tired of it and I even kind of fight back, I feel hate radiating back at me. I feel like I have been turned into the scapegoat of the world. The biggest trauma was having to hear the one I love and would give my life for, tear me down in the most humiliating fashion, made me feel like I could not go one. I did not feel as if I was supposed to keep living.
I am surprised is did.
You could not possibly want to be with someone who could murder and you would always be wondering when YOUR number would be up with her. She tried to make it 2 birds w/one stone w/MP's involvement. She wanted you to have only HER family left. They have been trying to isolate you this entire time. They want you to associate bad things with me, not her. Believe me, the bad things have to do with HER ONLY! She is not a good person, she is strongly a bad, vile, evil person! Murderers can be nothing but!
I am trying to free you from that. I am doing it for you. I have no idea if it will help me, or harm me.
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Do you think she could write you a loving poem?
It is all I have wanted to do for the longest time.
Some parents have a realistic view of their children and some parents equate their children's personality traits with their educational objectives, but they are not equatable.
It is weird how some people go out of their way to make their own lives cruel and ugly and then blame others for it. Why do that?
I suppose it is a narcissistic thing. That is one weird and complex psychiatric complexity.
It is strange how the one who is spying on another person seems to be offended about my seeming, in her opinion, to be intrusive into her world, when she invaded in on my private appointment with a psychiatrist (such as she is). It shows how low on the ethics scale her values reside. Maybe if she weren't so intrusive into other people's private lives, she would not hear private thoughts she was never intended to hear. That is why they were intended to be private sessions.
I also dislike intensely that her camp easily blames a great guy for the awful things she did. Even her mother said, "oh he did that, she would never do that, she's too nice!" "Oh well, yeah, a big piece of crap would do that, but not her....." She completely blamed me for wrong doing and him for responding with law, but "she is as fresh and pure as the morning snow.....and also beautiful." (um hm and as delicate as a truck driver!) "She would murder at the drop of a hat, but what a lovely gal!" The mother sounded sweet as could be, but under it all, she knew the real deal.
It must take a lot of effort to live in her world, but it certainly does not seem to be full of love; I think she likes it that way.
I hate being without the one I love; the world seems so empty.
I don't understand why those people seem to feel that they can treat you like garbage and think they can make demands on you and you are supposed to be happy about it.
I hope I am not hated. You mean too much to me. I am sorry if I made things bad, but it really needs to get out that she hurts you. She many just get worse. Let someone love you. Please let me love you.
I know it was my fault that this happened, but shit! I have put up with terrible treatment for a LONG time! Nicole wanted revenge! I DID NOTHING to her, but NOT BE HER! If she is going to be a monster, she has to deal with the consequences! If you can keep living with the one who had your mother killed, that is your nightmare.
She is not nice, sweetie. I am frightened for you. People who are nice cannot plan such torture for other people. Only monsters do that. Your parents looked really sweet. They looked like they could be a sweet couple like us. I love them. Yeah, who throws a fuss like this? Most people are allowed to be who they want to be. Whatever, I am worried about you. I am terrified of losing you, but it is your life; just don't let them steal yours away. If you die; I don't want to do anything any longer. Please don't go away.
I know you did not do the R.O. "She" knows she has been making my life miserable and I have only gone down there when there was a court thing, or being attacked at the hospital. She thinks that is normal behavior? Why would she be doing this if everything were all hunky dory with you? I know MP came to K to kill 2 birds with one stone. MP was her friend. She was also friends with MP's brother Marco. She is in deep. Please get away from her while you have a slight chance. If she can't have you, she wants your assets. I just want you, your laugh, your smile, your loveliness, your sense of humor and kindness. My home is your home (such that it is right now). I just want to take care of you, never scare you, never hurt you
only love you. Always.
I could talk to you forever. I don't look at you and see who I could make you into; I look at you and see the one I have always loved. I love you no matter what. You need to do what makes you feel good. Tell her that she needs to let you be free and she needs to be a strong woman. No one is equal when one has no rights. That is on no level fair. If she hadn't been so hot on torturing me and pushing me into wanting me to get surgery, to maim, or murder me I would not in the same frame of mind, or angry. YOU CANNOT LIVE WITH A PERSON WITH A MIND FOR MURDER, NO MATTER WHO SHE GETS TO DO IT! SHE IS A TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE PERSON AND SHE IS LUCKY SHE IS NOT IN PRISON NOW! She is so mentally ill, she does not understand she is!
Who guards you? Please leave before she injects you with something!
I was still planning to doing all the paperwork. I hope you will not give in to her bullying. It should be what you want, but you need to live live a lot better than now.
I think it is time (for me) to be treated like a human being, not a rat scurrying around. I have done nothing wrong.
I will have a meeting with her, I am not afraid of her, but she is afraid of me.
Her mother thinks you gave me the TRO/RO. Let's make this a freedom for you, okay? I have been so involved each day, each moment. I need you. Did your uncle call? Tell hin I am a good person, okay?
I told Mrs. Moayeri that if Nicole was not holding Greg prisoner, then to tell her to let him go. I do not understand that either. Is she going to give you a shot? Someone needs to stop lying about this. I want to know the truth. Don't drag it out any longer. That attorney is making things worse, because he is an opportunist and a crook. I think he is going to hurt everyone.
Be safe, get rid of him. I think he wants nothing good, but for himself. You deserve to quite and be some where else. I won't feel safe, until I know you are safe. I do not like you being with an abuser. Keep that word in your head.
You are too lovely to be abused. Abusers are one of the worst repeaters.
Remember, you are loved. I am ready to get you at any time. Don't let them bully you.
No one I ever loved like you, nor will I.
Really? I only care about you.
It is nice to have people stick up for you, but this is delusional. I could have sworn Mother Teresa was dead.
Can you come back, so I can understand, please? I get little to no consideration.
Being a friend is better than this. It is up to you, but should an abuser get preferential treatment?
Come with me to Europe.
I get no happiness from this. I hung in for a very long time. Why couldn't it have been civilized? I am going to look like the bad guy, but I am more worried about you. I did not think I was going to run in to her mother. Her mother needs to hear some hard truths about her daughter and deal with it, because you need to be loved. You cannot live this way any longer. Guasco needs to leave the picture. He was no help at all. I deserve to be talked to. I will do anything for you, but I need equal voice time. I said the police said she was an abuser. She did not want to hear that. She need to know things to get her help. No one can get better burying their head in the sand.
This is killing me, because it is not my comfort zone ...........
Nicole cannot claim to be a good person and have people terrorized and abused. Please stick up for yourself, or be confined to living there under her thumb forever. I mean really, hits me with a TRO and not even talk to me? Her mother thinks you gave me the TRO, even though your signature was forged. You know, after 6 years, someone must shit, or get off the pot. A bout of tough time and it will be over. I just don't know what to say. She needs to come clean. Everyone does. So many cowardly people in the world. It is insane.
Please don't hate me. I love you even through these really hard times. I never want to lose you. No one has ever played by any rules.....what rules. I would be dead by now, if not for luck. Then, her mother would still think she is great, but we know she is not and she will end up killing you now, for sure. Guasco will be sure of it. I am sorry I called the wrong ones, but really, get it out in the open. Nicole is mentally ill. Be safe.
Just know, that at any particular time, or day, or night.....I am thinking of you and keeping you warm and safe.
I looked at the FB pic of your parents. No sweeter looking parents were ever seen. They look like pure love.
What do you think of this idea? He goes to visit his uncle! If he invited him to come visit him, what could they do, say no? I think it is a great idea! I could warn the PD ahead of time that I feel his life is in danger, so that they cannot do anything to you before you go. Let's see how they blame me for that. How could they stop him from going? Make sure he speaks with him. I am going to try EVERYTHING! I may also be able to look for someone else to come and see him, if that doesn't work for some reason. A long time ago, I wrote a letter to Tom, but he contacted Moayeri and or Guasco. This time I know more about Moayeri and Guasco.
I am just saying things in a raw and salacious way, to get attention. I know it sucks. We will go back to decorum later. Lets concentrate on this getting over.
Mass mailing Monday.
Love to you.
There are two things you can do, both quite effective and together represent a way out of the narcissist's firing line.
Firstly, you must not give the narcissist space. The narcissist is always trying to work themselves into your personal space, by encroaching past your personal boundaries, trying to get your energy hooked onto their vicious pull. Resist the natural urge of trying to go with the flow of whatever current they are trying to create for you, as the current always leads to a dangerous precipice.
Secondly, learn to shut down your emotions and feelings when around certain people. You don't necessarily need to shut them down completely, but let's say 80–90%. If you don't wear your heart on your sleeve, if you are not easy to read and pry open, the narcissist struggles to get a foothold onto your emotions.
Of course going no contact is good, but it is not always possible. Therefore, boundaries, protecting your personal space, and shutting down your emotions, are the way to go.
The narcissist will bugger off in the pursuit of a more appealing target.
You just won't be very fun or interesting to them.
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Where you are concerned time has stopped. Nothing is different. I hear of stories where people waiting during war for someone they love to come back. I knew when I met you, you were different. You were the one I had known forever somehow. The one I always looked for. It was like the search was over when I met you. I am not saying you must feel that same way, but it was such a relief, like, "ah the search for anyone else is through."
I really wish you didn't have anything anyone else wanted, though. It is like they acted like you were the long lost king of the universe, but only of what you could do for them. It was like you were the supplier of all, but nothing came back to you; like they all grab at you, but no one really appreciates you. I don't know, I guess it is because you never seemed like the center of anyone's heart, just the center of their demands. You never seemed to be pampered. God, I wish I could pamper and adore you.
It was like she was afraid that if anyone appreciated you too much, it would show her up. So, why not do something about it, instead of being mean? You are someone who seems so open to being loved. You don't just look at someone and wish something could be done; you either want to, or not. If one isn't motivated to love someone, why feel the right to keep them from having love flow to them?
I am not lovely, or wonderful, but love would never dry up toward you.
I wonder how long this life is going to last? I wish I had not moved here. It is just such a nothing life. It seems like my dog does more than me. It seems like we should at least be able to talk. At least you function. I have no real purpose.
It is like I have painted myself into life's little corner.
I need to make a plan. I am afraid of the day when I just give up.
If I had my way, I would help you with your workand just enjoy the little things like looking at your sweet face and listening to your lovely voice. I cannot think of anything better.
Is there any way of expandiing to that? I keep picturing driving to nice places and looking at amazing sunsets and even more amazing sunrises.
I know something really wrong is going on and why we are the brunt of it. Why do some people get to have their way and we just sit back and take it?
I want it to be the last year of subservience. At least for me. I have become a part of a mental cage. Will you help me break out of it?
Didn't it feel hopeful for awhile? I want that again.
Caring about you was the most wonderful part of my life. It still is.
I have watched the show, "love on the spectrum" a few times. I was thinking how honest those people seem to be. I was thinking how nice it would be if everyone were like that.
I was kind of thinking my son had a touch, because he was always so serious and he had a hard time talking to me and he seemed to be uncomfortable in social situations. Even as a child, playing baseball, he would go pitch, or catch, finish his job and go sit quietly on the bench while other kids were goofing off. I was glad he was not like them, but it was noticeable. He would rather read about the weather on other planets than go play video games. He is still a nerd. I love that.
Are you sleeping okay? You need to keep up your sleep to stay healthy. Please? I need you. Lots of people need you. You are important.
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I miss even the slightest changes in things. I hang on to even knowing you could be there. You make life beautiful. You are an amazing soul. Never give up on you.
I won't. ❤
I do want to get revved up and ready to travel.....you too? (I mean travel for you, not get fixed up.....you are already beautiful!!!!)
My house went up by 1.1 mil. I would like to not spend it, but I will to get you rescued. I would love to put it in the bank and make bucks from it.
