I have been told nothing about why this is so obviously fake and yet I was thrown into jail and beaten up verbally, tormented and frightened and told that it could go one forever. How am I supposed to react to that? How is anyone supposed to react to that? I cannot relax, or sleep well. I am always tired and sad. It was a last minute, parting blow against me. It makes life hell. Sometimes I lash out. Who wouldn't?
At times, I just want to die.