I am frightened of possibly alienating you, but I don't know what else to do. They have been too weird, scary, mysterious and desperate to just wait. I may lose your friendship, but it would be worse to lose you from this life. I cannot risk that. You are so wonderful and your loss would be sorely felt by so many. I don't matter. You do.
I know a person of quality and loveliness.....you are that person.
It is why I love you.