This has been my mourning period. Queen Victoria was in mourning for 40 years, so 5 years years isn't record breaking, but she was younger when she started. It has been so difficult. I have never had such a heart wrenching period of time, plus being treated like dirt. People never minded saying insults to me. That is the same thing that happened by Dr. Moon; she just went off like a rocket with a tirade of insults, just like that judge when everyone left the room. She ripped into me, like a gator rips into a chicken by a tour guide. It made me pass out.  I have never done anything to deserve such terrible diatribes and treated like the world's lowest filth. I became somewhat used to it. I guess it was supposed to make me feel unworthy of you and maybe enticed me to kill myself. 

All I knew was that it made me worry about you more and made me fight harder to make certain you were kept safe. I was so worried, I would wake up frightened and in a sweat. My love never waned, nor did my desire to keep you safe.  I made a prayer of a promise to always do so.

Be blessed my most wonderful, caring friend. I adore you and always will. Have a beautiful coming year!