Love is not abusive. I don't think you have been treated nicely, or with love for a very long time. It hurts me. I can't stand the thought of you being taken for granted, or abused. Abusers don't change. They can pretend for awhile, but they go back to that comfortable place. You shouldn't have to be used to users, or abusers. Look what has been done to me and to you? You have been humiliated. That is not right. Find out how it feels to be actually loved. Live the way you want, but be certain it IS the way you want. I am lonely and you seemed lonely too. When I spoke with you, it felt like I never wanted to stop. It was exhilaration! I cannot picture anyone else in my life.