It seems so weird to be kept away like I am a terrible person, when I have done nothing wrong. I don't even know if anyone knows what went on. That awful attorney would say cruel things and upset me. Why did he have to do that? The people who put this thing together and carried it out, just tossed everything at me and had no concern how it would affect me. I am sure they figured my various health possibilities would possibly harm, or kill me. They were expecting it.
It was Hell. It was awful. They were wrong.

All I care about is you. I go through anger and thoughts of revenge against them, but when it comes down to it, what did I want? I wanted to see you again, to know you were well, safe and happy. thas always loomed the largest in my mind. 
I cannot help that I love you. It is just a fact. It is how I deal with it that matters. I would rather be near you and be the way you want me, than not be able to see you at all. I don't want to be rejected for my feelings. They mean I will always be there for you. It's a good thing. :-)