I keep waking up too early, then I get nauseated. I think too much. I miss you so much. I wish I could find a more inventive way to say that. I hope that someday I won't have to miss you any longer. I feel like people were supposed to know each other....or already did at some point prior. Being around you feels natural. I just have to learn how to not pass out. I want to laugh over something silly again. I want to feel your hug. I want to have that lunch with you, but you ran out the door. My heart had so many ups and downs. You captivated me.