I felt pretty low recently and needed some support. I don't often do that, but I felt pretty terrible. I have been nervous about if you will want to be my friend. I haven't had to face it for all this time, but now it is getting close. All I have longed for for over 5 years may, or may not happen. I am scared to death. I keep saying I have faith, but other things happen and I end up in the dumps. I have been strong, but I am feeling weak suddenly. All I can think is that "I want to do everything for him and give him everything", but maybe that isn't anything to you. I know it will all be better when I can see you again, since I want what you want.