Please don't be upset with anything I say here, since I cannot explain clearly. Also, I am feeling so alone, frightened and sad. Life has been uncertain and scary, due to the attacks that have been done against me. This has not been a normal, nor easy time. I am no different than anyone else, I have human fears and sadness, only this has been a long contracted period of time living with the threats, taunts, insults, loss of a normal life and have me blamed for everything. I am sorry, I screw up. One thing in my favor, is that I am kind, they are not. I need an equal chance just to be a normal person.