I may have worded what I said incorrectly. I should have said I love you and then said I may really be ill from cancer.  I was not believing cancer because I have been missing you for so long, how could this be happening? It isn't fair. Hope I can get Dr. Ayyar to follow up.
It is just that I never get the truth, so how do I know who I can trust? Only you.
I hope you get copies of everything. I could not just be getting to know you again and then die? Can't exceptions for people who suffered for nearly 5 years (or at least 5) and now may have cancer get a break?
Just know that I will always love and be in love with you, even if I am dying. I want your face in my mind forever.