1. I have tried to stay upbeat for so long, but when that Dr. Moon said she thought I had emotional problems, I thought, "wow, I have worked so hard to stay happy, and I am always nice to people and yet people like that just dump on you and you try and suffer in silence, but where does it get me? Cruel people screaming in my face and other cruel people who think it is normal to hire people to treat me terribly to break me down enough so I want to die!" I always worry about others, but I feel like not a soul cares what happens to me. I am tired. I never asked for anything. I just wanted to see his smile and hear his laugh. All I get is cruelty and lies. I have had to live in disgrace, for five years. Does that seem right to anyone? You told the truth and they put me in jail. They beat me down and I battled on. I guess the cruel remarks of Dr. Moon just made me feel so sad and belittled. I am tired and I hate my life. You made it beautiful and I will always appreciate it. I just can't take it any longer. I had no idea that love could be so intense, but it also hurts intensely too. Goodbye I guess, lovely one.