This is just a small part of an article about my Great Aunt getting married after her father, my Great Grandfather died. (I need to buy a membership to get the rest.)
...18, 1932,he married the former Elizabeth Von Martinitz of Chicago, Illinois, who is the daughter of the late Dr. Stanley. H. Von Martinitz, who was named a Count during the Chancellorship of Otto Bismarck.
I used to love your phone calls so much. If that was all I could get right now, I would be so excited until I could actually be near you and touch you. All I can do right now is dream. You are the only one I have loved for many years. I can't even remember when I last had a romantic kiss with anyone. I just didn't want it. But, I am certainly open to it now......just being near you is very exciting.
You are one person who has always been there for me.
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You make it so easy for me to love you.
Have a really nice evening! If I lived in that area, I would probably pick up some little specialty at Molly Stone's for dinner. They have a very nice produce section and natural beauty products and protein and veg powder drinks too. I just like the ambiance too. (It's on my street too!)
Since life doesn’t come with an instruction book, we remain learners all throughout our lives. Quotabulary picks out the most famous Zen quotes to guide you through your journey of life.
Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know.
– Pema Chödrön
Often in life, there comes a time, when you can no longer deal with your problems, when you can no longer see your path clearly, and when you no longer know how to deal with the turmoil―that is called life. However, difficult times arrive, just to teach us life’s most important lessons.
Nevertheless, it can be very difficult to deal with them. This is exactly when you go to the Zen to get all the answers. Zen is a form of Buddhism, which puts an emphasis on meditation to attain peace of mind. The Zen masters say that it is more of a way of living than a religion, and everyone can practice it, irrespective of their religion.
Practicing Zen is believed to have a calming effect on the mind and body, which not only helps one to lead a healthy life, but also to deal with various problems efficiently. “When the student is ready, the teacher will appear”, the Zen says. So, if you are ready to learn, here are a few inspirational and motivational teachings to help you lead a peaceful life.
Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace. ― Dalai Lama
What was never lost can never be found. ― Zen Proverb
Those who are awake, live in a state of constant amazement. ― Buddha
The true miracle is not walking on water or walking in air, but simply walking on this earth. ― Thích Nhất Hạnh
If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. ― Lao Tzu
Life is like stepping onto a boat which is about to sail out to sea and sink. ― Shunryu Suzuki
Don’t seek, don’t search, don’t ask, don’t knock, don’t demand – relax. ― Osho
Old friends pass away, new friends appear. It is just like the days. An old day passes, a new day arrives. The important thing is to make it meaningful: a meaningful friend – or a meaningful day. ― Dalai Lama
All that we are, is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become. ― Buddha
Be master of mind rather than mastered by mind. ― Zen Proverb
When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be. ― Lao Tzu
Respect life, revere life. There is nothing more holy than life, nothing more divine than life. ― Osho
When you seek it, you cannot find it. ― Zen Proverb
The trouble is, you think you have time. ― Buddha
To a mind that is still, the whole universe surrenders. ― Chuang Tzu
Each morning, we are born again. What we do today is what matters most. ― Buddha
We shape clay into a pot, but it is the emptiness inside that holds whatever we want. ― Lao Tzu
Move and the way will open. ― Zen Proverb
The purpose of our lives is to be happy. ― Dalai Lama
Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can’t help them, at least don’t hurt them. ― Dalai Lama
If you realize you have enough, you are truly rich. ― Lao Tzu
When we meet real tragedy in life, we can react in two ways – either by losing hope and falling into self-destructive habits, or by using the challenge to find our inner strength. Thanks to the teachings of Buddha, I have been able to take this second way. ― Dalai Lama
When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. ― Zen Proverb
To live a pure unselfish life, one must count nothing as one’s own in the midst of abundance. ― Buddha
Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible. ― Dalai Lama
Happiness is here, and now. ― Thích Nhất Hạnh
Even death is not to be feared by one who has lived wisely. ― Buddha
When you think everything is someone else fault, you will suffer a lot. When you realize that everything springs only from yourself, you will learn both peace and joy. ― Dalai Lama
Let go, or be dragged. ― Zen Proverb
Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished. ― Lao Tzu
The most important point is to accept yourself and stand on your two feet. ― Shunryu Suzuki
Have a mind that is open to everything and attached to nothing. ― Tilopa
When walking, walk. When eating, eat. ― Zen Proverb
This dew like life fades away; time speeds swiftly. In this short life of ours, avoid involvement in superfluous things and just study the Way. ― Dōgen Zenji
Act without expectation. ― Lao Tzu
Life begins where fear ends. ― Osho
Our sorrows and wounds are healed only when we touch them with compassion. ― Buddha
Love is the absence of judgment. ― Dalai Lama
Flow with whatever may happen, and let your mind be free: Stay centered by accepting whatever you are doing. This is the ultimate. ― Chuang-Tzu
If we do not know how to take care of ourselves and to love ourselves, we cannot take care of the people we love. Loving oneself is the foundation for loving another person. ― Thích Nhất Hạnh
Prefer to be defeated in the presence of the wise than to excel among fools. ― Dōgen Zenji
We do not exist for the sake of something else. We exist for the sake of ourselves. ― Shunryu Suzuki
To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” ― Thích Nhất Hạnh
To seek is to suffer. To seek nothing is bliss. ― Bodhidharma
In a mind clear as still water, even the waves, breaking, are reflecting its light. ― Dōgen Zenji
To understand everything is to forgive everything. ― Buddha
Man stands in his own shadow and wonders why it is dark. ― Zen Proverb
To receive everything, one must open one’s hands and give. ― Taisen Deshimaru
Do not follow the idea of others, but learn to listen to the voice within yourself. ― Dōgen Zenji
The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. ― Lao Tzu
Smile, breathe and go slowly. ― Thích Nhất Hạnh
The basic principles of Zen teachings are to relax and be at utmost peace with oneself. Like Osho said, “Zen is not effort. Effort is tension, effort is work, effort is to achieve something. Zen is not something to achieve. You are already that. Just relax, relax so deeply that you become a revelation to yourself.”
Don't ever lose hope, okay? If you do, I cannot hold on. Just know how much I care about you. I will do anything for you. Don't ever forget that. I would love to spend the rest of my life taking care of you.
You know how I feel about you.
I have been so sad lately. I am so worried.
Hi! Are you okay?
You know I think of you all of the time. I worry about you and I am so afraid I will not do something that will help you. I do what I am able, but if you contacted me, I would be there in as little time as I could.
I hope you will be able to come to court, but would they allow it? I was hoping that man would be in jail before, that would have hopefully meant, it was over. I don't know. I just wish you would get away and figure things out later. Any time you even have a moment to get away, please do. Who knows if they will try and harm you before the court date? Am I wrong about that whole thing? I mean if they are trying to kill me, I would not think they would mind killing you. Did the police chief contact you? Any way, you slice it, you need to escape. (Unless they are in jail See, I have more questions than answers.)
Are things as desperate as I think? If so, get away any moment you can, then things can be worked out. Get rough, if you must, or drug them. It is your life to save, or lose. You need to stay alive.
I keep wondering how close to the truth I am. But I still wonder if you were able to tell your story to the PD, (because that would mean it should be over and we could talk, or have to wait for legal procedure)?
I don't want to lose a friend just because a couple of bullies thought they could abuse the law and lie to the Court and force their will.
I hurt each day from this injustice. I am sure you hurt even more. It is time to end it and make the bad people pay for their crimes.
When I was a child, I would lie on my stomach under my great aunt's piano and read while she played Chopin. It was the most ornate piano one could imagine. She said it had belonged to the Post cereal family. It had a deep purple velvet cushion on the bench with long dangling tassels that would swing back and forth during a particularly lively piece.
A magical place, where she lived. And she was the magician. She loved the Ouija board and other mystical practices. She had long red nails that she would run along my arm. After awhile, though, it felt like the skin was going to tear, but I craved the attention, so I kept quiet.
Just thinking about those times, made me feel more relaxed now too.
Between the political environment, the "thing,"missing you and worrying about the next attempt on my life, I have been a "bit" tightly strung. And I put too much importance on certain input. I am actually beginning to breathe again.
Be well. In my heart.
Listen to poetry being recited on TV (YouTube) right now. "Do not go Gentle into that Good Night" read by Dylan Thomas, Now, "The Raven."
I needed the Rage poem! :-)
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
This has been a strange experience for both of us. I want to be supportive of you for anything you need. Don't ever feel you need to be anything but yourself around me. It would hurt if you weren't. This has been a nightmare, but you brought more hope and more joy to my life than you can imagine.
I dedicate my remaining life to you and your needs.
I guess the problem is that the Court thing is coming up and I am feeling scared. I have been been beaten down for such a long time and endured so many disappointments and abuse, that I am weary. They want me sad and punished and I am, for doing nothing wrong. I feel so alone and abandoned. I am embarrassed that I have honest emotions. Most people do not need to endure it being made into a court thing and feeling ridiculed. I have been illustrated as a predator and the one person who could set things right, isn't. I don't know why. All I know is that I still care no matter what. But I am emotional. No one seems to act like I am human. I hurt like mad, but I also love like mad too.
I never felt so connected to anyone else before. It caught me by surprise, but it was so nice, especially when I found myself not even needing to speak to you to have a conversation.
I would love having you in my life, in any way. That is how much you mean to me. (But not if I am unwanted.)
Those cruel selfish jerks, fucked with my mind and did not care. I am a nice person and should not have to suffer all I have suffered for so long. It is cruel. The jury will understand just how cruel when they hear me. I will be so emotional they will have no doubt about my suffering. I told the "powers that be" that your suffering has been even greater than mine. I know it has. I will never doubt that. They are monsters.
I hate them for doing it to you the most. You are kind and beautiful and they had no right to subject you to such horror. You did nothing wrong. I did nothing wrong. You deserve nothing but lovely in your life. I will do anything to help you attain it, even if I am not included, because I you and it is only right.
How is your day going so far?
I know how having little to do can be tiring, but at least hopefully you no longer have people holding you prisoner. I wish I knew exactly what happened. It was weird to actually threaten powerful people to do what I asked, or I would call for an investigation. I sure hope that really worked. I have been more used to no response. I think that some of the officers may have come to my defense. But, the mayor has seniority over everyone. I would just like to know what actually "came down." I know what is going on about as much as Helen Keller would have known. I hear nothing, see nothing, nor is anything written to me. It is damn frustrating. I was not going to let your plight be forgotten. I will always do what you need to become, or stay safe, or to be happy, or feel loved. That is a part of my nightly prayer.
I have a few paintings the are fairly nice, but some could use repair. A few could be of real value, if I do have restoration done. It would be great if there were show like the British one "The Repair Shop" they have restored many paintings, no charge for anything. I keep dreaming they would repair the tea set MP had smashed, or smashed herself. The HOA knows about her. I know she and the awful man destroyed me to them and said terrible things about me to them. That is how they operate.
Wonder what it is like to have such a cruel mind? Glad I don't know......nor you.
Hugs and love.
I really didn't mean to smack your thigh that time, it was out of enthusiasm that I raised my hand and brought it down, but it was hard as a rock! Nice! I thought later that it probably got the spies in an uproar!
I was kicking myself ever after, but it was a nice surprise. I was having so much fun reading the books with you. It was the best! I thought, "he is such a lot of fun!"
It is overcast and threatening rain. Trying to decide what to make for breakfast. I would have oatmeal, but I think I'm out, so pancakes and fruit, couple of eggs, or maybe French toast. I also need to use old bananas for bread, or my shakes.
As I mentioned my life is scintillating. My dog is still asleep.
Waffles and fruit? 🙃🍒
I am getting the idea how things are working with the blog. (About time!)
I got the pedal machine and now it just needs a bit of assembly.
Back soon! Hugs!
Ah! Julia Child said she grew up in Pasadena, CA! That is where my father grew up and my great-grandfather owned the newspaper, Pasadena Star News. He wrote a small book of poetry for his wife, Mary.
Finally dinner is ready!! It is very nice! I made rice and broccoli to go along with it. I am enjoying it.
There is a picture on Fire TV of Julia Child with Jacques Pepin, but she is holding a gun! WTF? I know she was in some kind of Secret Service, but I heard she was in secretarial, or office work of some kind. It seems like Pepin has looked the same forever! My miserable bandwidth isn't bringing up the show....yet anyway....Oh! It came on! He and Julia are eating the biggest burgers EVER! I think she lived in Pasadena for awhile. That is my family place, besides Iowa.
They are making steak, I am cooking liver....but I think the liver I make is very good. It doesn't even seem like liver. Julia is whacking the steak like a caveman with a club. Wow, her blouse came unbuttoned and her bra was showing. No one has caught it yet! At least it is staying together right now. Lax camera work! Her bra was hanging out for awhile!Ooops! Peek a boo!
My son keeps sending me pics of the pizzas he is making. My stomach has been growling. I am going to need to make something similar, but I don't have much to use. I will see what I can find, otherwise I have some chicken, or liver.
"I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
how wonderful life is while you're in the world......
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen...." ~ Elton John "Your Song"
I hope it will all be over by Feb 23. Do you think it will?
I want it to over, so I may be able to see you. It has been so long!
(I don't know what you mean. It could mean no.)
I heard that the new virus strain coming out of England could be more virulent. I will need to be very careful. I have not had a vaccine as yet. I kind of wanted to wait to be certain it was safe. I go nowhere, but my renter does, but on a limited basis and he is always masked and sprays rubbing alcohol everywhere. Okay, lunch. I hope you have/had a nice one. Then, housework.😟😱3q
Friday. Time to have a relaxing rest. If you have a hot tub, what a lovely way to relax. I used to have one outside in Millbrae and when I would walk languidly back to the house, I would see the animal world on the way. It was before my desperate attempt to save the place by dividing it up as rental units. I basically renewed the entire rotting guts and made it in lovely shape again. Then the new company bought it and ripped it from stem to stern and turned it ugly. I kept planting fruit trees and put a lovely gazebo in with a flooring of brick. It was nice, except for airport noise and traffic, both of which I became involved with trying to change. I was fairly well liked, until this thing came along and I became a pariah. No one would help me. One certainly finds out who one's allies end up being. No one. Well, I wanted the planes to go up Westborough toward the ocean, or even a bit further up. I don't know what ended up happening. I know certain towns forbid planes from making noise, but they were allowing Millbrae to be bombarded, especially when it rained. I put an end to it, but w/o me there to nag, who knows? The street is probably a race track by now. Oh well. I used to work long hours in the yard. I would be a big muddy mess, tired, but it felt good. I'd clean off and soak in the hot tub and sleep really well.
Found an interesting program on my Fire TV called "Gatsby in Connecticut: The untold Story." It is a raging dispute amongst Fitzgerald scholars about how much Fitzgerald's time in 1920, Connecticut influenced his writing of "The Great Gatsby". I have just begun watching, but it seems fascinating. I think you would like it.
Knowing puts the mind at ease. Not knowing is a cause for anxiety, stress and sadness. I have spent over 5 years not knowing. I think I deserve a lot of understanding for my insecurity and worry. I have always looked for answers. I have had to effect a sort of zen attitude to get by and a lot of writing, but I still suffer the effects of the mystery. It is purposely confusing and cruel. This was always intended as a mind game. I would not wish it on anyone. Not even terrible people. I gave thank you gifts to a beautiful caring person and punishment is what I got back. That is awful.
