River

I guess all I can do is wait and see what you want. I suffered for over 5 years but with the hope of friendship keeping up my mental strength. I am truly handicapped by not having any information and merely conjuring. I feel like a science experiment. All I have going for me is my love, kindness, honesty, caring, devotion, loyalty and conscience.  

Other than that, this thing has been unfair, criminal, inhumane and abusive. I have become different in some ways and have a permanent river of sadness running through me.