I worked so hard earlier, that my face was dripping wet. It was like when I played soccer and salt came out after I was so profusely sweaty.
|\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\
I want to hold you and look into your eyes.
Okay, the workers are all around doing the high pressure wash all around us, so here I sit hoping they don't go faster than expected, since we are not ready at all for their arrival! Unfortunately my renter is a serial procrastinator and I called him and he said he took a sleeping pill at dawn! That is not good! Yikes! That does not help me at all!I am panicking and he is sleeping! I want to shape up the papers, so it may take a bit before they are ready to go, but not long!
I hate being in the middle of things! I was really depending on him! In one set of papers. I explain, between the lines why you are doing it; that you are being abused; etc. I may send them to a few different places,
Love.
I will explain everything in the paperwork. No call (yet) in return for my message. Maybe I was too eager. Who knows? Nothing is as expected any longer. "🎜🎶Anything goes!🎜 🎶". My day is basically beginning. Hope all is well with you! Hugs!
I will sleep soon. I was up all night, except when I dozed off for a short time.😊
Good morning!
|
|
Do need to tell some of the bad. 1.Did he ever threaten you with a gun? (It asks on the form)2. Threaten your job? 3.Threaten your life? 4.Threaten your family's safety?
I know, it is difficult.
I will also say that you need to speak privately w/the judge, because it is public record. And also privately with a psychologist. (I would come too, if you asked me, but you may want privacy).
I have no idea of your circumstances personally, with your heart, but all I know is that I want to take care of it and love you until any of your pain goes away. (I feel like I have loved you forever!)
I only want your Happiness to prevail! 😘
I don't usually talk the way I write.
I am a tad bit more refined when talking.
You make the "spice" in me come out, though......
you make me feel spicy!😋🌮🌮
💥😌😂
It looks as if it could be very nice out; if not a bit windy. It is extremely bright outside. It really would be a nice day to sit on a beach by the ocean and have a picnic. I haven't done that for ages. But today seems to be designated to getting the upper deck cleaned up for the upcoming power spraying of the building and some kind of treatment of the wood. That all means that all our personal crap must get stuffed into the house......even the BBQ, which has its share of bird "gifts" on it. I just got covers for the BBQ and the exercise bike in the mail yesterday, so I am ready for it to be cleaned and covered and shoved into the house....ugh, crowded! It most likely needs cleaning on the inside too. These yearly assaults on those of us residing here who cannot figure out where our monthly robbery in the form of dues (Nearly $500!) goes.....but it isn't nearly enough of a return! I wrote back to the HOA president, with the rest of the condo owners included saying that we get very little in return for that large sum of money we throw away a month. I said my mother said that she pays nearly the same as me, but for every THREE MONTHS! They have all kinds of amenities; even a pool and restaurant! I am always the rabble rouser! I could have a nice car for the $500 monthly payment! I know I sound like a curmudgeon, but when things get tight and my kitchen sink is still sitting on the floor; something is super screwed up!
I know, my daily life is scintillating; isn't it? My mother was talking about going on the patrol rounds at night in a golf cart with some other resident! That is pretty silly; but whatever; she said she used to do it when her husband was alive. I am glad she keeps busy! She teaches line dancing and works in the library....at ninety! I would be lucky to make my own oatmeal at 90! I don't mean to add on more attractive qualities, but ugh, I'd rather go hiking, or visiting a museum; well she is leaving soon for an Alaskan cruise, so that is nice! She said she wanted let me know in case I sent her a perishable goody that would waste away on her porch, so instead I sent her a set of 3 personal alarms.
Well, I'd better not make you feel too envious of my opulent lifestyle.....but shut my mouth; you are actually suffering; I want you out and maybe you🌞🌞🤟 will want to kick up some shit with me. Let's give it to those assholes! I do need to know a bit of detail, so a judge will feel motivated to restrain and I would be motivated to be really pissed off!
Be well, get some vit d!! Hugs and love!
You are my hero. Never forget it.😍😇
You really are, don't be modest! That sweetness you have and your fun attitude and always looking after me saved me. You were more caring toward me than anyone; and it did not feel perfunctory; it felt delightful and sincere.
You made me love you by being YOU!
💕
I hope you can let me know if you think I should accept the show's offer. Lots of numbers gives me an idea of yes! 📺
The show wants an answer asap. So, I will either have to tell him your situation, or if I send in the motion to change attorneys and it is granted; maybe it will be a moot point. I should not make it so complicated that they won't want to handle it, or they could possibly refer it to a bigger show, or news source.
jas yourself!
Hi! I was able to get some decent sleep.
Hey, there was a Fed Ex envelope here for me! It was from a TV show, "Judge Mathis." I (we) need to think about this! They think my case could be good for their TV show! This could be an opportunity to
have a forum! It makes me nervous, but if we frame it correctly; it could be a very lovely story! How many situations would ever be like ours?
It could be amazing! We would have to make it palatable for TV, so no one could sue the show, or whatever they may think. I think it could be a very interesting show, if we do .
I adore you and love you. I hope I will see you sometime soon.
Just the thought of you.........!
I am filling in for you, by getting your words out, you need to back me and protect me, since no one has the right to circumvent your right to free speech. If I do not speak for you, your voice will be gone eternally. Please approve of my speaking up for your truth. I would only do the right thing for him , which would free him and stop his freedom from being compromised. It would create a domino effect of truth and freedom. The only people who would not approve; are criminals.
You will always back me, right? I will always back you and figure out ways to free you. This is going to be extraordinary. We MUST back each other.
I hope your day was good! I hope your evening will be good too. I think when I do a change of attorney; it will be In Pro Per., or Pro Se, Pro Se& pria Persona (In Pro Per )In Propria Persona (In Pro Per)When a person represents himself or herself without a lawyer. This comes from the Latin for "in one's own proper person." (See also pro per, pro se.)
Representing oneself. Serving as one's own lawyer.
I may do them at the same time (the two things) Then it will be a solo venture. ........................///////...................................................................................................................................//////////////////////////////..............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
I had something wake me early. so naturally you can see what happens.....
I suppose it is time to rest. I hope you have a nice night. You are in my mind......and in my heart! xxo!
I hope that if I suggest something, that if you don't like it you will find a way to let me know. I am going to take some risks, but carefully. We just need to proceed with caution.....quickly.
I do not care about punishment except for that what you have suffered. My dearest one should never suffer, because he lives his life making things better for others.
He is the embodiment of love and affection.
I have no reason to understand why those who have no right to run the lives of others, may do so with impunity, but her victims live and suffer like a pariah. That is when life makes no sense to me at all. I believe that it calls for "eye for an eye retaliation", except when it comes to blind rage that can never be equaled, or ended.
I wouldn't care if she weren't punished; except for their (narcissists) known record of being a person who cannot resist endless retaliation. Never legal, but her accomplice thinks it is. That is a sickness.
But it also is intentional infliction of emotional distress.
I was gone for the better part of the day. It was a drag, but at least I got vit D from the sun, not just the supps. I ate half my lunch, so it will be for dinner w/added veggies. I swear, I looked as pale as a person could w/o death being involved! Too much indoor time. That must end!
I hate missing you.
I am going to work on papers tonight.
I also need a strategy.
It was hot waiting in the car. I opened both doors and got some relief.
There was no Internet by the hospital, like there is at K. I did not have the key to the car , so I tried to snooze a bit. I had hoped to do my work, but no connection. I am feeling like my eyes are doing better somewhat. I was feeling fragile, though. That annoys me. I need to beat it. I want you to be well. Please back me in my results. I will try and show it to you before I send. Nothing bad happens due to you in this. I need to be effective. If I do well, you do well. My heart is determined and trusts you as well as loves you. I love my faithful and caring heart, because it loves you. It always feels right.
I repeat myself out of adoration.
The time I need goes too fast.
``````````````````````````````````````````````````e2222222222222222222wqqqqq1`q
I only just got back ==============================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================================🤟======================================================================================================================================================================================================================
I wish I were not so sleepy I miss you too much too often!
Sending all my love!
Big hugs
and loving kisses.💕👫
I will be taking my renter to get a medical procedure, which will give me time to get some things I need done.
I am astonished!
I will do what I said about a new representation. If you okay it, then I will do it.
I am not a game player; (except fun games, never hurtful) let's always be honest, okay?
I would do anything for you. 💥
Please help me; if I help you, etc. I want you to be protected. I know they did things to make me doubt you, but I don't.
I love you; that is it. 🤟
Watching "Hollywood House Lift" with Jeff Lewis. Wow, he seems so much more centered! I am feeling like crap because I am seeing all these lovely homes and here I need a big dumpster and a shovel and a someone with muscle and a low hourly rate, or a lump sum estimate. My renter is not stepping up. 😐
My Internet keeps going out all day today. I just happen to catch a few times when it is available.I keep feeling like I am being kept from you. It makes me feel sad and lonely, but I have no control over it, so I should relax and hope you are finding some peace. Maybe since it has been so brutal by the bad guys I have been feeling easily shaken up and vulnerable. I wonder a lot about life is for you and want to hurry and get things normal again. I am always thinking about you and how to impart comforting words, but I am not sure how to say the correct things. I know you are amazing and you will get freedom soon. Just be happy, no matter who you want to be around in the end; I would just appreciate knowing you and see if you want anything to do with me in the long run.
All I know is that I have loved you for a long time and I want to love you a very long time more. I may pass away, who knows, but I want to be responsible for helping you get free. That is my goal. If I may, I would love to hug you for an extended time period. I want you to get more than revenge; I want you to get reparations for your suffering. I know it had to be horrible. If I had permission, I would sign for you to get a change of attorney. I would never do that w/o your permission, but wow, it would be helpful. I would have to be accused and then I would throw it back in his face and I would say that what he has done to us was never valid! and that I know who did it.MP, of course!
Sending my entire love to you;
i need no one else! Ever! 💞😙🙏📿
Hi, how are you? Has your day been nice....enough? I hope your limitations are short lived, but perhaps they have lightened up there? I wish I were done with my mess and enjoying you.
ONLY DOCTORS SHOULD HAVE THE SAY OVER ABORTION!
Hi Sweetie,
I was MIA most of the earlier part of the day by trying to get my form to go through on the Internet, but I never was able to get it to go.It was too bad, since it was very well done. The second time doing it was not as detailed, but I outlined things and said I would fill them in later.
They seem to be a good group, but we shall see.
All that is important is that I will get you free sometime soon; just keep that in mind and just stay on the same page with me, okay? Otherwise, it may never happen for either one of us.......
Bella, my doggie, photo-shopped by my renter; she looks like an aging movie star, or a bag lady....she looks adorable! She's a hoot! I love my messy 14 year old baby. She is not open to grooming! She will bite! Bad girl! That "lipstick" makes it extra sad..... 💋
My mother said she is going on a cruise to Alaska, so that if I get an idea to send her something that could spoil to wait until she gets back.; I should not do it. What I did send her were some personal alarms. We were talking about them. She always poo poos things like that, but I want her to have them!She said, "what is some old man going to grab me? But, she sounded so proud of me when I got a A+ in my fire arms class at the junior college....a long time ago. My friend happened to come to my class when I was having my final. I got a bull's eye when I shot a .357 Magnum for my final, which garnered myself an A+ for the class!
I will get it going no matter how it goes! That a-hole from the "important" office is needing an education and we will give it to him! No one has the right to hold anyone against their will!!!
Can you do a bargain?
They forged; if I could do it I would use it to get you help; not fuckin' rip you off and hold you prisoner!
No one who loves you could hurt you like this! Damn! I get so angry!
I may not be fabulous, but I love you enormously and want to make you happy, sweet heart!
Maybe you could love me someday?!
Sweet lovey, I wish we could talk! I ache so much!
This picture didn't come out!
Does anyone else call you sweetheart?
I hope I am the only one!
I am not a narc, so no worries. I never even
had the chance to get to know you well, except
the lovely things I did find out, which helped
to solidify my love for you.
you are kind and don't hurt people, even
their feelings.
My love is solid and forever.
Good night sweetie!
My Computer froze up when I finished writing for help, but couldn't send it. I hope it will relax. so I can send it. I couldn't even copy it. What are you tonight? I have been teary over you. My renter said, "you are so teary tonight." I love sentimental songs.....but I cry!
Started filling out a form and I had done a good job on it, but I fell asleep....and too much of what I had filled was GONE! Waaaa!
Oh well!
I will start over! Right away!
Have a sweetest day!
I love you!
Oh, so I was rejected for help yet again.....😟😕😒😕
You would think I would be used to it by now......but I am not
I have lost all my energy and I feel so sad.
I don't know what to do. 😢🙏
I wish you were here; you are joy. 😂
Hugs!
I am filling out a court 😗 form......
I need to start over with my forms, but I am trying to soothe myself with the fact that I my do it better this time. Otherwise, I might be really upset with myself. I cannot disappoint you. 🤟💌
I have been watching a 3 hour wedding. I keep falling asleep. (Prince William & Catherine.) William looked like he was falling asleep during the ceremony!
I keep thinking about the beautiful Russian looking Hotel/Restaurant. I would love to go there with my favorite friend, who I love. I miss him like Victoria missed Albert. She was absolutely devastated. I am absolutely devastated too. I would do anything to see him again.
I know he is my soulmate. He fits so well in my heart and mind. I think we would frequently be reading the other's mind. How anyone could hurt that magical, loving spirit; I will never know. It is a crime.
I wish he could get help, or find an opportunity. I hope it happens. I don't like time going by w/o him.
Be safe, but be free! ❤ Get away from cruelty!
Hi, it has been a long day, but getting a lot of writing done. I had a good (late) lunch, to go from the restaurant at the bottom of my condo complex and after I did some writing and kept falling asleep, I took a nice nap. I had not slept during the night, because I seem to get inspired late at night and keep charging along. As I mentioned, I get mean answers and I get very amped up and angry. Many agencies purposely misunderstand and make threats and behave like jerks.
I love your beauty and all you have that goes with it....your amazing fun and intelligence!
As I said, I am in awe; just don't let anyone intimidate you out of living free and happy!
Please? I will stand by you. Two hearts united, will beat the crap out of mean, bully
people. Be strong! Let's be there for each other, then figure it out, okay? You owe
yourself freedom, love and happiness! It takes bravery, but it is the key to a better life;
the one you were born to have. Don't take crap from anyone! You owe you and those
who came before, who wanted me to help you to freedom! You did not work so hard to
become someone else's slave/prisoner! That is my goal too! I made that promise and
nothing will stop me from helping you! Love, forever!
I knew from the moment I spoke to you, I knew that you would be someone special to me.
You are so amazing; I barely know where to start! We BOTH need to find freedom and have
love!
Hi Cutie! I hope you are doing well!
I ended up binging a new series show that was a lot of fun.
So, of course, I am a bit zapped today, but am looking forward
to being a good example for my renter and diving into doing
some serious clearing out work. It never fails that he flakes out
when I am ready to hold my nose and jump in! I understand that,
because it is finally the last of the stuff that came out of the storage
units from Millbrae. God, If I never have to do another bit of
sorting and discarding I would be thrilled, but no.......I have another
final push for my last foray into throwing, selling and giving stuff
away, so I don't leave it for others to do upon my demise. Also, it is
seriously uncomfortable to be drowning in stuff. Also it could be
fun finding things I haven't seen for ages, or things I may have
never seen that were my great aunt and uncle's, since their house
was my last home and it was full of 50 years of their things and
things and many of mine from prior. I wish I had lived like a
Buddhist, with minimal belongings. Oh well, maybe in my next
life!
All I want is to make things nice now and see you. Those are my
last wishes, so only joy will be left!
I'd better drink water, since my back is aching!
Have a fun lunch! I was so jealous when I saw you eating with
the assistants, but it is that, or alone, I guess! I am mostly alone, so
having time with my friend I love would be my treat!
I hope that can happen soon. Please, let's stand up for each other
and live like free people!
My dream!
Love always!
7 uncles
I feel hideously sad, but I should try and get some sleep.
Have a lovely, sweet day, just like you.
I wish I weren't so needy, but I am not exactly in
the lap of love, but I have so much love in my heart
that belongs to you.
Please give me a chance; I am trying so hard.......
ONLY for you!
See, you make my sadness fly.......💖
if do a motion to dismiss the restraining order, I wonder if he will approve it?
it would only be right!
Hello, I hope your day was good! I was writing to the top people and found out they were assholes; threatening assholes. Looks more and more that DIY is necessary in the short run; it has already been the long run! I cannot make that decision! If the answer is never, then that is me, gone, just gone
You are an absolute darling! Thank you! Have a lovely day!
You are in my heart and always in my 🧠
If you have a moment, say hi! to me and give me thought!
It would mean everything to me, dear one!
Your eyes are my delight!🤟
I hope you have a sweet night. I wrote more emails. I hope they mean something to someone.....
Letters should follow.
