It is more of a challenge for me to be a heroine, since I have been defamed so strongly. I had envisioned a much different outcome to the one that was reality. It takes love, stamina and a lot of faith to hang in there, especially if any return is whittled away to nearly nothing. is it to be chalked up to the extreme power of love, or allowing love to make a fool of me to my detriment? But, if I can do some good, there is NO loser, except my yearning heart, but that is selfish and that is not a virtue. Emotions do not come with a guarantee, so either be prepared for disappointment or become mentally removed from humanity by not being a fully sentient being.