They want me away to work on you. They melded two thoughts of what this was, so they could keep (their) options open. That is why that horrible man said he could keep it going forever, as long as HE thinks I want a relationship with you.  He is trying to foist someone on you, is what I think. Then they will take you for what you have and give you a "stroke" and that will be the end of you.
It scares me no end. I always wish I knew you were safe. Each day that goes by I wonder how you are.  Please don't let them hurt you.