Just remember that I am doing the best I can and with a pure heart. I have never tried to hurt you and I have never lied to you. I am sure those other people and the one closest to you cannot say either of those things. I will never use you, frighten you, or make you sad. You are the one I love and cherish. I am sorry for the way I must do things, but they will not communicate and I stay frustrated and sad and with the threats they made in my head. My biggest worry is for you. They mentally manipulate and hold you with lies and threats. That is not how good people behave.