I really miss you.

Watching a show about Gary Shandling. He always made me laugh.

You are the person who makes my heart so happy.

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Redemption 1 message

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Haviva von Martinitz <countessprague@gmail.com>	Wed, Jul 31, 2019 at 9:35 PM
To: Bernard.j.tyson@kp.org, mark.zemelman@kp.org, jwade <JWade@smcgov.org>, Richard Decker <rdecker@smcgov.org>, PD Russ Felker <RFelker@redwoodcity.org>
To Those in Authority: I am a victim of Mike Guasco and Marija M. Petrovic and frankly, so are the rest of you.  Anytime lawlessness abounds, we are all victims. Just because you did not suffer the infliction of pain, despair, torment, fear, humiliation and mental manipulation as did I (and I assume from what I only witnessed in part, but Dr. Lukaszewicz did suffer much of it as well.) It affects us all in the end, when a breakdown of rules that protect us is created, by unethical people with predatory minds and criminal behavior. Their actions broke down the social barriers between lawful and lawless, which chips away at the very fabric of decent society. It needs to be excised, not rewarded, lest it continue and grow to a uncontrolable degree. Then criminal behavior will become the standard, not an anomaly. End it before it grows into the standard. They muddied the waters with their own desires and then they beat me up for their own pleasure and in hopes that I would either die, or somehow be too intimidated to stand up for myself.  This has been abjectly criminal. Mike Guasco has spread stories around about me and managed to get me neutralized, so that I could not get an attorney and the people in authority brushed me off. I was terribly abused and no one cares. Why?  Marija M. Petrovic was brought back to Kaiser specifically to get rid of me, who hired her?  Comprehensive Psychiatric services said she was called and given an opportunity to work at Kaiser. Who called? Who hired her? Those answers will find the answer to who it was who brought Marija M. Petrovic back to Kaiser and who immediately began to attack me and terrorize me.  She disrupted the operation and reputation and dignity of Kaiser SSF. She put Dr. Lukaszewicz, a highly regarded doctor, in a difficult position and treated him like a puppet! It was degrading! I would have to be a completely insensate individual to have not noticed it. Marija M. Petrovic was allowed to infiltrate that entire facility and gather helpers for he foul plans of attack. She is not a normal psychiatrist. She behaves like a spy. I made several complaints about the way I was treated! There was NOTHING in response! That is wrong on the part of Kaiser! Now, that it has been exposed, you have a moral obligation to reverse and stop the flow of poison that flooded into Kaiser SSF with the presence of Marija M. Petrovic and Mike C. Guasco and their disgusting and reprehensible plans that were not only brutal, but illegal.  It is my belief that they were guns for hire and it would not take a stretch of the imagination to figure out who it was who felt the most threatened, by irrational fear of potential loss and who had the arrogance, motivation, power and money to have it carried out.  No one has the right to make an adult human being dance to their tune, by hiring goons to keep them as their prisoner. Kaiser should know better than to allow that, thereby catering to an unreasonable person. I have many times asked to have this mediated, I was immediately shut down by Mike Guasco. He was not looking for compromise, reason, or understanding, he was looking to please someone by keeping me hidden away as if I were a plague infected individual! He did not care about anyone else, he wanted to cater to the desires of one person.  Guasco and Marija M. Petrovic put Dr. Lukaszewicz in an untennable position. Dr. Lukaszewicz is an honorable, loyal, upstanding person, who loves his work and he is dedicated to his responsibilities! It is just too bad that his place of business and possibly someone in his personal life, don't believe him, or respect him enough to be assured that he would automatically do the right thing. I am disgusted by the way he has been treated and his work disrupted with this abomination. Kaiser should be angry! This has been a private enterprise with a few benefitting from the twisted, unreasonable fear of their client, but many others were commanded to particapate.  Guasco and Petrovic should have dissuaded that person from an unwise plan, but instead they fed the bad idea with attacks against innocent people. The behaved in the manner of predators.That is not reasonable, or rational.  It is my contention that Marija M. Petrovic and Mike Guasco took advantage of an emotional situation and fanned the flames. They did it for reason of greed and the thanks of someone in a position of power within Kaiser. They used a large variety of the Kaiser staff and contracted employees, with at least two who were apparently given permanent jobs as payment for their underhanded deeds to facilitate their plan. The attacks against me came much before any legal matter, or idea of friendship with my doctor ever saw the light of day. I was attacked right after Marija M. Petrovic came back to Kaiser again (May, 2015). That was the primary focus of her hire and it has escalated from there with illegal restraint and free for all abuse against me and the disrespectiful manner in which Dr. Lukaszewicz was treated.  It has not only been a nightmare for me, but it cannot have been an easy time for him. They took advantage of a kind, sensitive, upstanding, highly educated individual and made him a source of their own twisted plans that are undoubtedly bathed in greed as their motivation.  This has been disgusting, predatory and a great source of worry, since I knew that since my treatment has been without even a trace of regard to my safety, that they could be as dangerously unconcerned for Dr. Lukaszewicz's safety as they well. Not only was his safety on attack, he was treated like a second class citizen, and they also stole his identity each and every time they took away his civil rights by forging his signature on legal documents. That was reprehensible CRIMINAL behavior! I will pledge my support to Kaiser to help clean up this mess. I want the light of TRUTH to shine and end the darkness of terror and shameful behavior! I believe it needs to be erradicated and begin anew with reason and a respect for the dignity of all human beings. But that cannot be accomplished with the same base that got us in this mire in the first place. People with a predatory attitude and a disrespect for the law and human life belong nowhere in a healthcare facility, they belong in jail. There is no such thing as legally sanctioned abuse and torment.  Just because they have been clever enough to fool people with their lies and smearing of the names of innocent people thus far, does not mean that it cannot now be remidied. Stop the flood of their poison into a medical facility that should have the right to run on it's own merits, not as a covert operation, where anyone could be at risk.  This operation should have been investigated with my first complaint, because as a cancer, it has reached a critical stage....stage three. Let's end this now, before it has become terminal.  Please, end the restraining order for me and for Dr. Lukaszewicz as well. I have said before, I would abide by his wishes. I trust him, I respect him. I would never denigrate him as he has been during this insanity!  Counsel the person who wanted this to be done, and get rid of those who carried out the plan. Buty & Curliano knew what criminal behavior Guasco was doing, they put their "client" into serious legal danger, that is not what anyone should want from their law firm. There is no loyalty amongst criminals; they are out for themselves....PERIOD!  Have a meeting with myself and Dr. Lukaszewicz and if he agrees, Inspector Richard Decker included. He strikes me as someone with compassion and founded in the "reasonable man" ethic that is the cornerstone of law.  Please don't ignore this offer to make Kaiser a much safer place for patients. Guasco may have saved Kaiser somewhat financially with his preemptive strikes, but what he does is an affront to decency and law. He places Kaiser in a perilous position each time he gambles with the lives of others. He is a risk taker who goes too far. It sounds like an addiction. One time I told him that he gambles even with the safety of his own clients. He put Dr. Lukaszewicz's name on that illegal paperwork, not caring that his "client" could be held legally responsible for the illegal acts of Guasco.  From what I have seen, Guasco cares about himself, no one else. You would not want to rely on him to have your back, because before you know it, you will notice a knife sticking out of it. Marija Petrovic is someone who is cruel to the point of wanting to absolutely crush her opponent in ANY sense of the word. I believe she is dangerous. I know, having been on the attack end of her terrorism. You truly need to apologise to Dr. Lukaszewicz for this debacle. He did nothing wrong, unless you call a devoted, caring heart and nature, wrong. Not me. I do admire, respect and care about Dr. Lukaszewicz and I have been frightened for his safety this entire time, because of the criminal and predatory nature of those conducting this abysmal poisonous piece of drama!  Please end it now. It is harmful and indecent. Stop it and work with me, that is the better plan than ignoring the bad and allowing a toxic status quo to fester and go out of control. More innocent people could be harmed. I think Kaiser made the wisest move by hiring Dr. Lukaszewicz, his knowledge and dedication are the rarest of commodities and his compassion is beyond compare. Treat him like the rare gem that he is.  Guasco and Petrovic tarnish and destroy what they touch. Redemption is possible! Please begin by releasing me (us) from a brutal, harmful lie! End the false restraining order now. Thank you. Sincerely, Cheryl Petrovich

I find it extremely humorous that Kaiser hired attorney, Mike Guasco had to pull out all the stops, just so he could beat up a senior handicapped woman over a false restraining order he devised with the help of many extras in his off, off, Broadway production of, "The Magic Show," because all he has is "smoke and mirrors" instead of law. I have never met a such an officious, little mendacious ball of tumor in somewhat human form, ever before! (Actually, he resembles more, combo tumor, hairball bezoare and Tasmanian devil....in looks, demeanor and digestibility!)

In my case, Guasco lied, had signatures of his so-called-client forged, said his "client" was present, when he was not, sneaked a troglodyte attorney, Charlie Smith IV on me as my babysitter, who claimed he was with the Private Defender program, when he was not; he just screamed at me to "SHUT UP!" Guasco "magically" had judges buy his load of crap and turn a blind eye to my irrefutable evidence that should have completely exonerated me, since it showed that it was all a premeditated trap to make me look guilty; in police jargon: entrapment!

Mr. Guasco is a relatively young man, but he seems to have all the "tricks of the trade" all firmly under his belt. From my observations I'd say he is a prodigy in the art of pure unadulterated, B.S. in the tradition of the Mafia. Hard to lose when even the judge is on your side. Guasco was shooting fish in a barrel....just call me trout.

Mr. Guasco is so brave that when I tried to speak with him after the bathroom break/hearing, he grabbed his adorable little (manly) cart and hauled his ass through the long corridor of the court in true Tasmanian devil, break neck speed form. He was brave enough to blindside me and lunge in my face and scream at me, but to have a civil conversation about substantive issues, he turned tail and ran.  He made a woman with MS chase him along the lengthy, shiny waxed floors while his cart did a merry tarantella as it bounced and gyrated behind. Fortunately for him he did not drop his load....of false evidence he never bothered to share with me. It was comical. Mr. Guasco was brave and blustery in the courtroom with a judge (Danny Chou) who seemed to enjoy feeding off of Guasco's excremental offerings, but cut me off after saying only a couple of words, and telling me that he "had enough" of me.  Really? Was something hanging out of my nose, or something? It certainly could not have been anything I said, because I merely told him that I live far away and rarely leave home. But, he seemed to think that Guasco's bushel of fetid excreta was Mozart's concerto in A major, when to any unbiased listener knew it was more closely resembling monkeys banging dented metal trash can lids together...complete with remnants of cabbage and soiled condoms clinging precariously by a thin gluey thread to the inner portion of the lid.
That is Guasco in a nutshell: a real "class" act. For a sideshow at a carnival, yes, but for an attorney in the courtroom, no; it/he was a disgrace.
I hope he got big money for the false case against me, because one day, some judge will be pissed off by Guasco's smirky, smarmy, shit eating grin face and the feces that dribbles out, and put his ass in jail.....where it belongs!
(Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that he was married to a BIG time arrested druggie and he was arrested twice.)
High society!

I think that it is rather humorous that the horrible man sounded so officious and in the right when he first started this faux legal thing, then he deteriorated down the slimy depths of depravity, by having to rig everything in his own favor. That's some great attorney who can beat up a woman with health issues plus use false evidence, force attorneys on her as babysitters, buy off other attorneys, blacklist her so no attorney will let her hire them, buy judges, lie and forge signatures and have everyone scream in her face, so her health issues might kill her.

I feel rather flattered that an attorney was so intimidated by me, that he needed to pull out his bag o'tricks just to win a simple case. I suppose his back-up plan was just to have me tied up and shot. He is such a individual of low character and abilities.

I was down because I felt I had to write to fight back, because I don't like fighting. I must do preemptive maneuvers, just in case the threats against me by the horrible man come to fruition. I need to use names to have it cohesive, in context and believable. Everything I say is true, or if conjecture, I make that obvious.

My life, my belongings, are yours. I love you and will always be steadfast and devoted to you.

I was reading some of the old emails from that horrible man today, and I am proud to say that I never would remove my friend from my will, nor believe he was involved in harming me. He may have been pushed into some participation, but I don't care; one needs a paycheck and also, being caught between a rock and a hard place is never pleasant. People who have the audacity to manufacture "legal" matters against a person are probably the lowest form of humanity. I will never think badly of him, but I certainly think the other people are disgusting.
The gentleman running my lie detection test, said he wish he had a friend like me. I am completely loyal and devoted.

Please send me good thoughts. I know I will feel them. I hope you are okay. Have a lovely day!

I wish I could hear your voice talking to me again.

I wish a therapist would call and check on me. That used to be nice when they used to call and check. It would make me feel better.

Come co-own with me.

If you were here, I would always let you know how it feels to be so very loved and cared about. I ache to talk with you. We had fun talking. It was my joy.

If you got this over sooner, you could just tell me how you really feel. I would still love you. I would not be upset with you. Time has not taken away my feelings for you; they are permanent, but love wants only your happiness.

I am just weary. You know how it is when you just feel so beaten down, that everything seems bleak? Too much seems overwhelming.

People carelessly sabotaged and attacked and just left me to pick up the pieces on my own. I did nothing wrong. I hurt so much. I get tired and then sad, with a touch of anger, then I just wait and feel subdued with an undercurrent of sadness. I was attacked from mid 2015. It was a long, drawn out process. Then, a plan was made to make me panic from a false accusation, so I would respond from fear I would be arrested for something I did not do. No one would help me, so I wrote emails to a faux email address (I did not know it was fake) that I suppose was set up as a dummy to collect my phone messages and emails, to be used as future "evidence". It was a trap. "Someone" hired that insane psy to attack me and the evidence points to someone in the field of neurology. Wonder who? I don't wonder, because I know. It was a cruel, narcissistic control freak who did not want to have her world disrupted and decided I should be the scapegoat for her emotional inadequacies. It seems she uses people for her own goals and does not give a second thought to how much harm she causes to others, as long as she is unaffected. The fallout from the false accusation against me stimulated the faux legal stuff, which began with a forged letter (by the "psy") from an attorney. My problem was that I assumed mistakes/misunderstanding caused it all, but it was not so. I never thought any of those professionals would purposely harm someone and lie. Misplaced trust.

None of this has been real, but they got judges to go along with them. They all ignored what I presented as evidence and the attorney lied and said the plaintiff was present, when he was not as well as forging the plaintiff's signature. No one cared. Even the judges ignored my evidence.

I am left to relive the frustration and terror alone.  Why are people so evil? They could not handle my little gifts of gratitude to someone they were afraid they would lose, yet they think I should survive such an ordeal that was thrown at me? No. They did not. They fully expected me to die, one way, or another. I fear for anyone who must must be under their control. Those people do not have a sense of remorse, or a conscience. Cold blooded criminals!

They are why I worry.

I have no choice but to fight, since that horrible man said he could keep bad things going forever. I cannot just sit back and allow that. I hope that is understandable. I have no choice. Believe me, I would rather be having a nice life, than dealing with this all of the time. I would rather be taking care of you and making you happy.  Tell me what you want me to do and I will follow it, but until then, I must fight! These are cruel, untrustworthy people, who want me dead.

I wish for a positive sign. I am so sad.
I may go get my eyes photographed soon.

You know I would give my life to save yours.

I would give you all I have, merely to see you and talk to you again. I don't want to lose you forever, but it seems to be the way things are to go. Please help it to not be so. You have meant everything to me.

You don't need to be my friend.  This was meant to destroy me and any happiness in my life and it seems to have worked. I get no help, nothing. The people who did this wanted me to either die, or lose those who mean the most to me. I think it has been accomplished. They are greedy, selfish vermin. I have love in my heart, they have avarice. I have been good, honest and caring; those words are meaningless to them. My heart is broken. I was holding hope because I do love you so much, but I imagine I was never anyone who was supposed to have lasting happiness in my life. I will die sad and unloved. I don't expect that you ever see this, so it is merely me crying to the universe and my angel. Hopefully we can watch over you together and keep you safe. You were truly the love of my life.
Be very well.

The people who did this to me are selfish, disgusting people who only care about themselves. They have no concern for the lives of others. I am alone, sad and forgotten. I get no words of comfort. They ruined my life and went off and left behind a human being who might as well be dead for all they care. 

First thing we as a country need to do, is treat people humanely and compassionately.

Dem debate 5 pm.

Please don't let time apart ruin a friendship. It is what has kept me going.

I am lucky that I get to pray for you under such a beautiful, star filled sky, with crashing waves in the background. It makes me feel a part of everything and everyone that I love.

Have a sweet day! I will be there with you....in my mind, of course!

I only like movies with happy endings....or I turn it off and make up one of my own.

Sometimes , I feel so close to you, that I don't feel any fear; that there is no need for it.

You are safe.

"What you're afraid of exposes you"~ John Irving

“In the world according to Garp, we are all terminal cases”

― John Irving, The World According to Garp

Watching a program called, "Charles Dickens' London Works."

We would have so much fun! I only get sad over this, not with you. You are my dream.

I hope you like what I write, or at least know that you are the inspiration for my writing at all. Good, or not so great, you make me want to honor you. What good I may accomplish is because of you.

For some reason, the sadness is hitting me hard today. I don't even want to move.

I suppose what was done to me, was to spare someone else from embarrassment and to help them save face. Must be nice.

I am basically writing my thoughts. It helps me vent my sadness, anger, my pain and my heartache. I have nothing to rely upon but myself, it seems. I have my set-backs and my strong times, but basically, I am someone who is recuperating from a terrible attack. I am doing my best. I tend to brush things off, but when I also worry for someone else, I am worse for wear. I do become despondent, but then pull myself back up again. It is a daily battle.

People who apologise to me, even for terrible things they have done, or had done to me, will usually be forgiven, without another word on the subject. It really depends on certain factors. The biggest factor is if you tell me that is what you want me to do. I will defer to you about almost anything, probably at least 95% of the time.

Have a lovely lunch time. Thinking of you! Hugs!

More than anything, I want to see you. White Flag....TRUCE!
Isn't is absurd?
This has been such a long time.
There is nothing glorious about war and there was nothing glorious about the way either of us were treated in this absurd waste of life....time. This is not the way life should go. People/entities  with their own best self-interest concoct these idiotic rules. We are their puppets.
Time is precious. Life is short.

Context:
The American Civil War lasted 4 years. WWI was 4 years. The Korean war was just over 3 years. WWII was six.

Finding Harmony~

Time ticks my way to you
regulated, not syncopated
trudging
devoted
infuriated

agitated

orderly

In the quiet morning hours
a clock intrudes into my
thoughts
counts the seconds
mocks my sentence
shortens my life
makes survival seem

impossible

Time is here
it does exist
I feel it
I hear it
but all I can see is how it changes
me

I am fading faster than time
My heart beats to the rhythm
eroding
imploding
corroding

i r regular

Time robbed me of you
     but promised
to bring you
back

It races against me
seeks my demise
won't flatter with lies

You are their prize
You are love in

my

eyes

My deep shaky sighs
fill the chilly sea air
with a sonorous tone
of ancient
despair

I'd like to stop time
from its ravaging ways
but I want it to go
faster....

Is that possible?

Come back to me
so you will see
that life won't
stray
from
harmony.

~Haviva


(c) HVM 2019

I do feel forgotten.

I always seem to stay up until nearly 5 a.m. I don't care about the daytime so much right now, because I just want time to go by, but I like that it stays light late. I take care of my few veg plants and am trying (still) to get rid of clothes, etc, that I don't use. It is still cluttered & rugs need cleaning. I used to be better with all of that, but I guess I lost it. It will be back. I just have survival to attend to right now.

My dog has been taking me for more, longer walks lately. She usually makes any excuse to just go close by, but now she wants to go up the hill more often. It's nice. I need it. When we went up tonight I was so in awe of the sky and all the gorgeous stars. I prayed and asked for your safety and happiness and of course, to have my love sent to you.
It was a lovely time, but I am so lonely to see you.

If the wait time is absolutely necessary, so be it, but the people who hurt me, need to be reprimanded.

I miss you and I am lonely.  I am so tired of this crap. I am here, I will take care of you, believe me as I believe in you.

I will be here, come when you can, if you want. Forever.

I hope you will let me show you how much I love you. I want your happiness only.

I hope you will take into consideration everything I have gone through into your thinking of me. I am always trying to keep my head above the confusion and cruel attacks and my emotional state that has been through the mill. Your understanding will see me through. Thinking of seeing you again and prayer has saved me. You have always been there for me and brought me up from difficult times. I am so very grateful.

I believe in love, truth and kindness.

https://www.royal.uk/sites/default/files/media/victoria.pdf

Queen Victoria's Diaries.

I wonder how you are doing on this slow, lazy Sunday.

The only toughness in me, is the toughness I have when I feel that someone I care about is in danger.

All I want is your happiness and safety.

If I could have your affection too, that would be amazing.

All I know to do is go by instinct. When I worry, I protect. When I have been attacked, I plan and fight back as well as possible, especially when people with endless resources and determination are pulling out all the financial and abusive stops. They joined in with an innocent idea and took it over and changed the very complexion of it and made it unrecognizable as to the original intent. I had one thing in mind to do with friendship and it was going along, until they decided to make all their absurd plans to stimulate me into action by making false accusations about me and taking an uncharacteristically cruel tone. I know she (MP) wrote as if it had been coming from you to try and get me all worked up thinking you were angry with me. MP is a miserable human being. I know she is trying to help her friend, not you. who will eventually self-destruct. I suppose people have catered to her for a very long time and she likes things to go her way, or no way. 

MP and that horrible man are both in it to help her keep you as her financial, etc support. Who ever cares about what happens to you?

I want to be your safe place, one of freedom and care for you. I don't want to use you, I want you to be happy and enjoy the life of your desires; you deserve it.  

I cannot emphasize enough how underhanded and criminal was their behavior; it hurt me emotionally and it hurts our system of justice.

Time goes by, but my mind has frozen it for me. I am grateful, because you have never left.
But, the ache penetrates every part of me. I am merely surviving.

I give people chance after chance, but the people who did this miserable thing are made of a scary lack of concern...even for themselves; they are that narcissistic. It seems like an oxymoron in behavior, or rational thinking. They want what they want, even at the risk of their own safety, it is hard to understand and hard to deal with them. They would rather go down swinging, than feel that they had lost. Unbelievable.

I cannot see my life going on with any amount of happiness without  at least seeing you again.

You must understand where I am coming from. I am still shaken up by the cruelty and torn up inside from the pain of missing you.
Each day I struggle with it all. I am confused and so very sad. Some days I can find some hopeful happiness. I communicate with very few people. Debbie has gone through my agony with me, but one cannot bother someone else with too much pain, or it would be too much of a burden. I try not to bother my son with my sadness. He needs to have a happy, fun life. I live vicariously through his nice times and my former nice ones. Knowing you dragged me from the depths of Hell and now I have been pushed back in. Sometimes I feel as if I am just fading away. I have lost my enthusiasm for most anything. So much time has gone by, but believe it, or not, even elusive hope still manages to glow somewhere in the bleak darkness of sadness.

I miss you so much. I am never giving up. You have a special place in my heart. I hope and pray to see you.

I wish you would get a hold of my friend Debbie B on FB. She is the one I was having a conversation with on FB tonight.

added info.

Haviva von Martinitz <countessprague@gmail.com>	11:23 AM (3 hours ago)
to Richard, PD, jwade, Eric, Mark, Dave

Dear Inspectors, etc;

It has become clear that what
happened
to me with the false restraining
order, was
that when it was noticed that
I had a
completely above board, friendly
relationship
with Dr. Lukaszewicz, Marija
Petrovic
was brought to Kaiser SSF,
(end of May,
2015) she had the mission of
intimidating me
so much that I would no longer
want to be
his patient. She had staff at
Kaiser SSF
treat me badly and tell me various
things to
make it seem like the people there
hated me.
She even got doctors to
participate as well
as nurses and technicians of
various
departments. I believe that some
even left
that Kaiser because they did not
like their
role in it. I basically know who
participated.
The security guards were used as
spies,
co-conspirators and instigators
(and even
looked into my medical record, as
per the
testimony of Edward Souza,
then security
guard, now in Janitorial). Those
two guards
were rewarded with permanent
jobs at
Kaiser, instead of their contracted
jobs
with a security company. They
harassed me
and played key roles in setting
up situations
to make me upset/fearful and cause
me to react. Marija M. Petrovic made
the plans and
they (and others) carried them out.
I was
treated harshly for no reason and
endured a
"whisper campaign" by most of the
staff around Dr. Lukaszewicz. 

I believe that Marija M. Petrovic
is well known to Dr. Lukaszewicz 
and his domestic partner, Dr. Moayeri, 
she had previously had an office on 
the 3rd floor of the SSF
medical bldg. Marija Petrovic's
brother,Marko, works at Kaiser in 
an area of Neurology, which is also 
Dr. Moayeri's field,but she as a 
neurosurgeon and he in some
kind of rehabilitation. I believe
that they perhaps worked at the 
same Kaiser facilities at the same 
time. 
Marko has worked in both
Southern CA, as well as San Francisco,
as had Dr. Moayeri. I believe that it was
suggested to incorporate Marija M.
Petrovic to come back to Kaiser 
Northern CA, and work at the Daly City 
psychiatric facility,
which is a quick trip back to the South
San Francisco Kaiser, so she could set 
her plans against me into motion. 
I am sure she used threats and 
intimidation to make Kaiser
employees to participate. It was all
completely covert and I was deemed
the
enemy by those working at the
South San
Francisco facility, but it was also
enforced
at Dr. Lukaszewicz's San Rafael
office too.
The bad treatment and whisper
campaigns
were utilized by staff there also. 

I was yelled at, intimidated and
told to "go find other friends" and 
had people sneer
at me about the clothes I wore.
Prior to Marija M. Petrovic's arrival
back at Kaiser
from Comprehensive Psychiatric
Services,
the people who worked at Kaiser 
SSF were 
congenial. People said odd things to 
me about Dr. Lukaszewicz and messed 
up tests I had 
done, even an MRI and jabbing 
needles in my 
arm so hard, that my arm felt 
electric shocks
and my hand went numb. Doctors 
in the ER 
treated me badly and accused 
me of being 
there to acquire drugs.

After I asked Dr. Lukaszewicz,
through the
ER doc to observe my gallbladder
removal
surgery and he did so, I was
delivered a TRO
to my home in Millbrae. Michael
C. Guasco,
Kaiser attorney through their
hired law firm, Buty & Curliano 
was the attorney "for" Dr.
Lukaszewicz
in a restraining order against
me. It made no sense to me. One
week AFTER
I asked Dr. Lukaszewicz attended 
my surgery 
at MY request, he suddenly 
decided to hit me 
with a TRO with complaints that 
could ONLY have come 
97 days PRIOR? He supposedly 
gave me a 
restraining order for giving him 
gifts, for which 
he thanked me and kept and for 
some supposed 
suggestive remarks I was to have 
made. Why 
wait until after coming to my 
surgery, which was a 
personal act of kindness toward 
me, would he want 
to eradicate that kindness, by 
making my life hell? 

Well, after I dropped
Dr. Lukaszewicz as my doctor,
to begin on a path to becoming
friends, I was told I could
not see him. No time frame had
been set, no
guidelines, nothing. It had been
over 3 months since
seeing him. Some requirements
of becoming friends
with your doctor are as little as
3-6 months, or perhaps a year. 
Anyway, I never saw him at my
surgery, but I was told he had
been there. I was
so grateful he had observed my
surgery, because I
was frightened and I trusted him
with my life
(I still do).

If anything, I believe that
Dr. Lukaszewicz was
told that I should have a
restraining order done,
so that I would not be able to
weaken and come and try to see him.
But the many forgeries in the court
documents and the lies, his not going
to court sessions,etc, were a pretty 
clear indication that it was not 
Dr. Lukaszewicz's idea. My opinion is 
that it was
actually Dr. Lukaszewicz who was
being punished for coming to my 
surgery, because he is a very
caring, dedicated person. I believe
that Mr. Guasco gave me the 
restraining order on behalf of a
"shadow" client, who was worried
about the fact that Dr. Lukaszewicz 
defied an order and came to
my surgery and was fearful of
what those
implications meant. Neither Kaiser,
nor the shadow
client wanted their names on the
TRO, so they roped in 
Dr. Lukaszewicz and put his 
name on it. Mr. Guasco frequently 
uses Kaiser staff to
participate in his restraining order
schemes against
innocent patients, for whatever
purpose he needs to
weaken, or smear his opponent.
He appears to use that tactic 
routinely to put a bad image of 
the victim in the mind of the court 
and to narrow down the attorneys 
who would take the case. In fact, 
it became apparent that my name 
was used against me in such a 
manner, so that I could not find an
attorney to help me. I sincerely
believe that I was blacklisted.
It appears that Mr. Guasco cuts
off as many avenues available to 
his opposition as possible,with 
smear tactics. I believe that it 
is the only way Mr. Guasco wins, 
with lies, bribery, intimidation 
and tampering with expert 
witnesses. He most likely uses 
Kaiser's deep pockets to open 
certain doors and close certain 
others.....all ILLEGAL behavior. 
Mr. Guasco has a reputation for 
his tactics that proceeds him. 
People in the legal world are 
getting wise to his maneuvers 
and are shutting them down.
What I have noticed is that Mr. Guasco and Marija M. Petrovic
are a cruel,cold-blooded team, 
who have no concern what-so-
ever for the welfare of their
victims. They knew of my having
been a cancer survivor with MS
and a possibly dangerous lesion on 
my brain, yet they pulled out most 
of the stops and had me brutalized,
humiliated, terrorized and 
denigrated, by having a judge go 
radically off on me, throw me in jail, 
thrust an attorney on me and pay 
off another....just to keep me quiet 
and ineffectively/inadequately 
represented.....all under 
Dr. Lukaszewicz's name. 
They were so COWARDLY!

My witness heard Edward Souza say
that Marija M.Petrovic was brought 
back to Kaiser for the purpose of, 
"Getting rid of you as Dr.
Lukaszewicz's patient." It was all a
set-up to brutalize me to the point 
of giving in and dropping Dr. 
Lukaszewicz as my doctor. She and 
Guasco and the rest, masterminded 
the entire "case"against me.
I believe they expected me to die.
As I mentioned prior, Marija M. 
Petrovic piled on the false
diagnoses in my chart, so if I died
by my own hand,or made to look 
like it. 

This was an expensive, elaborate,
time consuming plan. It was 
NOT a part of a normal waiting period.
Why would anyone get so actively
involved? Waiting to become a friend 
of a doctor, should be a nice
thing, not open season to
brutalize them!

This has gone on entirely too long,
it is criminal and it needs to be 
investigated with all conspirators
put in jail. It is a serious and
dangerous game they played 
(and are still). Guasco and 
Petrovic abused
the court and the innocent people
involved. They also abused and 
took advantage Kaiser and their
employees. It has been a
reprehensible and heinous
matter! Leaving it uninvestigated,
is tantamount to encouraging
crime, perpetuating it and corruption
and allowing their terrible
effects to be the ruin of true
justice and law itself. 

The innocent parties in this,
myself and Dr. Lukaszewicz need to 
have the travesty stopped
now.  It is NOT right, nor decent to
allow it to keep going. Any kind of
agreement made to have it last
longer has been invalidated by the 
aspect of brutality!
The criminals who devised and
wanted this plan to work, should not 
prevail with their wishes.   

It is a slap in the face of the very
foundation of law that keeps this 
country from chaos. None of the 
people involved in perpetrating this 
should go free.

Dr. Lukaszawicz and I, are the
only two people in this who are 
innocent and need to be given 
freedom
now.

It is a crime to make it last any
longer.

I will answer any questions and
take lie detection,but this needs 
to end. It has harmed me, and my
health.     

--

Sincerely,

Cheryl Petrovich

Have a beautiful day! I wish I could hug you.

It has been such a long time. I hope it will be over soon.

I miss you. I can't sleep.

This has been so difficult.
I want to hug you so much. I get so anxious. It has worn me down a bit. The thought of seeing you again keeps me going. The emotional pain is a big struggle.
I love you.

If that horrible man hadn't decided to say untrue and cruel things, I would have just waited. I was so worried about you too.

I took my dog for a walk and stood in amazement at the beautiful sky with every silver star greeting me. I prayed out loud for you. Instead of praying for you I wish I could be there in person for you and keep you safe, happy and loved. It is all I would want to be doing.

I am making banana bread, with some oatmeal in it. I used Stevia and honey. I would have used raisins, but they are all gone. Each time I ask my renter if he would pick some up, he forgets. I end up getting them from Thrive Market online. This place is isolated, so I do not find all the things I can usually get from most grocery stores. There is a Co-op, a bit north of here, so maybe sometime I will venture out and go there. I used to shop at a great Co-op when I lived in Sunnyvale; they had so many organic foods, it was Heaven. Either I shopped there, or at the health food store about 2 blocks away.

The banana bread was so great!
I never use measuring cups, or spoons, so it is always a crap shoot, but eyeballing banana bread is pretty easy.

I wish I could talk to you. I am in a giggly mood for some reason. I used up a good portion of sad last night and giggling sneaked in. You were so fun to talk to; you always said interesting and humorous things.
I love you so much.

It is interesting, I was speaking to someone (college recruiter) about taking remote/online classes and I suddenly felt nervous and just began saying any absurd thing that flew out of my mouth. I feel so embarrassed, but now it seems funny.
(I did write an apology email....)

I kind of want to see if my brain can still handle the rigors of collage classes. I know I used to be fairly intelligent. I took a test and was asked if I wanted to join Mensa, but they did not mention my score! I could not afford the dues at the time, so I declined. It would have been nice to know the score. I imagine my brain has dried up significantly since then..... :-)

If they just drop the thing, I will stay away. No one has to worry about me. The person who didn't do anything, wrong is treated like a monster and the actual monsters are treated like gold.

Yes, it IS the "Twilight Zone!" (I remember you talking about it from all that time ago) Those two and their crew have turned that place into a nightmare. They really look at you as their big prize. If it were from caring, I would not be worried, but those people would not know love, or caring, if it kicked them in the face. :-)

You are Loved by me.
💖

I don't feel well, but I will be okay, I guess. I am not sure how long. I will be great when this is over and I could see you.....if you want anyway, even if for just a visit. I have been so unbearably sad. I even forgot to pray last night. The heart irregularity had me feeling strange, but better now, except for a headache. I always panic and want to make sure to say good-bye to you. You know I do not live a normal life. For some reason, I exiled myself; I basically shut down from the sadness and shock of it all. I know if I had been treated kindly, I would not have reacted so badly, but their intention was to harm and destroy. It is covert, insidious, professional destruction inflicted. I live far away, but carry the aftershocks and scars. But, I am someone who always bounces back. I just hit very low points at times. I am so surprised that those people are not in jail (prison). It is where they belong. Karma is not running on a very fast schedule
(Too busy in D.C., I guess....!)

Have a restful and lovely weekend! Take good care of yourself! Look north and say hi to me sometime. I will hear you and feel the kindness. I always knew when you were there for me.

Hugs!

No one should ever be treated the way I was. It was evil and wrong.

I guess it was all just a joke on me. I don't know what to do.

I hope you have a lovely day and enjoyable weekend. I guess everything has crashed down on me and the confusion has hit me hard. It really was dirty of them to treat me like I was an enemy POW. What gives them the right to terrorize me, treat me like dirt and leave me to suffer with the pain. It just seems like no one cares. I have suffered more than anyone could know. It should have ended any kind of agreement.
I love you, but who allowed the torture to go on? It wasn't cute, or funny, it was torture! All I can say is that it was illegal, brutal and I was just left on my own to deal with the effects afterward. Life is hell each day. I hate my life.

I know my health has had some set-backs from the torment I received by that attorney, the crazy psy and their mean crew. I wish I could have tests done to see if I have gotten worse. I don't want anyone else to treat me, I would die first.

I hope that if I am about to die, that you will come and say good-bye to me.

I don't feel well. If I die, know that you were always loved by me.

I think I do have some kind of heart thing, irregular heart beat. It is making me feel light headed.

I am having such a difficult time. I get so sad.

I have gone through such intense and frightening psychological attacks, it had to have affected me at least somewhat.

I just meant that even though you and I have been through Hell and I love you more than I ever knew was possible, everything is in your hands. I can only hope you will care for me back. Just please let me know you. You are so very special to me, you are what I think of as my soul mate. Hope that doesn't sound weird.

I get myself all wound up talking to myself and worrying. Anyway, please see me again. I make a better impression in person; this is basically therapy.

I love your smile.

I love you.

Forever.

You had a nice inflection in your voice when you said you didn't want to be my friend. I guess I forgot that when I emailed to you.

You are so smart, "Mr. Luddite!" You have tricks up your sleeve....! I would so much love a rose...... ;-)

I would be so happy to take care of you. I wish you were here.....now

Really, I have no expectations of, or from you. I just want to know you for the rest of my life. I have never said that to anyone else before.
Maybe you think I will blab on about all of this "thing" for a long time, but I won't. As I said, those people mean nothing to me and if I am able to see you again, they will have no place in my life at ALL; they would only tarnish and degrade it. I basically raise a fuss to keep you safe.

Knowing you again, is my lovely dream.

You have been on my mind for a very long time. My mind has enjoyed it and it loves you.....very much.

My emotions have been at war....with each other! I have no idea how I could last another year!

It seems absurd that I can't see you. Why should criminals be in charge?

To see your sweet face again
they wanted 5 years for me to wait
they wanted me to die in the process
they wanted me to forget the gentleness
of your spirit, the kindness of your heart
and the beauty of your soul

You could never be forgotten by me.

What it all comes down to is.....time and trust, waiting and hope and faith.
I have gotten by with them so far, but a lack of patience, fairness and my own weakness and doubts about my own importance to anyone, make it excruciating.

I look at the time remaining and it seems like an endless dark tunnel and anxiety floods in, as was intended; that horrible man's words of making it last forever assist in making a tough situation worse. Only desperate, evil people who know what mental harm those words could inflict, use that kind of tactic. (Psychological espionage)

They did such horrible, dirty things!
Why can't it end earlier?

If only I could know why this "legal" thing cannot be ended early, I would wait patiently; not struggle like someone being smothered to death with a pillow. (That disturbing image supplied by a recent HBO series.)

I just want to be near you when I can and take care of you, if you allow. You are deeply embedded in my heart and live in my soul.

Hi!
Have a lovely lunch. I will be thinking of you, but you know that.....

Obviously, my desire to become friends, was just the opening they desired to begin the attack on me. I unwittingly opened the door for them.

Haviva von Martinitz	10:11 AM (1 minute ago)
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Dear ***, etc:

I would have thought this merely a
waiting period to become a friend 
of a doctor,
had not it become so cruel,
devious,
expensive and mendacious, by
outside,
interested parties. If I cause
problems
with my inquiries from out of despair
and
fright; they have only themselves
to blame
for their desperation and keeping me
in the
dark. Those cruel additions of theirs
to the
situation, speak volumes about their
not-so-innocuous plans, which were
long,
convoluted and elaborately created.
They meant harm to me, or more than
likely,
to my doctor, using my situation as
a cover
for themselves for even more deadly
and
insidious deeds against my doctor.
There is
no other answer than those and they
are
both criminal. Should I be happy, calm
and
pleasant in the face of those who pull
out
all stops to make my life and my
doctor's,
miserable and in danger? I do not
believe
that even a saint would do such a thing;
they
would strive to protect others in the
very least. 

I had the audacity to be grateful and
enjoy
the kindness and conversation with a
doctor
and a ton of bricks was thrown in
my face as a result, by those hired 
thugs! I was blamed
for what was done to me by those
professional criminals dressed in
respectable
clothing, in retaliation. How is that
decent,civil, or legal? Of course I am 
going to do everything in my own 
defense and the defense of the 
doctor! 
People who strike out to harm from 
the shadows cannot be trusted,
nor should be given kindness and 
understanding; they had plenty of 
time and opportunity to change 
and discontinue the cruelty. They 
meant no kindness by their 
actions; they meant nothing less 
than my eradication and probably 
predatory desires for my doctor, 
which would not end well for 
him either. That cannot be ignored, 
nor given a pass. I did nothing wrong, 
yet I was scorned, denigrated and 
reviled....and jailed 
and it seems like my doctor was 
treated no better than a prisoner 
under false pretenses.
...lying and saying that I was a danger 
to him. 
That could not be further from the 
truth; I would risk my life to 
save/help him. They are using me 
as a scapegoat and deflecting on to 
me their own intentions for him. They 
also insinuated themselves into other 
facets of my life and created more 
torment for me, in addition to the 
main issue. They wanted my life 
miserable and then gone. So far, 
I have disappointed them. 

That is not what any waiting period to
become a friend of a doctor has ever
been described as being, nor as long. 
Terror is never a reasonable component 
to anything,much less for something 
that is supposed to be a pleasant 
endeavor with a positive, nice
outcome.

This is not a fantasy, real life game
version of GOT, but those involved seem 
to think of it that way, but from the 
start decided that they should have all 
the advantages,weaponry, etc, but 
leave me with nothing at all with which 
to defend myself. COWARDS!
Yet, I am still standing, much to their
disappointment!

It was merely supposed to have been an
execution of an innocent person by
wealthy, powerful cowards, who think 
their desires are more important than 
those of anyone else. The sad part is 
that their desires are greedy and 
selfish and dangerous; not a scintilla 
of love, concern, or kindness for anyone 
else from them, not even for the one 
they pretended to protect.  

They point the finger of revulsion for
my genuine feelings of caring, while 
they break
every law created and spit on morality and
decorum, yet I am one who had the garbage
pile of their creative, evil minds heaped upon
me and blamed me for everything the lies of
their twisted minds invented.

It has been a living nightmare. 

It should never be allowed to be repeated.

My story WILL get out and those who did
not help, or perpetuated it will be the ones
reviled. There is NEVER an excuse for
ignoring the serious plight of a woman in
fragile health and advancing years, who is
being tortured and beaten up by
professionals! AND the missing point in this
all, is that I may merely be a scapegoat/
distraction/collateral damage to the actual
person in possible danger: my doctor. 

Their plans have a very mercurial aspect to
them, so that they could withstand any
necessary change, which means very
devious and expert people in covert methods
were involved. From what I have experienced
from them, is that they are not only devious,
cold-blooded, but immensely determined to
attain their foul objective. 

Those people did terrible things to an
innocent person (people). That is a crime 
in my book; how
about yours?

Cp