TIMDYF

 Thank you for being there for me. I appreciate it more than you could know. Things get to me emotionally, but just moving along is all one can do. I get so frustrated. I was speaking to a long time friend on the phone a little bit ago, but I find that she often comes down as judgmental, where I do not. She said it sounded crazy for me to think people in a hosp were trying to harm me; well, that bothered me that she said that, because it is not. She works for a hospital and she even worked for the same one in question at one time, in the administration type area, not back office. I have worked in both, so I have seen a lot. People do strange things in any walk of life, even in a medical office; they just do more serious life and death stuff and it gets treated like nothing. She is like my mother, where I must remember to steer the conversation away from certain areas. She feels she has the moral high ground above me, so that doesn't feel right being judged by a friend, so I don't feel as close to her as I should in relation to how long I have known her. Well, if I must stay away from certain topics with my mother, I guess I can do it with her too; it just isn't as nice. My friend Debbie, is always so strongly on my  side; that I have no worries with that at all! I have never even met her, yet I think of her as my sister! She was related by marriage to Nan Wood, who was my Great Aunt's dearest friend, and my grandmother's friend and our family always knew Nan and Grant Wood, so they felt like family. Debbie and I think of ourselves as Nan and Martha, because of their closeness. Debbie has been a staunch supporter of me through these hard times and in turn, she has been a staunch supporter of you too. No matter what, you are always going to have me on your side. I cannot ever imagine that changing. I am devoted deeply. No matter what.

It is very wonderful having someone I love that much.     That is most definitely you. Forever.