I don't expect you to be anyone special to me. I have been beaten down and I am worse for wear. I have cried a lot, and slept very little. It has not been easy. That that horrible man claims he can keep this terrible thing going forever. He used old emails to extend it. It is ridiculous how easily the judges can be bought. No one tells me anything. No one will help, or do anything for me at all. I never expected my life to end this way. I was hoping to enjoy life, but I guess not. I am so tired and I am so sad.