Thursday, June 3, 2021

Life

Hope you are having a pleasant evening.

Purchased a mini stair stepper machine that has stretch bands attached to it. Just pray I use it.

I found a very clear cut family tree online that makes it more out in the open the connections to current European nobility. (aka the Royal Family) I really do not know why my European relatives kept it so quiet. Only my grandmother made vague references to it. Only Nan Wood said things more openly. I guess I will call the Mormon genealogist now that I have more solid information.

Habsburger

Franz Ferdinand Kinsky von Wchinitz und TettauAge: 63 years1678–1741

Interactive tree of Franz Ferdinand Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau

Franz Josef Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau 1769–1843

Sophie Wilhelmine von Körner –

Leopold Josef Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau 1764–1841

Franz Ferdinand Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau 1738–1806

Maria CHRISTINE von und zu Liechtenstein 1741–1819

Leopold Ferdinand Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau 1713–1760

Franz Ferdinand Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau 1678–1741

Wenzel Norbert Kinsky von Wchinitz und Tettau 1642–1719

Anna Franziska Barbara von Martinitz –1694

Maria Anna Theresia von Nesselrode –1716

Maximilian Valentin von Martinitz –1677

Jaroslaus Borzita von Martinitz IV

Birth: January 6, 1582 32 22

Death: November 21, 1649

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Given names	Surname	Birth		Place		Death		Age	Place

Maria Christiane von und zu Clam-Martinitz Father: Karl Johann Gabriel von und zu Clam-Martinitz Mother: Selina Meade von Clan-William		July 24, 1827	193	St. Georgen	2	October 26, 1910	110	83	Prag
Johanna Theresia von Martinitz Father: Johann Josef Karl von Martinitz Mother: Philippine von Clary und Aldringen					1
Karl Johann Gabriel von und zu Clam-Martinitz Father: Karl Josef von und zu Clam-Martinitz Mother: Maria Anna von Martinitz		May 23, 1792	229	Prag	1	January 29, 1840	181	47	Wien
Karl Josef von und zu Clam-Martinitz		September 6, 1760	260	Linz an der Donau	1	September 26, 1826	194	66	Prag
Maria Anna von Martinitz Father: Franz Karl von Martinitz		June 29, 1768	252	Prag	1	after 1792	229	23
Franz Karl von Martinitz Father: Johann Josef Karl von Martinitz Mother: Philippine von Clary und Aldringen		September 6, 1733	287		1	November 29, 1789	231	56	Kosmanos
Aloisia Maria Karoline von Martinitz Father: Georg Adam Ignaz von Martinitz		December 26, 1701	319		1	May 12, 1785	236	83
Johann Josef Karl von Martinitz Father: Maximilian Guidobald von Martinitz Mother: Maria Bonaventura Barbara von Althan		January 12, 1692	329		2	October 23, 1738	282	46
Maximilian Guidobald von Martinitz Father: Maximilian Valentin von Martinitz		1664	357		1	June 30, 1733	287	69
Susanna Borzita von Martinitz		1670	351		0	February 3, 1717	304	47
Georg Adam Ignaz von Martinitz Father: Maximilian Valentin von Martinitz					1	July 24, 1714	306		Prag
Anna Franziska Barbara von Martinitz Father: Maximilian Valentin von Martinitz					1	December 1694	326
Maximilian Valentin von Martinitz Father: Jaroslaus Borzita von Martinitz IV					3	December 20, 1677	343
Jaroslaus Borzita von Martinitz IV Father: Jaroslaus Borzita von Martinitz III Mother: Johanna Dasicky von Barchov		January 6, 1582	439		1	November 21, 1649	371	67
Alena von Martinitz					2
Maria von Martinitz		about 1530			3	about January 17, 1606	415	76
Elise von Martinitz					5	February 14, 1605	416
Jaroslaus Borzita von Martinitz III Father: Johann Borzita von Martinitz Mother: Isolde Boska von Dub und Leipa		1550	471		1	1581	440	31
Johann Borzita von Martinitz Father: Georg Borzita von Martinitz Mother: Dorothea von Wartenberg					1	1577	444
Elisabeth von Martinitz					1	after 1543

FY

Are you lonely?

I am.

For you.

I know, corny. (okay, maybe somewhat obnoxious too....)

🚗

Do you drive places alone?🚗

H

Are you ever threatened with bodily harm?

Good for me

Because of what has been done to me, there are days I can barely move. I know that is what those miserable excuses for human beings love hearing, but it just gives me more strength and anger reserves to make me want to hurt them a lot in a legal way.

I know hurting people to death is their forte, but I have no desire to do that. I would never be incarcerated over such insignificant, twisted degenerates.

The only time I would put my own life in jeopardy, would be to save yours. Doing evil is not my thing. Good is what keeps my motor running. It is my high.

Hugs!

Care

What I want to understand is WHY?

Was it all initially a scam to get property? That is what I thought MP was there to accomplish, but was it actually just a jealous woman afraid of losing support, money, a vested interest in you as a project? I mean, if someone really cared about you, wouldn't they want you to be happy? I could not watch you day-to-day looking miserable and knowing how limited your life had become. (Maybe I am just naive and you have been whooping it up big time, with a basket of fruit on your head, platform shoes, all a la South American Mardi Gras, Carmen Miranda style....! I know you seemed to like fancy shoes.......)

I enjoy fun. I place no judgments, or inhibitions. We are all a blank canvas. All potential, all creativity. I like people who have the nerve to be who they want.

Anyway, does she actually care about you?

Goal

I used to always have hope, but the people who seem to be in charge now seem to love being destroyers of hope and take it for themselves. I cannot enjoy life if everyone around me is miserable.

Universal happiness would be a lovely goal.

Smile

Keep in mind that I (as well as you) have been beaten up to shit and I even worse, because being smashed in the face by someone I care about was an added blow. I never know what is coming and I must work extra hard to recover. It is not easy. Those people have tried to KILL me and I don't get to trust my only insurance. I suffer a great deal of pain and a lot of fear. So, whatever my little attempts at fighting back are, I am one person, on a budget, trying to keep my dignity, in the midst of being called every rude, foul and suspicious thing imaginable! What was it again that I was to have supposedly done? Oh, yes, gave a few gifts? Was that it? The ones for which I was thanked? Yet, there in court, I was ripped from stem to stern like a road kill carcass in the center of the road, being enjoyed by a wake of vultures. I have been to JAIL! I was torn apart by a nasty judge! I was confused, I was taunted, reviled, too embarrassed at times to speak to my son, to my mother..... I lost two of my loved cars, had my license taken away, my taxes questioned. I tried to keep myself from ending my life out of despair, or because I was being attacked by insane people. There were no hugs for me, no kind words, no joy. No love. I had to rely on myself. I was too frightened to enjoy life; not as much out of fear for myself, but for someone who warms my heart, even far away and silent, except for some bitter, cruel words that I had to swallow like sharp shards of glass as the people I was supposed to trust, had their hands around my throat in a death grip.

I have been so unused to kindness, that I bask in even the tiniest semblance of it, or compassion and am grateful for even a small memory what actual caring was like. I think about others and worry about them, if people do it about me; I am not privy to that information. I am in pain each day because of the cruel insanity of the people who initiated this horror show of greed, terror, self-indulgence and misuse of money and power, ever! Torment and corruption flooded the scene like a storm creating a flash flood. I was attacked by a well practiced machine, used to decimating anything that got in its way. I am ONE person on her own, trying to keep her head above water, while being attacked from all angles, by devious criminals and mad minded individuals.

I have weathered the insults, the attacks and the heartbreak, but I hurt badly and I intend to have it STOP and the terrible people who caused it, pay for their crimes. I have been so nice, for so long, but now that is OVER! My pride has returned and it does not like being insulted! As my friend used to say, "your Countess is coming out!"

It is out and on the warpath!

It would be nice to smile again before I die.

Compared

I want to talk to you so much.

Even if I can never speak with anyone else ever again. They are nothing compared to you.

Your voice and your face are all I care to experience ever again.

I see you

You are so lovely.

Just not when you are tight lipped

and angry at me.

That scared me. I have never been

more frightened, or sad.

My love didn't die

it just hurt a lot. It's been in the

ICU all this time.

Lazarus

I want to watch schmaltzy rom coms with you, while holding your hand and sneaking peeks into your gorgeous eyes and face. Thoughts of you sneak into my mind during the day and my heart goes beating wildly and I feel exhausted and exhilarated simultaneously.

I don't think I will ever feel casual about you, if I ever get to see you again, that is......It doesn't feel I will, which makes me feel like the walking dead and supremely sad, if the dead have emotions.

......I have it on good authority they do.

I feel pretty dead myself on many an occasion lately. but I've managed to resurrect myself so far.

Hope my luck holds out.

I am watching "Notting Hill" a g a i n and I am already tearing up over the slightest emotional comment, or sweet musical note. That does not bode well for a tear free ending.

I can't help it. I have loved you from nearly the moment I met you.

"When You Say Nothing at All"

Alison Krauss, Alison Krauss & Union Station

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain what I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near you drown out the crowd
Old Mister Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
A touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all.....

I never want to say "good-bye" forever. I just can't do it. I will just fade away, I guess. Not my call.

Yet

I don't want to miss your birthday, yet again.

Wednesday, June 2, 2021

always

I love and adore you.

There

How are you?

Please keep thinking about getting away.

It is abnormal to be kept prisoner.

Some people like them are just lacking in humanity.

They are called criminals, because they are warped and hurt people, because it makes them happy.

I hope prison makes them happy! I would love to put them there!

Froggies and more!

Isn't that the cutest name? I just found this for organic fruit. It is a bit pricey, but from the great reviews, worth it! Remember when I was driving to the lighthouse and the road was covered with frogs? (You said, "sounds Biblical") I must have given the vultures French food for a week! Have you ever seen a vulture's eyes? They are cold and dead looking; just like an attorney's I've seen. I was driving by when a big "wake" of vulture were feasting on a skunk and paused while I went past. I got close to one and it looked like it was saying "What are YOU lookin' at? Move along!"

It IS a jungle out here!

Rumor has it

I heard, "through the grapevine" that there are plenty of rough types who are "gunning" for that attorney and his life may soon be at an end.....

Nauseating

I used a new shampoo last night and it has a lingering scent to it that is annoying. Obnoxious actually. Sickenly sweet. Ewww.

Good vs. Evil

Crooks don't seem to care about what awaits for them for eternity.

I am no religious fanatic, but I have seen some pretty scary stuff on paranormal shows about what waits for bad people.....being a decent human being is so easy too.

Dark and

Just to see your beautiful eyes again, would be my joy.....

Eternal Springs

It is sad when an attorney is so stupid that they have to buy off everyone just to win. It means they have no confidence in their own ability. I wonder how they would like it if they ran into a doctor who went by the same ethic.....or lack thereof? They'd be hopping mad! (But at least there would be more of a chance that the attorney would be gone from the face of the Earth more quickly!)

Karma is waiting to strike!

Hope springs eternal!

Both

I would always be your best friend. I would never let you down. I really can love you and also just be a friend.

Still

I wonder if I can still get laser lipo with weird kidney pains still happening?

Rom

You know, of course, that if I ever saw you, or you came here; I would just be all normal acting, just as usual. I am not what those people (and you) made me sound like. I never did anyway, so why think I ever would? I was only where I was supposed to be, when I was was supposed to be. I'm not a perv.

I am a romantic, not bizarre.

It actually does sound like she is trying to make me into her. I have decorum and class; she does not.

What I want to do.

https://www.sonobello.com

Laser fat removal.

Being

I want to keep being in love with you.

It hurts too much to think of stopping.

Tuesday, June 1, 2021

WoW

Of course, you know you are the sexiest person on the planet, right?

I shouldn't let out that secret, but people DO have eyes.....not just me.....

Maybe you just "tick all the right boxes" as people like to say now. :-)

Coo

I DID send in a complaint about Dr. Mengele.....I mean Moayeri. Hee heee!

Let's see how everyone responds.....

jump into the volcano and keep kissing her ass, or.....?

Whatever, she IS mentally deranged.

Magic!

Evening

I hope your day was good.

I do still have the idea of getting an RV and

just traveling around. It would be fun, but I

wouldn’t want to go alone.

It is overcast today and breezy.

I have a lot of work to do around the house,

but I put it off. I did so much work leaving

Sunnyvale and then Millbrae; I feel exhausted

just thinking about it. There was 50, or so years

of stuff in Millbrae, so it was quite a task.

Seems like life is just full of janitorial work.

Eating, trying to stay amused, staying healthy

and getting rid of stuff. If we humans are lucky

enough to love and be loved; then we have made

it! The last bits are, to me, the most important, but

I guess it is over for me. Most likely a solo mission

from now on. I still feel love and the memory is

wonderful.

A good friend with freedom to do whatever they

wanted would be nice.

It would be lovely to speak with you again, but

since your owner has forbidden it; that is a

nonstarter

of an idea. If she puts you on Craig's list, or

Ebay,

I hope I see the listing. I would buy you and

set you free.

I guess it is bitter humor. Still limping. Some

people play dirty.....and illegal. Hope it doesn't

come back and bite them on the ass! (I DO!)

I am working on it.

But I am sad as shit and it is zapping my

energy and desire to do anything much.

A

Going to sneak in a nap. I know it is early, but was up all night.

You are adored.

Q

If you are happy today, so am I.

I am hugging you.

I was doing some work in the kitchen.

I am trying to what I can with the shortcomings

A program about the queen holding a state banquet is on now

What a nerve wracking undertaking!

Freedom!

Lovely background program about Penelope Keith visiting picturesque English villages by the sea.

Fascinating historic information that I eagerly ingest.

I seem to end up catching little bits of sleep between programs.

It becomes a surreal existence.

Naturally, I have loads to do, but is it as desirable as being lazy?

Not often. Until the kitchen sink situation gets sorted out; it is going to be a nasty situation with which to deal. My renter volunteered to go in on 1/2 of a portable dishwasher, so that seems too tempting to turn down.

We've been subsisting on recycled/biodegradable paper plates, but there were still dishes that were neglected prior to the sink imploding.

Oh well, no point in being full of anxiety over it.

I guess after being supremely razed to the ground recently and left wandering through a harsh backdrop to find the hotel where I was staying, left me bruised and beaten and feeling like a truck had something to do with my rumpled state and mental terror, but actually, it was an undignified cruel woman with a deadly eviscerating nature and an intent on destroying by cutting a human spirit to the bone and beyond. I am still dazed.

Did I deserve that treatment? Not according to me, but I guess in the twisted view of vicious, self-centered owners of sentient beings in the times after slave ownership was well past and looked at as repugnant, I am considered foul. I am not ashamed. Someone else has that distinction, not me. I celebrate human rights, not taking prisoners.