Thursday, February 25, 2021

Jerk security guard

 I was accused of some cruel plan to purposely be mean to my doctor by giving  him an orchid called "Zen" from "ah Sam's" florist.

I had no idea what that security guard was on about. I gave an orchid to Mark Barrenchea, when he had leukemia; he didn't take it badly. (But not as expensive as the one for my doctor.) My doctor's was near $200. That was not a joke, or cruelty, it was love and a desire to give a nice gift. I was told it was confiscated. That is the most disgusting place!  That same security guard made a big deal out of the Kwan Yin statue and the signed GS book, "Old Ways". Eventually I got a vague idea of what he was saying. What an asshole! He is a phonominal jerk!


February 23, 2021

New Life for Suzuki Roshi’s Orchids

By Tova Green

Many residents of SFZC’s City Center go up to the roof to get a view of the city, find a quiet place to read, or to work out on the stationary bike. On the roof there are several beehives and a protected area with Suzuki Roshi’s orchids. 

These orchids were originally tended by Shunryu Suzuki, who lived at 300 Page Street from 1967, when San Francisco Zen Center acquired the building, until his death in 1971. We don’t know how many orchids there were initially, or how many times they have been divided and repotted over the last five decades but they have lived on the City Center roof all these years. They have been watered twice a month by a succession of Zen student gardeners, and have absorbed nourishment from the water and the moist air.

When Bran Massey, the current gardener, began working in that role over a year ago, he noticed that the orchids were overflowing their pots and didn’t seem to be thriving. He knew about many other plants, but with orchids he was “starting from scratch.” He consulted with a few staff members who knew about orchids, and learned from the American Orchid Society’s website. He realized that the orchids needed to be repotted, a daunting task, as there were so many. Bran ordered twenty-eight-quart bags of orchid potting soil for the project.

Bran told me that the orchids are Cymbidium, a genus of evergreen flowering plants in the orchid family Orchidaceae. Orchids in this genus are epiphytic; they live on tree branches and take their nourishment from air and water. Epiphytes can also take nutrients from dead plant matter like bark. New potting medium can support the plant up to six months. After that they need orchid food on a regular schedule. 

Cymbidium have pseudobulbs with long tapering leaves. The orchids on the roof are dormant now, but when they bloom they have many flowers arranged on a long stem that arises from the base of the bulb.

Bran was joined in the repotting project by Paula Pietranera, a resident who is a skilled gardener. On a chilly afternoon I watched them remove an orchid from its old pot, revealing a densely packed bundle of intertwined roots. 

Repotting decades-old orchids can be a messy job. They soaked the plant in a bucket of water in order to make the roots more pliable and began the painstaking process of removing dead roots and bulbs and untangling the roots. This was necessary in order to see where to make the separations when they divided the plant into several smaller ones. The last step was inserting the plants into fresh potting medium in their new pots.

Paula and Bran noted with pleasure that from the two plants they have repotted so far, they now have nine smaller ones. Paula commented, “These orchids have seen a lot of things in the time they have lived on the roof.”

Bran and Paula soaking the orchid

 

Removing dead roots.

 

Untangling roots.

[Photo credit: Tova Green]

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Helpful

 I was a scapegoat from the start and I am a scapegoat now. They want to ignore the fact that nothing makes sense to even get a TRO from the beginning. Why wait until the last year to pretend to suddenly be annoyed by my gratitude? Why wait until I asked for observation of my surgery, did annoyance with me grow from the named Plaintiff? That would look crazy. Maybe that is what they are trying to do. Because who complains about someone and then protects them during surgery? It is a conflict of making sense. They seem to be trying to create a case against my doctor for him mentally. That psy that was imported by her friend already strongly alluded to that thinking. She has no problem throwing people under the bus by making them look unstable. She abuses her position to help whatever issue she is supposed to help.

GE

 I hope that good will be backed over evil, because they don't care what happenes to you, or anyone else. Only they exist. They have treated you like an old rag, instead of the superior one in your field and beyond. They want to keep you down, so you are their subservient servant. They show their distain in so many ways. You don't deserve it, you deserve only respect.

Celebration

 I hope Friday is a celebration of good over evil.

Owed

 I could not relax enough to sleep well, because of stress and lies that have been presented as truth. That criminally minded man needs to call it a day.  Why not do something positive? He is doing bad things for his own benefit. He acts as if he is owed. I think he resents people who are superior to him intellectually and financially and wants to flex his legal muscle and be a valuable asset, but achieving it only with his employer's money to buy a "win.".

Call a spade a spade aka truth

 The people in charge need to know what roll everyone played in this thing. No one should have to be a martyer. We need transparency. Why should I go to prison for something that was never valid in the first place and for trying to keep someone safe? I wasn't a spy, or magical, or obsessive. That type of wrong thinking fuels their false accusations against me. There was nothing ever true about any of it against me. We know who it was who instigated it all. Let the blame fall where it truly belongs. Desperate people do desperate things. The guilty will try and blame anyone but themselves. Why would the non guilty lie? We were going along just fine, but that bothered certain people. They interfered in things that would not have been a problem. I just want the truth to come out. That is all that is necessary. As soon as their bad behavior, lies and railroading showed itself, then fear sprang up. I didn't just spring up with fear out of nowhere. I was given clear signals for thinking that way. The things said in the report were hurtful and damning against me. How does one wiggle out of it? It betrayed me to those who matter. One cannot say, "I lied to protect the guilty and to damn the innocent!" Why would anyone do that? Well, to save oneself from reprercussions on one hand, but throwing the innocent "under the bus," on the other hand. It is really only "kicking the can down the road"and buying time for the criminals. Seems judgment is swift for the railroaded innocent to be harmed, but slow to find the guilty as such. I think letting off the guilty causes chaos and breaks down the social order of good and bad. I believe in those I trust and don't expect betrayal from them. Once it has been done, what excuse can be used? Threats were made against them? The person with power is not me.....obviously. The bad people gave criminality a shot, but when truth broke it down, and criminal actions were exposed, all that was left was the testimony of the person who was given token power to deny, or approve of the actions of the guilty/instigators. My destiny hangs in the balance, so, either put blame where it belongs, or go against the moral or ethical choice and damn the innocent person and risk the truth confronting them and pay the heavy price, by becoming one of them. A liar. If the one I believe in and care about, again chooses lies, then veracity has forever lost its seat at the table and will forever be under suspicion, unless the guilty party was using serious threats against the innocent that were persuasive/scary enough to be accepted as truth. I always asked, never assumed I had carte blanche to behave however I wanted. That is where setting someone up and gaslighting comes in. If you don't mind hurting good people to save your own skin and that of criminals, then nothing can be done, but present the truth and hope to be believed. We know the bad people, we just need the courage to expose them. That must be where the phrase "uncomfortable truth" comes in. It takes courage to go up against powerful liars. It takes not only courage, but integrity.

I only believe my friend to voice virtue and truth, not be subservient to those who have power over us. The mighty DO FALL and if they are bad people who are guilty, THEY SHOULD FALL! 



No further

 Hi, I may only need some concentrated sleep and rest, but I look seriously ill. I was hoping to have more life, but your wardens may have cut my life short. I care very much about you. It is all that kept me going, as I have said. I just don't know how much longer I have now after all the abuse and fright. If you would relieve me of the false stuff and at least allow me to speak with you after this abuse and false restraining order. I never did anything wrong as you know. It was a terror attack on me and many things against you. I would appreciate having my name cleared. I know I was smeared. You always meant everything to me. Who could have ever imagined that those people would have such a vendetta against me for appreciation. Oh yeah, they don't want him to feel appreciated.

You were the delight of my life. Don't let them hurt you any further.

Never

 I will never hurt you, or betray your trust.

I would appreciate the same in return.

Root

 That attorney from the Private Defender Program is basically going to desert me. I am sure he has been threatened, or bribed by that awful man. I said, "you do what you want and so will I". This is beyond belief. People are intimidated by that punk? Why? Money? THE LOVE OF MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL!😈 Your place of employment is evil. That murderous woman is also evil. She will be exposed and reviled, if not incarcerated. I plan to see that happens.

Wednesday, February 24, 2021

In

 You have been there for me for so long, this entire "legal" thing is such a joke. I never could believe it was real, so I didn't. No real friend would have ever thought that. People who stole my friend's identity and used him as a legal shield are a*holes and should be incarcerated. 

Beach

 I enjoy beach cleaning. I cannot go to a beach and just sit there amongst the debris. I enjoy making a difference. I would like to do that the next time I go out to have a day at the beach. I also enjoy the other end of the spectrum and go fancy too. Sitting on the patio at the Ritz in 1/2 Moon Bay is just lovely! Listening to the piper play Amazing Grace as the sun sets is the most wonderful way to end the day. I cannot think of a better way to enjoy any of it with a good friend, with whom spending time is a treat.

Keep

 That sushi was the best ever! The magaro piece was enormous and so fresh! I have never had any that was better than a roll I chose. 

I brought my organic carrot/orange juice with me, so I was thinking of having a bit of a fast by only having that for a day.

A PBS program came on that is about rewiring the brain into making better food decisions. 

Reverse disconnection syndrome. 

I appreciate the message, but I cannot help but think that it may be just another hype itself, but the deeper message within the slick package is helpful to help reject the the parts that are hypocritical. It is a vicious circle, but I suppose it helps us be less of a victim of what technology is forcing us to be and more of what is better for us.

I woke up sitting in a chair and feeling vulnerable. I have no one else to rely upon, but myself. I feel alone. This entire time, though, during the weird legal issue, I have basically been left to my own devices. I had no real support to keeping reality. I know that I have been cut off from assistance because the person doing this needs cooperation and fear to have his plan work. I have a natural resistance to allowing someone else tell me how to behave, or what to do. I have a "f*ck you" attitude toward people who want to run my life. I know that when people threaten what you need to keep the status quo, it is hard to break away from their control. When people isolate us, they create dependance and and they add in the gravatas of law as backing them, it is doubly wrong. Also, how damn evil is the person who takes advantage of a person's dependency on what that person in control is lording over the victim. We know what they are holding over us is wrong, but they tell us that that what we need to keep the status quo, we must do what they say. They are wrong, because what they do is illegal. They end up making one do what they would not do, if something bad weren't hanging over their head. I would rather see you and enjoy that, when life had more freedom to it, than have someone else decide for me. That is a hijacking of a life. It is antithetical to the American way of life. It is about as close to fascism as one can get. Depriving a person of freedom, of thought and activity takes away their natural ability to make their own decisions. It is a very real form of mind control and making an individual into a slave to the "master's" wishes. That man has isolated his victim into being his own lab rat, or Frankenstein monster. It is wrong. He is as guilty as a kidnapper of a victim as he could be. If a person's brain has been hijacked, the body will follow.  That man has brain washed and controls. He uses deep pockets to carry out his plans. He keeps people from communicating to stop reality from filtering through and encouraging freedom. Obeying, makes it look like it is willing participation, when it is not. Putting a person's name on a legal document and forging their signature is about as much of stealing a person's identity as one can get. It has been mind control and a blatant misrepresenting of a person's actual wishes as it can get. They are manipulating a person to be a puppet to represent their own criminal desires, thereby robbing a person of their own personality. I think that is the most terrible offense against a victim as it gets, short of murder.

This needs to end. Not as much for me, but for you.

Tuesday, February 23, 2021

CC

I don't want to go home and come back Friday. I want to just stay, but it seems excessive. But I will stay alone here at the Marriott Fairfield while my renter drives my car back home. If this thing isn't over soon, I will just have keep getting contempt charges..it needs to end. I am not feeling great. Kidney pain.
You cheer me up. 
I wish you were here.

Stuff

 How did I mess up? I am down here! But it is supposed to be Friday!

I wish we could just screw it and go have fun. I am tired of this stuff!