No communication is not how lives should go, but I was so deeply attached to you and I still am. What I found with you is so rare, I don't want to lose it. I will never find someone who means so much again. I know that.  I don't want to die before I feel that wonderful feeling again. Please. I was beaten up so badly and the thought of seeing you again was my only life line of survival. 
I don't know if the cancer thing is real or not, but I will kick its ass to see you again. You make me want to live.