I could always be moved to do all the good things for myself with your motivation. I could exercise like mad, eat very little and think poetic thoughts. You owe me nothing, but I was able to stay alive to be able to see you again. I was stunned, shocked and frightened and worried about false accusations and if they were going to harm you. I always had dreams of needing to go out in the middle of the night to rescue you. I felt like a fireman always on the ready. I have not changed the tone of my heart. It is still tuned to you.