Tuesday, April 30, 2019
Hi! How are you doing? Thinking a lot about you. Feeling sad that I will miss your birthday and then another after that. I am sad that so much time has gone by and then so much more too. Couldn't the time be cut down? Please don't let that hideous man make any longer. I am sure there were reasons, but he likes to make it like he is so in control and powerful...kind of reminds me of Trump. All of that group are cruel and pretty much twisted. They will never go down w/o a fight. I am sure they wish me dead. All I want is to see you and talk to you and be near you. Why should they hate me and be so cruel to me? I guess they don't like that I love you. Love doesn't create hate. I want to know you again and see you smile and take care of you, if you want.
Monday, April 29, 2019
https://apps.library.und.edu/archon/index.php?p=collections/findingaid&id=1162&q=&rootcontentid=123337#id123337
There is an old collection of early Rx's. I have not managed to get the "box" opened yet, though.
Scrapbook 4: Prescriptions 12,575 - 15,714, undated (late 1880s)
There is an old collection of early Rx's. I have not managed to get the "box" opened yet, though.
The fourth scrapbook dates from the late 1880s, prior to North Dakota statehood in November 1889. Most of the prescriptions were from Grand Forks pharmacies, including Eckles & Morgan and D.M. Holmes. Two pharmacies from Larimore were also included: Bennett & Knight and R.B. Holmes (Druggist and Apothecary).
The prescriptions were written by several different doctors in Grand Forks, including F.J. Duggan, A.R. Herriman, S.V. Martinitz, M.W. Scott, and C.E. Teel.
My cousin, Art, has been in contact with a Czech genealogist/historian, so he is sending a few things at a time. We are pooling our resources and getting bits and pieces at a time. Too bad it couldn't be like the PBS show all there in one glorious display, but I am glad for what we are able to get at all. How nice that my Great Grandfather could spend months in Europe and do some studying there.
I am supposing that eclectic, in medicine means integrative? That would certainly resonate with my thinking. He really championed eating correctly. May have been why my great aunt lived to 100. (She would have lived longer, but her parachute failed to open....... :-)
No, but she was active at all times, plus she liked to climb trees and do her own pruning, like me. Of course, I had a favorite tree I sat in as a child to read my Nancy Drew books. In Sunnyvale, I liked to sit in my orange tree, just to be in nature. (It produced the biggest, sweetest oranges I have EVER had! I watered it a lot and fed it, plus loved it.
Isn't that what everyone needs?
I am supposing that eclectic, in medicine means integrative? That would certainly resonate with my thinking. He really championed eating correctly. May have been why my great aunt lived to 100. (She would have lived longer, but her parachute failed to open....... :-)
No, but she was active at all times, plus she liked to climb trees and do her own pruning, like me. Of course, I had a favorite tree I sat in as a child to read my Nancy Drew books. In Sunnyvale, I liked to sit in my orange tree, just to be in nature. (It produced the biggest, sweetest oranges I have EVER had! I watered it a lot and fed it, plus loved it.
Isn't that what everyone needs?
St. von Martinitz
One document that very well summarizes Stanislaus von Martinitz' time in Minnesota was published in a 1951 Journal of the Minnesota State Medical Association article titled "History of Medicine in Minnesota":
"St. V. Martinitz, native of Bohemia, was in southern Minnesota in the eighteen seventies and perhaps longer. For a few months in 1874 he was in Owatonna, Steele County. Beginning in August, 1874, the newspapers of Rochester, Olmsted County, published his professional card, “Eclectic physician, office over Central Meat Market. County and city practice,” and various notes about his activities. His practice extended as far as Rock Dell to the west and Greenwood Prairie to the east; his hazardous experiences with floods in the Zumbro River and its tributaries, and with storms, were those of his contemporaries
"When in 1878 Dr. Martinitz with his wife spent several months in Europe visiting Bohemia, studying in Vienna, Munich and Paris, his practice was conducted by young Dr. Seth Scott Bishop, newly arrived in Rochester from Fond du Fac, Wisconsin
"In January, 1879, Dr. Martinitz removed from Rochester to Northfield, Rice County. In 1893 a letter came from him, then practicing in Cedar Rapids, Iowa, under the “time act” of that state, informing a Rochester resident that he had been appointed a member of the “Official Council of the World’s Congress.” In 1896 he was listed in a four state medical directory as of Cedar Rapids; his name did not appear in the first edition (1906) of the directory of the American Medical Association or in later editions."Rochester, Minnesota, as you might know, is home to the Mayo Clinic. Although the Clinic didn't formally come into being until after Stanislaus left town, he would have certainly known the Mayo brothers and their father, William Worrall Mayo.In my next email, I'll send documents relating to his time in Grand Forks, Dakota Territory.Best regards,Paul
Sunday, April 28, 2019
It would be easier to wait if I knew you you would see me at the end. But, knowing your sweet heart, you will.
It is just difficult when that a-hole yells at me and tells me you hate me.
But, as you once said, "I thought you knew me better than that!"
I do, but I never think someone as wonderful as you would ever care about me, so it is easy to believe people who say cruel, their own self-interest things (probably big bucks in it for him).
They are desperate.
It is just difficult when that a-hole yells at me and tells me you hate me.
But, as you once said, "I thought you knew me better than that!"
I do, but I never think someone as wonderful as you would ever care about me, so it is easy to believe people who say cruel, their own self-interest things (probably big bucks in it for him).
They are desperate.
Saturday, April 27, 2019
It is funny how that awful man keeps saying that I did this to myself...did what?
Fell in love, gave thank you gifts?
I have been beaten up for a long time and still love you. Just tell me that I will never see you again, as your desire and I will go away and never be heard from again. By anyone at all.
Fell in love, gave thank you gifts?
I have been beaten up for a long time and still love you. Just tell me that I will never see you again, as your desire and I will go away and never be heard from again. By anyone at all.
I haven't slept yet. I have been doing some worrying. I was trying to get help, but it blew up in my face. I wanted help with something and he surprised me by saying he was calling ***** I didn't want that. I wanted him to investigate the bad people, I just wrote and said forget it. I don't want to risk trouble for my friend. I will just take my lumps and allow them to say I did deserve it. Oh well.
I love you,
no matter what.
I love you,
no matter what.
Friday, April 26, 2019
Thursday, April 25, 2019
I never read that becoming a friend entailed enduring so much covert plotting, making traps, leading to false restraint, including brutality and derision, plus jail time. That might just be a deterrent for some. For me, it just made me worry for you, because they might not curb their cruelty after me, they might just get caught up in the behavior and spread the cruelty to all, meaning you. If it were de rigueur to go through abusive sessions, then at least I would understand and not fight back.
But as it stands, I am tantamount to a blind person who is required to pitch a shutout for the World Series, while being pelted with rocks. I have been at just such a disadvantage and also expected not to say a word of complaint, while being taunted by cruel people....cold blooded cruel people.
Please, again, I beg you, cut me some slack while this is going on. You know my heart, I am trying to only find truth and keep you safe.
I love you and would even give my life for yours.
I love you and would even give my life for yours.
My belief, trust and my faith are only in you.
http://www.findaspring.com/uncategorized/bonny-doon-moon-rocks-spring-santa-cruz-ca-95060/
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BONNY DOON (MOON ROCKS) SPRING, SANTA CRUZ, CA, 95060
Details of this spring:
Posted: March 7, 2017
Category: California,North America,Uncategorized,United States
Description:
Disclaimer: I don’t know if this spring has been piped with a tap to properly collect water from, I’ve personally drank from where the water comes out from the ground and in my opinion it was very pure.)
The trail to the spring is located just off of 850 Martin Rd. Located on the right side if your coming from Davenport or on the left side if your coming from Ice Cream Grade Rd.
- You will see a gated property lined with Eucalyptus trees (usually open; this is the Deerhaven Herb and Flower Farm)
- Enter through the gate and take the trail about 40 feet just to the right
- Continue on the trail (Don’t take the trail to the right that goes along the road) headed south for about 5 or so minutes (You will see a building structure about 200 yards to the left if you are on the correct trail)
- Along this trail you will find another trail on the right (almost a deer trail) take it. (To know if this is the correct trail soon after you take it, you will have to climb over a large fallen tree)
- Continue on this trail for a about 15 to 20 minutes, you will then start to notice how the ecosystem changes dramatically from desert like climate into lush forest. This is a exciting sign that you’re nearing to the stream (spring)
- Once you are in the midst of the forest you will continue walking until you come up on the stream (there will be a large fallen tree stump just left of the stream)
- If you take the deer-trail right, up the small stream, you will find a location where water gradually comes out of the ground, key indicator to look for is bubbles.
- Optional: For a nice refresher continue on the main trail and follow the sound of the water until you find a nice spring water concrete bath, embrace the chilling water and take a dip in the hole! Give appreciation to nature and the local Bonny Dooner for making a lovely spring bath.
I just think it will crush me if anything makes it go on any longer. I was so sad when I was hit with 2 more years last time. I was so excited when I thought it was nearly over, but it was not. I think it was split up so that horrible man could feel powerful. Then to say he could make it last forever...why? He acts like he has a personal stake in it....maybe someone is paying him big money?People who do that kind of thing are not nice people. They feel like their lives are the only important ones. I want to make certain you are safe, then you can decide what you want. It isn't really my business, but I care so much. It really concerns me when people act so desperate and are willing to hurt people to get what they want.
You are my beautiful friend. Be safe and happy.
You are my beautiful friend. Be safe and happy.
My nice neighbor said she backed up into my car. She said she wanted to pay to get it buffed out, but it already has dings and scratches, etc, so I said that it would be like popping one pimple on a face full of acne....she liked the analogy.
So, she invited me and my renter to go sit on the hill on some old Adirondack chairs and drink wine. That was very nice and it was very enjoyable. I hadn't eaten all day, so when I cooked beef liver for dinner, I forgot how I usually make it, so it came out different, but tasted good. I shared some with my dog. I hope she doesn't wake me up with an urgent need to go.....
I haven't been around strangers that way for a very long time. It was nice. But, it made me think how nice it would been to have you there. (But, I wouldn't want to share you with anyone else for awhile...)
I want to walk on the beach with you.
Wednesday, April 24, 2019
I hope you aren't upset that I posted the long thing about the situation. I worry about doing it and I worry about not doing it. Sorry, they have made it mean and very confusing. I need to follow my instincts.
I need to stand up for you, against the wrongness of it all, for future potential victims and last ....for me.
As you know, I don't lie.
I will post it. remove it....post it....
I need to stand up for you, against the wrongness of it all, for future potential victims and last ....for me.
As you know, I don't lie.
I will post it. remove it....post it....
If I have made you hate me because of the only way I knew of to protect you, then I am sorry. I have been kept in the dark, but I knew that their forging your signature was wrong and identity theft and the cruel way I was treated made me figure you might be treated badly too. I was so frightened. I thought the only way to keep you safe was to keep what they were doing to you/me out in the open. I have had no life but this for over 3 years. I go nowhere, I do nothing. I have cruel things said to me to make me worry. They act like thugs and spies.
I had no other way to protect you. Believe me when I say I would give my life to save yours, but if you have grown to dislike me because of my efforts to keep you safe, then I guess I have to live with it. No one has ever impacted my life so much before you. My efforts to help you stay alive were honest and out of love. I have been confused and taunted. They behave in such weird, covert ways, how could I be wrong to fight back to help you? I have been the target of derision and abuse because of my efforts, but I forced them to take a look at what has gone on.
I could not figure out why they would go after me, since I am no one. I figured it was a distraction to go after the real target: you. That wall around your office against someone who gives gifts? How absurd. I think it was merely to make you feel as if you were in danger...from me. My life for over four has been worrying about you. If it made you dislike me, then I cannot do anything about it, but to wish you well. I have been confused and my heart was broken. I only cared about you and your safety. The people surrounding you are vicious and only think of themselves. Their cruelty makes me understand that they are cold blooded and could take a life with no remorse. I only did my best in an extremely bad situation. I have been looked at as a criminal and some stalker. You know those things are not true. They were punishing you, not me, but I got all the pain, in your place, I guess, I hope. But it scared me to see and hear you seem frightened. I pray each day for help and guidance. My life is frozen. Their lies and forgeries and cruel behavior could not be ignored. Transparency, spreading the story, is the only thing I know to do to not have you robbed and disappear.
It is love and it is protective when danger seems obvious. Too many unanswered questions for me to feel comfortable and not worry about you. I am sorry if it gives you unwanted attention, but it is better than you disappearing. You may like your home, but I think it will always make you a target for criminals. It is too opulent, in an opulent area. You always need to be very careful.
All I want is to know you are safe. These people who are doing this will never make me feel that you are safe. They keep me away to stop from me from protecting you. They saw my papers to you, they saw my lie detection report. They know I would risk my life for you, so they had to keep me restrained.
I will always be there for you, so know I will be your haven, should you desire.
I had no other way to protect you. Believe me when I say I would give my life to save yours, but if you have grown to dislike me because of my efforts to keep you safe, then I guess I have to live with it. No one has ever impacted my life so much before you. My efforts to help you stay alive were honest and out of love. I have been confused and taunted. They behave in such weird, covert ways, how could I be wrong to fight back to help you? I have been the target of derision and abuse because of my efforts, but I forced them to take a look at what has gone on.
I could not figure out why they would go after me, since I am no one. I figured it was a distraction to go after the real target: you. That wall around your office against someone who gives gifts? How absurd. I think it was merely to make you feel as if you were in danger...from me. My life for over four has been worrying about you. If it made you dislike me, then I cannot do anything about it, but to wish you well. I have been confused and my heart was broken. I only cared about you and your safety. The people surrounding you are vicious and only think of themselves. Their cruelty makes me understand that they are cold blooded and could take a life with no remorse. I only did my best in an extremely bad situation. I have been looked at as a criminal and some stalker. You know those things are not true. They were punishing you, not me, but I got all the pain, in your place, I guess, I hope. But it scared me to see and hear you seem frightened. I pray each day for help and guidance. My life is frozen. Their lies and forgeries and cruel behavior could not be ignored. Transparency, spreading the story, is the only thing I know to do to not have you robbed and disappear.
It is love and it is protective when danger seems obvious. Too many unanswered questions for me to feel comfortable and not worry about you. I am sorry if it gives you unwanted attention, but it is better than you disappearing. You may like your home, but I think it will always make you a target for criminals. It is too opulent, in an opulent area. You always need to be very careful.
All I want is to know you are safe. These people who are doing this will never make me feel that you are safe. They keep me away to stop from me from protecting you. They saw my papers to you, they saw my lie detection report. They know I would risk my life for you, so they had to keep me restrained.
I will always be there for you, so know I will be your haven, should you desire.
"Ignited Love"~
I feel that I've loved you
each day of survival
You know what I want
with no word on arrival
You bless my heart with
your sweetness and light
I pray devotedly for you
at the end of
each night
I haven't seen you in
forever
it seems
But I meet up with you
to
delight in my dreams
I lose my breath many
times
in a day
I tell myself that your
thoughts flew my
way
How did you know that
my soul's need and desire
was one
who ignited
such
a passionate
fire?
(It's always been you)
~Haviva
(c) HVM 2019
Tuesday, April 23, 2019
Have a nice lunch. I am thinking nice thoughts about you. Be very well. I do miss our emails. They were my reason to awaken each day. I read one of your articles last night, it was informative and fun. I like the ending, ""It is a beautiful Sunday, go for a bike ride" something like that. It was encouraging, not preachy.
Believe me, if you said you never wanted to see me again, you wouldn't. I don't want to be around someone who doesn't like me either, if that is the case. You know I have never insinuated myself on you. I say these thing because the awful man yelled in my face that you wanted nothing to do with me. Even if that were the case, I know you would have more class than to decimate information like that through such a cruel method, or cruel individual. All that makes me feel good is to have you happy and live that life you enjoy. Being legally/illegally kept away only puts a strain on me and makes me sad. After all the kindness you have shown me, kindness is all I want to show you back. When I have said that I would give my life to save yours, that is not an empty promise. When I have said that what is mine is yours, that is just as truthful. You are welcome to give me a lie detection test.
I am happy with "whatever happens, happens." I just don't feel that philosophy co-exists with those who force their will into it. That isn't natural. Those people are cruel, so they have worried me as to their intentions for you. How could I claim to care about you, if I merely ignored such a huge red flag? I do not give up on someone I care about because helping them could be dangerous for me. That is not who I am. So, along that same train of thought, neither would I want to make you miserable by forcing myself on you. I have no idea how one would do that anyway. They do scary, cruel things, I give gifts and try and keep you safe. I like openness and transparency, they like covert and sneaky. Whatever I have is yours, in their predatory minds: whatever you have is theirs.
I would always only be whatever you wanted of me. Your happiness is all that matters to me. You already gave me mine, with your incredible kindness to me. I would merely love to see your face one more time, if I may.
You made me understand true caring and I was able to experience true, amazing love. How can that be anything but wonderful? It will carry me forever throughout this life and beyond.
Thoughts of you will always be behind my smile.
I am happy with "whatever happens, happens." I just don't feel that philosophy co-exists with those who force their will into it. That isn't natural. Those people are cruel, so they have worried me as to their intentions for you. How could I claim to care about you, if I merely ignored such a huge red flag? I do not give up on someone I care about because helping them could be dangerous for me. That is not who I am. So, along that same train of thought, neither would I want to make you miserable by forcing myself on you. I have no idea how one would do that anyway. They do scary, cruel things, I give gifts and try and keep you safe. I like openness and transparency, they like covert and sneaky. Whatever I have is yours, in their predatory minds: whatever you have is theirs.
I would always only be whatever you wanted of me. Your happiness is all that matters to me. You already gave me mine, with your incredible kindness to me. I would merely love to see your face one more time, if I may.
You made me understand true caring and I was able to experience true, amazing love. How can that be anything but wonderful? It will carry me forever throughout this life and beyond.
Thoughts of you will always be behind my smile.
Monday, April 22, 2019
A few months ago I called and asked patient services if there were a waiting period to become friend with your provider and she said no. She also said there was no problems with giving gifts. She said she does it all of the time. So, I wonder who has created this waiting period. I think it is from someone in your circle, not your employer. I think they just backed that person. It is not right to do this to someone, but that isn't as bad as the awful treatment and the deception. Please, if you want nothing to do with me and stay around cruel people, please let me know. Because I do not think you are like them. They could be jailed for what they did, to both of us.
I would not retaliate against anyone you wanted to have kept from it.
I would not retaliate against anyone you wanted to have kept from it.
You said that I should know you.....I do. You are the most thoughtful, fun, sweet, humble, wonderful to listen to and look at person I have ever known.
I hope you know me too. I don't have as many delightful attributes as you, but my heart loves and appreciates you and would strive to be better. You inspire me and make me want you proud of me.
I hope you know me too. I don't have as many delightful attributes as you, but my heart loves and appreciates you and would strive to be better. You inspire me and make me want you proud of me.
Sunday, April 21, 2019
I need to have faith and trust in you only. I get jabbed and have mind games played against me and I let them shake me up. There are just so many unfair taunts that I withstand and I wonder what is said to you about me that is obviously untrue. They had all the advantages, yet they still try and make me depressed and worry about you...and the one who is a big part of it all, most likely the one who started it all....is someone close to you. I am sure it is a multi-layered situation, because people jumped on with their own selfish desires, not caring how they tried to obtain them. It must feel so weird having vultures pulling on you. You just need to stay strong and do what you want. Just be safe.
I am so glad I printed up your picture. It just makes me feel nice.
I am so glad I printed up your picture. It just makes me feel nice.
I love that you care about things. I was so happy that you wanted to make the cemetery look nice again. It really touched me and showed me how much you care. You also did such lovely things for me and never boasted about it. It let me know you cared.
Those are the kinds of things that I think about when you are at the center of my thinking (so much).
You can understand why I love you. You are in my heart and always in my thoughts. I dream of the day when I can see you again.
But, as I have said, my feelings are not important, I would never let them come between our friendship.
Those are the kinds of things that I think about when you are at the center of my thinking (so much).
You can understand why I love you. You are in my heart and always in my thoughts. I dream of the day when I can see you again.
But, as I have said, my feelings are not important, I would never let them come between our friendship.
Saturday, April 20, 2019
Out of all her cruelty to me, and all the brutally mean things Judge Novak said, that hurt me the most. It was like she found my soul and tore it open and poured poison in it. It removed a large piece of me. Yes, something in me died. I am still alive but I do not have the same life I did before. Maybe the reason I haven’t killed myself, is that I am already mostly dead now anyway.
Throwing me in jail was a nightmare. She looked at me like she had just captured the biggest criminal on Earth. I really want to know if people seriously thought I did something bad, or if they were paid a lot to pretend I was terrible. To see someone crumbling in pain, and crying so hard, I could not have been a part of it. I just wonder how the people involved did it. No amount of money could make me terrorize anyone else. Hurting someone else, hurts me too.
I can’t even think about someone else being subjected to it. It scares me for them. People must have to tell themselves that they feel vindicated for being so cruel, but what did they believe, or is there something in people that if they have a chance, they will hurt another person no matter if they deserve it, or not. I was so confused by the intense anger that came from the judge and the way Charlie Smith screamed at me. Judge Novak made me take him as my attorney, just for him to keep me quiet and treat me like dirt. Strangely, it still hurts me and I feel like I don’t deserve even the smallest of kindness.
The inhumanity of man astounds me.
Can you imagine how a loving one like Jesus must have felt? How it felt to be so reviled for no reason, but for having a loving heart? I think about it all of the time.
Why do people do horrible things to each other?
Cheryl
Friday, April 19, 2019
Thursday, April 18, 2019
Wednesday, April 17, 2019
I don't suppose you know how hard this all is for me. It takes everything in me to not feel completely in despair. It really wasn't fair, legal, humane for the people who are trying to fight against me to say or do cruel things. I know everything they have done. That gang is the most corrupt, unethical, cold blooded group that ever raised their destructive heads. I was told they will keep me restricted as long as I seem like I want a relationship. What bizarre people. That kind of taunting makes me worry for you. They act like you are a piece of property, not a human being. Why even reach a level of success, if you are going to be restricted in your freedom? You should be enjoying life without people watching you and keeping you under their thumb. That is how it appears anyway. Just be safe and stay as far from the predators as possible. Don't be afraid to turn them in. Sending love and my caring, protective thoughts.
I don't really know how you think of me, or if you ever see anything of mine, or if you even care, but I do this to keep myself from feeling down and to show my support of you. You were the nicest part of life to me and you made me feel special and cared about. Maybe you don't need it from me, but It is all I want to do. I want to give to you, care for you and make life lovely for you. I want you to know that you will always have someone who cares about you, no matter how you feel about me. You never have to feel alone, or lonely, or sad, scared, or under the thumb of anyone. You are the one to me who will always have a special place in my heart and I will do anything for you.
That will be your forever promise from me.
That will be your forever promise from me.
All the cruel things done to me (both of us, really) was an abuse of our Legal and justice systems. I am sure you know who did it. It was someone who was afraid they might lose you....and I doubt that love had anything to do with it. Love doesn't act like that.
I don't care about what you have, I just want to see you, talk to you and keep you safe and happy. They don't need to beat me up to keep the status quo, but they need to allow a person to live like an autonomous human being. I doubt if they would want someone controlling THEIR life. That is just creepy, illegal, narcissistic and cowardly, what they have done to us both. Don't they understand that what they have done is in no way legal? So money defies law? If you defied them, they would be screwed. But, you are nice and stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I am stuck worrying that they might hurt you and no way to help. Do you know how awful that feels?
I don't care about what you have, I just want to see you, talk to you and keep you safe and happy. They don't need to beat me up to keep the status quo, but they need to allow a person to live like an autonomous human being. I doubt if they would want someone controlling THEIR life. That is just creepy, illegal, narcissistic and cowardly, what they have done to us both. Don't they understand that what they have done is in no way legal? So money defies law? If you defied them, they would be screwed. But, you are nice and stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I am stuck worrying that they might hurt you and no way to help. Do you know how awful that feels?
Tuesday, April 16, 2019
I could not have made it this far without prayer, help from my guardian angel and my love for you. I got/get terribly down, but love is strong and the memories of your kindness and thoughtfulness gave me memories that made me smile, and the embrace of your sweet eyes kept me from complete despair.
I know that I will always love you.
Please be safe.
I know that I will always love you.
Please be safe.
My dream, should I be so blessed, would be to have some concentrated time with you, so I could know all about what you wished to share and to blend with you on a spiritual level. (although, I think I have already somewhat reached that spiritual stage...) and to savor....you.
All I know is that being near you was the most fulfilling, exciting time I ever knew. And that when I was around you I never wanted to be anywhere else, or needed anything else.
Words are not enough....my heart is much more eloquent.
I have written my anger.
I think I am responsible
for the destruction of
a rain forest.
I have to stop.
Anger does nothing.
Bad people are
always going
to be bad people.
Now matter how much
I tell them they
hurt me
If they cared
they wouldn't
have
done it
in the first place.
Just promise me
you will be okay.
I love.
They hate.
I am the lucky
one.
I have wasted
too much time
thinking about
them
when thinking
about
loving
you
feels so much
better.
Always.
~Haviva
I think I am responsible
for the destruction of
a rain forest.
I have to stop.
Anger does nothing.
Bad people are
always going
to be bad people.
Now matter how much
I tell them they
hurt me
If they cared
they wouldn't
have
done it
in the first place.
Just promise me
you will be okay.
I love.
They hate.
I am the lucky
one.
I have wasted
too much time
thinking about
them
when thinking
about
loving
you
feels so much
better.
Always.
~Haviva
Monday, April 15, 2019
Being taunted and told it could go on forever isn't nice and it has made me depressed since it was said in July. It is inhumane. I get told all kinds of weird crap, but I believe nothing unless I hear it directly from you. Their criminal activity should cancel any time restraint to this. It should be over now. The entire thing was abusive and false.
They broke the law. They were abusive. You were shown no respect. They tried to make us hate each other. They do not deserve to have either one of us adhere to the rules of criminals who tried to make me die with all of the stress they inflicted! They deserve to be sued by both of us, but all I want is to be able to see you and talk to you again. I love you, but I want whatever you want. I just think this is time to stop this ridiculous travesty. I want to only do what you ask, not what criminals want! Please help me. I trust you. I believe in you.
I don't like the ugliness of what is being done by the terrible people, but I can't help but think it is all being done as a distraction from the real motive, which is to steal your identity and harm you. If your friend would just call off the R.O. then it could be discussed like adults, not have other people be involved, but who knows who all is involved? What bothers me is all the corruption. People don't go to these lengths unless they feel they could have something to gain, or something to lose. Mr. G is not acting impartial. I feel I cannot rest until you are safe and people stop yanking at you.
But the bad people need to be exposed because they will just continue their evil ways against others. Telling me that I can be restrained forever, not even caring about your wishes is scary, because he has taken over your everything, not caring at all what you want. No one should run another person's life. That bothered me when that little weasel security guard was so upset about the birthday card I sent to you that had the quote, "Live, Travel, Adventure, Bless and Don't be sorry". He acted like I had said some horrible thing instead of my wishing you wonderful times ahead. That gave me the creeps. He acted like he owned you. Mr. G does too. Why?
It is like they all want to feed off of you. Don't let them steal your freedom. Live the way you want. Anyone who truly loves you should feel that way. You owe no one anything. You only owe yourself your freedom and happiness. Please, stay safe.
But the bad people need to be exposed because they will just continue their evil ways against others. Telling me that I can be restrained forever, not even caring about your wishes is scary, because he has taken over your everything, not caring at all what you want. No one should run another person's life. That bothered me when that little weasel security guard was so upset about the birthday card I sent to you that had the quote, "Live, Travel, Adventure, Bless and Don't be sorry". He acted like I had said some horrible thing instead of my wishing you wonderful times ahead. That gave me the creeps. He acted like he owned you. Mr. G does too. Why?
It is like they all want to feed off of you. Don't let them steal your freedom. Live the way you want. Anyone who truly loves you should feel that way. You owe no one anything. You only owe yourself your freedom and happiness. Please, stay safe.
Sunday, April 14, 2019
it is strange how large, important rules and standards and decency were broken to enforce either smaller, false rules, or someone's desires at the expense of the life of a human being and no one sees the wrong, or hypocrisy in it....or if they do, money made them not care. if judges break laws, why should anyone follow them?
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The items here are non-GMO, organic....and inexpensive. Haven't tried them yet, but will.
The items here are non-GMO, organic....and inexpensive. Haven't tried them yet, but will.
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