I canceled my biopsy. Maybe it would just be better to die. I hate my life. People act like they hate me and that is killing me too, so what is the difference? I am only visible if someone thinks I have done something wrong. At least dying will make some people happy. I used to be considered a nice person, then I did something nice back to my doctor for his kindness and I was suddenly a monster. How could people do that to someone, then allow it to keep going? I know my sadness caused my illness, so I will just stop fighting it. Life is not worth it any longer if I cannot see you. I am so tired.

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