DMBD

 I have had vision issues for a couple of weeks now. i wish I could go in for tests. I also need a brain MRI to see what is going on. I really only feel comfortable with my friend involved. i have not been in for a long time. I wish he could get the REAL records; since the breast records i have presently I feel are bogus, or someone else's.. I SHOULD have been dead by now! (Dr. Z with his phone call, "YOU'RE GONNA DIE, YOU'RE GONNA DIE!") I mean, did he know it was a trick to lure me to my death, or mutilation, or brain death? I wish my friend could find out, but I don't want to endanger him.

He has been the love of my life. I will only stop having him always on my mind and in my heart, when he specifically says so.