I have been doing online grocery shopping. Now l must weed it out. My cart was over 300 ! The nice thing is the food will be shipped and they list the food as to organic, vegan, etc, so that makes it fast. I was having fun, so I just kept going. The problem is that the fridge may be on the way out, so not a good time to load up.
I am glad to have gotten a stay at a nice hotel, hope you will go. No obligation, just a hug would be nice. I care what you want. It could be awkward, but we know each other better than that. Remember?
I have been nervous about what to say at the event. I sure hope to see you. It will do no good to not have you there because I will say it all and say that preventing someone from having their say is un American and against the constitution. A prisoner outside of the law is a crime. You need to have your testimony.
When I was young, I was pretty and got attention. Aging can be a rude awakening. Now I am not special, but I still enjoy life and doing better for myself.
I keep thinking that the only way for me to truly protect you is to marry you, but if you see it differently, that is fine. I wanted you to have control of my life, but it was your decision. I can think of no one I would rather want. I just know that I cannot go through this worry again. I want to have the right to protect you and you me. It is too bad to need to think that way, but sadly it is necessary.
My house is still in nasty shape, but help and some money l have delegated toward it will do it. You just need to change your normal thinking of that reality for a bit; it won't be long. I am falling apart about the embarrassment of it, but it will happen. I have to forgive and move on.
It is too bad we did not have a normal situation, but actually it may have expedited certain things. I would not have been so open in some ways. I appreciate that you have been so understanding.
You are there for me! I appreciate that more than you can know. If you were disingenuous, it would break my heart and lose my faith. People are not perfect, but honesty is a standard part of humanity I rely on. Fibs are understandable, but massive lies are devastating. Of course, I am forgiving, especially after considering hardships, but like a ⛵ people can change course and do better. Trust and faith need to be strong. It isn't always easy. I have had some very special times of help, so my trust is hopeful. You have proven yourself many times. It solidified my faith and strong desire to be there for you when you need. I do not take you for granted. You feel like a part of me. That is rare.
I will always be there for you; even if it is a middle of the night rescue. (Especially if it is a middle of the night rescue because then it is scary serious!)
I have been doing online grocery shopping. Now l must weed it out. My cart was over 300 ! The nice thing is the food will be shipped and they list the food as to organic, vegan, etc, so that makes it fast. I was having fun, so I just kept going. The problem is that the fridge may be on the way out, so not a good time to load up.
ReplyDeleteI am tired from doing a lot of thinking, etc last night.Guess a refreshing nap is in order! Back in a bit. See ya!
ReplyDeleteHugs!
ReplyDeleteI am glad to have gotten a stay at a nice hotel, hope you will go. No obligation, just a hug would be nice. I care what you want. It could be awkward, but we know each other better than that. Remember?
ReplyDeleteYou are a VERY SPECIAl SOMEONE to me!
ReplyDeleteI love you.
ReplyDeleteI have been nervous about what to say at the event. I sure hope to see you. It will do no good to not have you there because I will say it all and say that preventing someone from having their say is un American and against the constitution. A prisoner outside of the law is a crime. You need to have your testimony.
ReplyDeleteTo see you again is all I need to fulfill my life.
ReplyDeleteI just enjoy your company. I know it has been a long time, but what does time matter? Only if you make it.
ReplyDeleteI try and stop the pain from missing you, but it is tough.
ReplyDeleteI have you as my first consideration at all times. I hope it shows.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was young, I was pretty and got attention. Aging can be a rude awakening. Now I am not special, but I still enjoy life and doing better for myself.
ReplyDeleteI keep thinking that the only way for me to truly protect you is to marry you, but if you see it differently, that is fine. I wanted you to have control of my life, but it was your decision. I can think of no one I would rather want. I just know that I cannot go through this worry again. I want to have the right to protect you and you me. It is too bad to need to think that way, but sadly it is necessary.
ReplyDeletePredators are a reality and a torment.
ReplyDeleteMy house is still in nasty shape, but help and some money l have delegated toward it will do it. You just need to change your normal thinking of that reality for a bit; it won't be long. I am falling apart about the embarrassment of it, but it will happen. I have to forgive and move on.
ReplyDeleteIt is too bad we did not have a normal situation, but actually it may have expedited certain things. I would not have been so open in some ways. I appreciate that you have been so understanding.
ReplyDeleteYou are there for me! I appreciate that more than you can know. If you were disingenuous, it would break my heart and lose my faith. People are not perfect, but honesty is a standard part of humanity I rely on. Fibs are understandable, but massive lies are devastating. Of course, I am forgiving, especially after considering hardships, but like a ⛵ people can change course and do better. Trust and faith need to be strong. It isn't always easy. I have had some very special times of help, so my trust is hopeful. You have proven yourself many times. It solidified my faith and strong desire to be there for you when you need. I do not take you for granted. You feel like a part of me. That is rare.
ReplyDeleteJust be open with me. I cannot go through their torment again; they are sickos. In will stand by you.
ReplyDeleteI meant, I will stand by you.
ReplyDeleteI will always be there for you; even if it is a middle of the night rescue. (Especially if it is a middle of the night rescue because then it is scary serious!)
ReplyDeleteFigure out how to leave on the day. It will help us both.
ReplyDeleteMay I come get you?
ReplyDeleteI wonder about getting a limo.
ReplyDeleteThis needs to come to an end.
ReplyDeleteI need you. I have never said that to anyone else.
ReplyDeleteWill I ever see you? I get discouraged.
ReplyDeleteMy only worry is for you, but oh how I would love to see you again. Only God and the angels can make that happen, I but am I worth it? Maybe not.😞🥺 🙏
ReplyDeleteI am so in awe of you, l will always be dedicated.
ReplyDeleteHave a lovely day!
ReplyDeleteSomeone will be there by lunch. Look for them out back.
ReplyDeleteBack later.
ReplyDeleteOkay?
ReplyDeleteIf I come the day before......could that be a positive impact?
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ReplyDeleteLove!
ReplyDeleteYou!
ReplyDeletePlease be proactive! I am worried about what they may do to you. I still think they took your mother.
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