Thursday, October 31, 2019

You~
How long I have waited to see you again
How deeply I dove in your eyes
How desperate I am for a mere glimpse of you
As slowly my own body dies


The sun sets securely to waves of mixed blue
With pillows of foam to lay rest
A cover of stars that shimmer and dance   
For a small life that you turned to blessed


My happiness was in the smile on your lips
The joy on your face no moon could eclipse
The boyish cool mood that you struck with pie 
ease
And delivered me kindness with unique expertise


You melted my heart and the mold that it formed
Gave me strength to hold on and weather the storm
The road has been long with wild twists and turns
But wherever you are is where my soul yearns 


~Haviva

© HVM 2019
I found some (really) old antibiotics and it is helping with my pain, but still will get it checked.
Halloween is usually my favorite fun time. Nothing is fun any longer.
They are doing some frivolous painting here at the complex. They make it annoying here. I need to get a truck and haul stuff out. It is too crowded from too much from the other house. I need to downsize.
I hope you have a sweet day! You are always in my thoughts. I wish I could see you; it is my dearest wish.
I know you never see this, but it is all I have to talk to you. Although I get so discouraged. This has been terrible treatment by awful people.

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

It has been a long haul. Seeing you again would wipe all bad away.
Electricity is back!!!!!

Tuesday, October 29, 2019

I hurt so much from missing you. I see big RVs going down the street and all I can think is how great it would be to just go.....anywhere with you. It just doesn't seem right to be kept away so long. It seems like life could be so fun and so caring. I want to care about you and take care of you. Just give it a try, I know it would be amazing. I would do anything to make you so happy. I feel like I have been searching for you all my life. Corny, maybe, but I mean it.
You know I love you. Is that okay?
I wasn't able to access this, until now. Got a phone charge at the grocery store. No electricity still. I wish you were here. You are all I think about.

Saturday, October 26, 2019

Carly Simon's anti-Trump ad

Possible cancer fueled by the stress from FALSE LAW!

CANCER

 

Haviva von Martinitz countessprague@gmail.com

1:47 PM (6 minutes ago)
 
to RichardPD
I am worried I may have breast cancer. I survived
another rare malignancy around 20 years ago and 
have been fine, but this stress has been hard to 
take and it also fuels breast cancer. There is NO 
QUESTION THAT THIS IS A FALSE R.O. 100%.! 
PLEASE! I am BEGGING YOU, please end it! This 
is exactly what Kaiser attorney Mike Guasco 
wanted! The stress has set me up for cancer! 
right now, with my breast hurting and lymph nodes
swollen and hurting and I cannot even tell the 
person in whom I trust the most! It is outrageous 
that I could possibly die due to a false use of law 
and the criminals who did it to me walk free, 
hurting more innocent people with abandon! 
Please, please, help me.
Cp

Friday, October 25, 2019

It appears that my lymph nodes in the armpit area may be involved.
The breast pain is worrying. 
I miss you so much. Have a wonderful day!

Thursday, October 24, 2019

I have been having pain in my breast, but I need to have my doctor call me. They won't just make an appt. for me. They make me feel like a criminal. I hope it makes "someone" feel better about themselves. They want me to be treated like scum and they are doing a great job of it....but it makes them really awful people. I have gone through Hell and I still would not hurt the person who wanted this done to me....except that horrible man and his sidekicks.
It would be lovely to finally have some days of no worries, or attacks. I am weary.
Good morning. Have a sweet day! You are the one I trust. You are the one I love.

Tuesday, October 22, 2019

I miss you only in the daylight and dark hours of a 24 hour period.
It hurts my heart.
Letter:
I have been left in the dark over this situation and that is not normal for anyone. I think I have been pretty reasonable in the face of the unreasonableness that has been given to me. Most people would not be able to deal with it this long. It has not been nice, legal, or fair.
Had I not been financially compromised at this time, which is what my attackers counted upon, plus blocking my ability to find legal help, it has been closer to terrorism than anything. This should never taken place in a country that touts freedom and civil rights, it has been a field day of abuse, of which I believe I was never to have survived. It has been a sadistic game wherein my opponents held all the cards. It has been horrific. Shooting me dead would have been more humane than this awful treatment. Torture of innocent people, is not in our Constitution. This was tantamount to spitting on our basic rights and it needs to never happen again. It is a serious situation and of great concern.
Thank you.
Cp
I feel better when I can put my thoughts "out there".

Monday, October 21, 2019

All I want to do is be around you again, always near. A sweet dream.

Sunday, October 20, 2019

Life is no longer nice.
They will never let you be free, will they? I don't want anything. I just want to know you. They just want what you have, I just want your delightful self. I feel like a car with all flat tires, limping along, but not functioning at top performance without being able to see you.
One day just melds into another.
I could do everything, or nothing with you and have the best time ever! I just love being near you and talking with you. You are my joy!
Would a hospital put me in a coma for the holidays? I am too sad to face them.

Saturday, October 19, 2019

Please trust me. Rely on me. You have done so much for me, but I would do anything for you no matter what. I love you intensely and without reservation. You feel like an extension of me.
I would be there for you through anything, I know you, I really do.
I think of you and my breathing gets shaky and I feel restless and jumpy and full of hope, then despair....
I would love you like you've never been loved before. Forever and ever.
I just want to hold your insanely handsome face in my hands and look at you for hours.
I look like someone who has been sick.
I would love to sit by a fire at the beach with you. Heaven.
Honk!!
I love you and will always love you; no one can rake that away from me.
I am so stressed because I have no idea what is going to happen.
I keep thinking I should have an MRI, but I don't know if I am covered.
I wonder if my tests came out okay. I keep getting nauseated and headaches. I hope all is well.

Friday, October 18, 2019

I just want a life of sweetness and kindness from the end of this thing, on out. I hope to share that kindness and care with you as much as you want. You are loved.
I will do all I can to keep you safe. Truth needs to prevail!
Sending you love and support.
Being away from you has been awful, but I keep you in my mind each day and you play an important role in my happiness. I actually feel it when you smile.
Is it heartburn or a heart attack? (Maybe it is love!) :-)
That horrible man must have done one Hell of a smear campaign against me.
"I thought I'd never see you again." ~Winston Churchill to Clemmie, his wife.

(I know how he felt)
I ONLY Believe YOU! Certain people with agendas against me say ugly things to me about how much you hate me etc, but they do not know you as I do; you have too much kindness and class to say such things. They are using their own twisted thinking! Cruel people belong nowhere near you. They have hurt you too much already!
Be strong!

Thursday, October 17, 2019

My heart has grown fonder....I did not think it was possible to grow MORE fond, but it has.
I will always dedicate my life to your happiness. It is all I could ever want.
The only thing keeping me going is the thought of seeing you again and knowing you are okay. I panicked when I was so sick because I worried about dying before I could see you. That thought makes me so sad.
The pain I have suffered
is nothing
compared to
the joy I have
felt over you.
I am trying to force myself to sleep, so my head doesn't hurt or feel dizzy. My eyes are red and droopy. That is not normal for me. Plus I am congested. I do think of you and how much I want to see you. It has been interminable.

Wednesday, October 16, 2019










Chaos on Loan~

Throughout the daylight drudge of life
Dreams of you tell me what I want to hear
that you miss me and need me....as I do you.
Reality may paint an entirely disparate, 
but vivid diorama
My suffering gets to choose, since you are 
not here to
enlighten 
me.

Sadness is a perfume that 
envelops me and clings to my 
downcast eyes 
burning and stinging
like a demonic wasp on a mission
of maniacal motivation 
it permeates my dulled senses
awakening a sort of putrid mortality
of existence
echoing and mocking those who 
live without feeling a foreshadowing 
of death with every tick of the hand of 
insensate fatalism

My mind takes a turn on the Devil's
dance floor between Heaven and
Hades 
It begins as a lively, demented 
tarantella
winding down to a dirge
A requiem of a tormented soul 
unable to find a place to lurk for 
eternity

Confusion is sanity's insane 
companion
leading down a corridor of billowing
thoughts and abstract delusions
taunting and mocking along the twisted
pathway to nowhere....into a darkness
of despair

Chaos becomes 
normal
the frantic music of life 
played in a minor key
to a lonely
struggling
sad
but gentle
wounded
world.

~Haviva
(c) HVM 2019



I feel like I have been in mourning for most of my life.
I would love to see you, talk with you and just be there with you for a very long time and care for you. I don't want to see anyone else. Just you.
I want to go on hikes with you. Start slowly and build up.

Tuesday, October 15, 2019

I miss you so much, it really does hurt.
If I get to see you again, I won't ever be able to look away from your sweet face.

Monday, October 14, 2019

Just remember how much I always loved you.
I feel so very ill, maybe from the MS from the stress. I think I need serious medical help. I just don't know what to do.
I have been feeling bad every day. I may need an MRI, or something. I really feel awful each day.

Love.....

I love you.
My mother so loved my stepfather. She lived for him. She took such good care of him when he was sick even though it was so hard on her. She and I had our differences and trying times, but I so admire her dedication to him. I always saw her as being cold and distant, but her devotion and sacrifice to him was heart warming. I see her in a whole new light. The love I heard in her voice when she spoke to me was all I ever wanted from her.  It was a true blessing. 

Sunday, October 13, 2019

My stepfather just died. My mother sounds rather fragile. I need to make her a priority. I wish I knew what to do. She said that one of my poems was a comfort to her right now, one of the ones I wrote for someone I love.  It was loving, but sad for the situation. More than anything I want that cloud gone.
I don't know what to do.

Saturday, October 12, 2019

Newly Discovered Super Antioxidant
Fights Off the 7 Biggest Plagues of Aging
Is This Little-Known Wonder the New Turmeric?
Balances Cholesterol, Improves Metabolism,
Lowers Blood Pressure, Boosts Brainpower and More.
For the last several years, turmeric has been the "go to" solution in the natural health world without question. The plant's bright yellow root contains an antioxidant with inflammation-fighting abilities and wide-ranging benefits that surpass just about every other natural remedy known to science.

But now, experts and industry insiders are excited about a newly discovered, potent plant-derived antioxidant (which also happens to be bright yellow in color) that is proving in study after study to have remarkable benefits for your metabolism, heart, brain and digestive system that rival even those of the almighty turmeric.

And you—and your doctor—most likely have never even heard of it. But you most certainly deserve to know about it.
Meet the Super Antioxidant
That Rivals the Almighty Turmeric
My name is Joshua Corn, and I'm Editor-in-Chief of Live in the Now, one of the fastest-growing natural health publications in the nation. I'm passionate about natural healing because the more researchers peel away the truth, the more evidence they find that natural solutions truly are the key to longer, healthier lives.

We've seen what supplements like CoQ10 can do for your heart, lutein can do for your eyes, and turmeric can do for your brain and joints.

Please keep reading, because scientists now have uncovered a natural breakthrough called berberine that can improve such a wide range of age-related issues that I believe it will soon rival turmeric as the #1 way to effectively improve your overall health and delay the aging process.*

That's because this plant compound has been shown in studies to:
Lower LDL cholesterol by up to 25% and triglycerides up to 36%[1,2]
Rev metabolism for blood sugar balance, weight loss and energy[2,3]
Promote overall heart health and optimal blood pressure[2,4]
Boost brain health and combat age-related cognitive decline[5-9]
Improve digestion and gastrointestinal microbial balance[10-17]
Strengthen resistance against common illness-causing bacteria[15-17]
Protect and support liver, pancreas and kidney function[18]
These Are the Very Foundations
of Lasting Health!
After all, nothing says "aging" more than the weight gain, low energy, heart concerns, cognitive decline, intestinal issues and compromised immune system that can develop when these cornerstones begin to crumble.

So when berberine hit my radar screen, I couldn't wait to dig into the research and share it with you. You don't need to wait years for this potent antioxidant to become "mainstream" and the latest natural health craze. You can start reaping the benefits right now!
Joshua Corn is Editor-in-Chief of the Live in the Now newsletter which boasts over 250,000 subscribers and growing! Josh is a health freedom advocate who's been dedicated to promoting health, vitality, longevity and natural living for nearly 20 years. He is the author of two acclaimed natural health books, The Drug-Free Acid Reflux Solution and 4 Weeks to a Better Brain. Soon he will be publishing his third book, Beat the Diabetes Trap. In addition to his work in the natural health field, Josh is an avid outdoorsman, fitness enthusiast, organic gardener and animal lover who enjoys
The Once-in-a-Generation Health Discovery
That Improves Just About Every One
of Your Key "Numbers"
Berberine is a little-known discovery that is only "new" by conventional standards. It has been used for thousands of years by natural medicine practitioners throughout Asia.

Berberine is a natural alkaloid found in dozens of the world's most potent medicinal plants, including goldenseal and barberry. In fact, traditional medical texts are filled with mentions of these healing plants.

But it was only recently that scientists identified berberine as the one health-enhancing compound that these botanicals have in common.

And when they finally did, it set off a wave of research.

More than 4,000 studies have been published on berberine's remarkable health-boosting effects.[19] And as one study after another rolled in, it became apparent that this unique alkaloid held astonishing powers.*

Here's an overview of 7 of the most profound, research-backed ways berberine can revolutionize your health.
#1: Reduces Cholesterol and Triglycerides
Significantly and Safely
Big Pharma has created a multi-billion-dollar industry around controlling cholesterol and triglycerides with a "solution" that too often negatively impacts other aspects of your health.

Thankfully, berberine can come to the rescue. One study of participants with elevated cholesterol and triglyceride levels reported that taking 1,000 mg of berberine daily for three months led to a remarkable 25% drop in LDL and a 35% drop in triglycerides—as well as a 29% reduction in total cholesterol—with no side effects.[1]

Another study found much the same. In this second trial, scientists recorded a 21% reduction in LDL, a 36% reduction in triglycerides and an 18% reduction in total cholesterol—just by taking 1,000 mg daily for three months.[2]

And here's another reason why berberine is such an extraordinary antioxidant...
#2: It Dramatically Improves Metabolism,
Promotes Weight Loss and Boosts Energy
Optimizing your metabolism is critical to living a long and healthy life, and taking berberine may be nature's single most effective way to do just that.

When your body's overall metabolism is in balance, you'll find that your blood sugar levels balance out effortlessly as well. Excess weight will seem to melt right off, and you'll feel a surge in your energy and overall vitality.

Left unchecked, however, metabolic issues typically lead to dangerous blood sugar imbalances that trigger oxidative stress and systemic inflammation. This in turn can lead to weight gain, cardiovascular damage, nerve damage, kidney failure, cognitive decline and even severe vision problems.

One notable clinical trial showed that taking 1,000 mg of berberine daily for three months resulted in a dramatic 20% reduction in fasting blood sugar and a 26% improvement in glucose tolerance.[2]

And five more studies confirm that berberine lowers blood sugar even more effectively than making drastic dietary changes and working out regularly![3]Of course, I don't suggest you pass up a healthy diet and exercise. Instead, just imagine the results you could enjoy combining this blood sugar-buster with a healthier diet and more exercise. The results will thrill both you and your doctor!
Proven Benefits of Berberine
#3: Optimizes Your Heart Health
and Blood Pressure Levels
In research published in the American Journal of Cardiology, people who took berberine for eight weeks had better heart function and were better able to exercise than those who took a placebo.[4]

A good portion of berberine's positive effects on heart health stems from its ability to help keep blood sugar, weight, triglycerides and cholesterol in check, all of which can raise the risk of heart problems.

Berberine also stimulates the release of nitric oxide, a signaling molecule that relaxes blood vessels, increases blood flow, lowers blood pressure and protects against hardening of the arteries.

And a surprising thing happened when researchers tested berberine on participants with blood sugar and cholesterol issues: They noticed reductions in both systolic and diastolic blood pressure, too![2]
#4: Combats Age-Related Cognitive Decline
and Mood Issues
Groundbreaking recent research is showing that berberine positively affects neurotransmitter activity related to long-term cognitive health and has a protective effect on brain cells.[5]

Other fascinating research has shown that berberine inhibits activity of cholinesterase (ChE), the enzyme that breaks down the important neurotransmitter acetylcholine, which is crucial for memory function, focus and concentration.[6]

These findings corroborate earlier studies that have concluded that berberine provides a multi-pronged defense against age-related cognitive decline by addressing multiple risk factors.[7-9]
#5: Makes Frustrating Digestive Issues
a Thing of the Past
Traditional healers have long used goldenseal, one of the most common sources of berberine, for digestive relief. And today, science understands why it works so well to settle down digestive issues.[10-12]

Oftentimes, digestive issues are caused by imbalances that develop in the intestinal microenvironment. And this is where berberine can provide tremendous digestive support. This remarkable compound inhibits pathogenic bacteria in the gastrointestinal tract, without harming your good intestinal bacteria.[13,14]

This is key to effective digestive relief ranging from gas and bloating to acid indigestion and more.[15,16]

Studies have shown berberine hinders pathogens like E. coli, V. choleraeand H. pylori, which can cause all kinds of gastrointestinal distress.

One 2015 preliminary study found that it may even inhibit the growth of the dangerous and widely feared superbug, C. difficile.[17]
#6: Turbocharges Your Immune System
Since up to 70% of your body's immune system resides in your intestinal tract, maintaining healthy digestive balance can provide a cascade of healthful benefits.

Berberine has the innate ability to keep pathogens in check, which can give your overall resistance a much-needed lift. It has a proven track record in natural medicine to treat and prevent urinary tract issues—researchers believe it stops E. coli from binding to the urinary tract walls.[15]

Another preliminary study showed that berberine exhibits antiviral effects on common seasonal maladies that are particularly dangerous to seniors.[17]
#7: Keeps Your Liver, Pancreas and Kidneys
in Top‑Notch Shape
A lifetime of processed foods, sugar intake and even moderate alcohol consumption can take a serious toll on your vital organs. That's why liver, pancreas and kidney problems all become more common as we age.

So how can the amazing natural solution that is berberine help you?

Recent studies show that its antioxidant and anti-inflammatory powers specifically inhibit oxidative stress and inflammation of the liver, pancreas and kidneys.[18] And thank goodness for that!

Your liver works tirelessly to flush away toxins that lead to fatigue, brain fog and poor health. Your pancreas is a workhorse, too, producing insulin and enzymes that are critical for digestion. And your kidneys work 24/7 to remove waste from the blood and regulate water fluid levels.

Given all the hard work these organs do, this powerful antioxidant and anti-inflammatory boost can quickly help revitalize your health and vitality.*
It's Amazing How This Antioxidant Wonder
Can Ease So Many Health Concerns
Now that science has discovered berberine's unique capabilities, you can finally see how this safe and natural plant compound can transform so many aspects of your health. But before you order the first bottle of berberine you find online, you need to make sure you take the right formula.

Here are 3 simple tips to make sure you purchase the right berberine supplement:
The Right Dosage: The research shows you need 1,000 mg of berberine daily to achieve the results shown in the studies. Many supplements contain only 250 mg to 500 mg, which isn't supported by the research to be effective.
The Right Form: The most impressive results came from studies using the highly purified berberine HCl form, not the unstandardized extract of the barberry plant, which is often used in supplements and provides only a small amount of actual berberine.*
Quality Counts: Many berberine supplements are made overseas, which always makes me question their quality. Make sure the supplement you purchase is made in a U.S.-based facility.
A Superior Berberine Supplement You Can Trust
You may already know that in addition to my work at Live in the Now, I also run a company called Stop Aging Now, which has been making premium-grade dietary supplements for over 20 years.

To make sure my readers have the chance to experience the full benefits of this super antioxidant at an affordable price, I went to work with the company's Scientific Advisory Board to create what I truly believe to be the best berberine supplement on the market today.

It's called Berberine XTS™, and not only is it formulated to be one of the most potent berberine supplements on the market, it's priced to also be one of the most affordable as well at as low as $14.99 per bottle. This way nearly everyone can benefit from this amazing natural remedy.

Of course, I encourage you to do your own research. But here's why I think you'll find Berberine XTS to be superior:
Superior Potency and Purity: Berberine XTS is made with 1,000 mg of highly purified berberine HCl, the same dosage and form used in the studies—and all in just 2 veggie capsules per day. Many supplements provide much smaller dosages that won't produce research-level results.
Guaranteed Safety and Effectiveness:Berberine XTS is made in Stop Aging Now's own state-of-the-art, FDA-inspected facility located in Florida, and it meets or exceeds the stringent USP standards for quality, purity, potency and disintegration.
Berberine XTS
It's Affordable, Ships for Free and Is Risk-Free: Berberine XTS is not available in stores, but it ships to you for free and is amazingly affordable, as low as $14.99 per bottle for a one-month supply. That's a small price to pay for a premium-grade, full-strength berberine supplement that can address so many health concerns.
Plus, Berberine XTS comes with an "any reason" 365-day guarantee. That's right—you can take it for up to one year, and still get a full refund if it doesn't work for you.
Your Complete Satisfaction with
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I'm confident that Berberine XTS will produce noticeable and undeniable results for you. By the time you go for your next checkup, the numbers won't lie!

All I ask is that you give it a chance. Berberine XTS goes to work quickly, and you can expect to enjoy better and better results as the weeks go by.

I'm convinced you'll give Berberine XTS a two-thumbs-up review, but you can rest easy knowing you're protected by our industry-leading 365-day return policy.

That's right...you can try it for up to a year and if it doesn't work, I'll gladly send you a full refund—up to one year after purchase.

Even if you've taken every last capsule and are not satisfied, I will still give you every penny back. And since it ships to you for FREE, you truly don't risk a dime.
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I love hearing success stories from people like you who tried Berberine XTS and are thrilled they did. Here are just a few of my favorites:
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Berberine XTS Makes It Easy to Stay
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With Berberine XTS, I'm confident you'll see and feel the benefits faster than you ever thought possible as it helps you:*
Control your cholesterol, triglycerides and blood pressure
Achieve and maintain normal blood sugar balance and a healthy weight
Enjoy consistent energy levels throughout the day
Optimize your long-term cognitive health, memory and focus
Eliminate digestive issues and promote intestinal balance
Experience optimal immune function and improved resistance
Support healthy functioning of your liver, pancreas and kidneys
I fully expect this breakthrough antioxidant to become increasingly popular as its health and anti-aging benefits attract more and more attention.

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