Friday, September 30, 2022

YAL

 

GTACYW

                             



                                        

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H&L

 Hi Cutie! Have a lovely day! I will be with you to keep you safe and happy!Punch anyone in the nose who bugs you! Hugs and love!

Wednesday, September 28, 2022

HMO

 I want to be your support. Help me.......okay?

INTSYA

 I need to see you again.

HAY

 How are you? I am always here in my world of mess! 💆👱😓 I will hire a crew, when I can....

Tuesday, September 27, 2022

Dolly Parton - I Will Always Love You (Live and Well Audio)


I do love you so. I will always help you too.
Please, don't allow them to jail me.

Sunday, September 25, 2022

IWNSHY

 If I could love you, I would never want to stop hugging you!

HIHAPPY

 Hi! Good day to you! I slept in to shake off the booster shot, but there really was nothing much; I just could not raise my arm. I took a couple of aspirin and slept well, but arm is still aching.

My renter will go do errands Monday that will help both people.

Sending lots of love!

Keep up your spirits!

Saturday, September 24, 2022

IASHTTOY

 You make me so happy!  If I saw you again; I would die happy!

You are loved!

TIATMTM

 I ran out early (for me) to get another Covid booster. I only had to sit in the car and my renter drove by and I got the shot and so did he. We are all boosted up!

You know, I have become somewhat more fragile. It felt so odd to be out. I never go anywhere. They were giving the boosters at the Fire Dept it was so painless! In the same little "enclave" is an adorable little Catholic Church; I already forgot the name, but I think it was St. Mary by the Sea and it an adorable view of the ocean, with trees framing it. Pretty place to go meditate, I think anyway. I have gone hardly anywhere in my own town! 

I would love to go to a scenic place like that with you and just enjoy being together.  That is all that matters to me  

🌊⛪🌅🥪

IBANHP1

 Arriving September 28 - September 30

Hope it works well! I do give them work outs!

I do seem to do well with HP.       💋🤗

IBANP

 I bought a new printer; my old one kept stopping and taking forever to start again. It also is not printing straight.

IWTSYA

 The only reason I would have to live a long life would be to see you again.

YATLOML

 You are not forgettable, nor to be denigrated, nor used for greedy gain, by those who do not  deserve you and your beauty. You need freedom and to love life.

I will help you.

Friday, September 23, 2022

NOLY

 I know I will never "get over" you, because I cry all of the time from missing you. I am sorry I am emotional, but people like you don't come along, if ever, in a lifetime.  

My pain is intense. 

IINAA

 I had no idea it was a holiday! It is a Native American Appreciation day, so the place I wanted to go is closed. Will try again.

FWSO

 I am so very exhausted!

I will keep going; even it takes more time.

You are my motivation; my love. 


Feel well sweet one. Have faith

You are wonderful! Never forget!

❤😗  

YATHSW

 Today I mailed some things out and more go out tomorrow, in person! Things will be happening.


please know i miss you and love you.


Thursday, September 22, 2022

IHC

 I just want to run away......

with you. I am tired!


(I hate crooks!)

Tuesday, September 20, 2022

BDBC

 Up early/late working on paperwork. Being diligent. Be confident.

ICBTTM

 I have no idea if anyone even sees what I write. I could be merely talking to myself. 

WIIFTAY? 1000

 What if I file to adopt you? 


Quite and idea!

Adults DO that!

💕  But, I want to love you........

Monday, September 19, 2022

IWLYD 💖💞😌

💖💞😌 I love you! 

I will NOT let you down!

John Denver - For You (from The Wildlife Concert)

YAAAL

 Hi! I am super tired. More work tomorrow. Have great sleep! You are adored and loved!

HUGS!

IHYAWBY

 I really wish I had you to talk to. I am so lonely to talk to you.  Not speaking to a wonderful person I adore for many years is absolute torture.  I hope you are well. You were always so kind to me.

Bless you!

Sunday, September 18, 2022

Rep

Check out my new report soon in feathers.

Saturday, September 17, 2022

IWBSL

 I would so much like to go to "B's" resting place. She was so kind to me and was very attentive. I suppose I could find it alone, but being there with her loved one would be so lovely.


YAETM

 You know I would take care of you and love you and always put you first. I would always look for little surprises that would make you smile; your birthday would be a national holiday to me. I would want to do things you enjoy. Your life would be what I always wanted for mine. I would try and anticipate your every need. Your face would still and always be the last one I would want to see before I died, so I could take it into eternity with me to keep me happy.

You are everything to me.

🤟


I suppose I will just die alone. 

TYBVW

 Thank you, be very well.

Friday, September 16, 2022

PGMI2345

 

Please give me encouragement. I feel so down.😔😢


So lonely.😢💤💗🌃

IFSH

 I only care about you. I feel so helpless. 

Ifeelterrible

 Hi, just saw another pic of you and I feel so bad, because I am slow.

WCCOW

 

Words have the power to both destroy and heal. When words are both true and kind, they can change our world.
 - The Buddha


This contains: Tranquility Fragrance Oil

TB

Peace & Love! 


May all beings everywhere be happy, peaceful, and free.

 - The Buddha

Display a heart of boundless love for all the world. ❤
 - The Buddha




Thursday, September 15, 2022

IAMHAHEC

👼🤟"This morning, I found a gray feather at my feet, when I took my doggie out. I did ask for a sign....." 

She will always be there for you; I want to be here as her earthly connection, so I can fulfill my promise to her. Her love is strong; remember that in times of despair. 

IHYSS

 How are you doing today, cutie?

Just getting mostly paperwork done, but house is still ugh!

I am hoping to get help in October and getting things fixed.

Each time I read old emails, I bask in the glow of your kindness and

friendship. It helps make me have the strength to go on.

You are my joy and strength. You stay strong too.

Hugs!


IFFLWMA

 I finally felt like life was meaningful and then it was torn away. I have more anger, but I look for love more deeply; it is a gift. It is beautiful, but I get tired of the struggle. But, I want to be lazy and just enjoy being in the moment, like it was a delicious dessert flavor that washes over my mouth and leaves me astounded and thrilled and never want it to go away.

But it did.

It hurts all of the time.

Wednesday, September 14, 2022

OSNPC

 I still hurt from having had such ugly things said about me that made me want to die and made this last longer for everyone. I could not do that to my worst enemy. I cry each day and just wish it were over. One should not protect criminals, especially murderers. Blew the only chance!💩!!!!

I cannot imagine hooking up with such a terrible human being.....what was the attraction? I cannot imagine! Nothing hides an ugly heart.

WANSB

 I don't sleep much any longer. I need help to get through this crap. I don't feel loved. I can see why. Terrible people suck all the love from the air and right out of hearts!

I guess I will just die. The world is too ugly now. How can that innocuous looking old lady have such evil in her heart?! She has no right to take her displeasure with life on whoever she wants!

FUCK HER DISGUSTING, TWISTED BRAIN! WHAT A NASTY, SPOILED, UGLY OLD BITCH!

💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩

TMCS

 I am getting railroaded! I know you have too. There are too many crooked people. To beat them, one must fight them.Fight fire w/fire.

WYSUFM?

 I want to see you. I feel so sad. I suppose I will be railroaded into jail time. This time I suppose they will ask for me to be destroyed. I guess I will get life......will I be betrayed.......? 

Would you stand up for me?


Tuesday, September 13, 2022

ROTPAC

 to keep the police, or anyone from listening to me. Mr Guasco seems to have some kind of favorable position in San Mateo Superior Court, since my evidence is ignored and judges yell at me. Guasco said I gave Dr. Lukaszewicz gifts he didn't want and annoyed him, but that is strange since Dr. Lukaszewicz kept my gifts of gratitude, called me and wrote me friendly emails to thank me. My gifts did not bother Dr. Lukaszewicz, but they DID bother Dr. Moayeri; his captor. They used my gifts as a reason for a TRO, but it made no sense because of the thank you emails from Dr. Lukaszewicz and also the last gift I gave him was nearly a year prior to Dr. Lukaszewicz coming to my gallbladder surgery to keep me safe. How would a year, or more later constitute a reason for a restraining order and one that was FORGED? Mr. Guasco has harassed me with absurd reasons and no reason to keep me restrained. Mike Guasco has kept me restrained for 7 years and made up contempt charges. I went to JAIL! Now, he made up another few charges, so I could end up going to jail for a longer time! Mike guasco thinks I could have breast cancer and wants me to die, so he can have the money I left in my will for Dr. Lukaszewicz. Guasco stole my court file with my will and Powers of Attorney for Dr. Lukaszewicz in it and he won't give it back. I believe that he and Dr. Moayeri want what I have and what Dr. Lukaszewicz has. His home has become a valuable commodity and those captors want it! They are trying to make me a scapegoat and want me to die, which is why he yells in my face and has others to it and for all the turmoil he wreaks upon my life. I have an MS BRAIN LESION THAT COULD KILL ME and GUASCO AND HIS ACCOMPLICE DR. MOAYERI KNOW IT! That is why they make life very difficult for me and Dr. Lukaszewicz, since they know how I feel about him and that I would do anything for him! I am so abused; by Guasco and Moayeri it is OUTRAGEOUS! Please rescue Dr. Lukaszewicz; he is very sensitive and could harm himself! I think the scar on his wrist may be from Dr. Moayeri, or Dr. Lukaszweicz's depression. He is so kind and sweet, but they have taken away his independence and free will. He toes their line out of fear.

THEMEOC

 


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The Mental Effects of Captivity

The Mental Effects of Captivity

Kidnapping and hostage taking have been present since the dawn of civilization, but only (relatively) recently have concerted efforts been made to understand the psychological impact of being held captive. Nowadays, a seemingly endless stream of abduction cases captivates the nation’s psyche as stories related to missing people play out in real time. All too often these tales end tragically, but once in a great while, a victim is rescued or manages to escape and comes home to his or her family and the life that was put on hold for days, months or even years.

While the family and the public rejoices in the safe return of the missing loved one, the story funnels out of the daily news cycle and the survivor of the abduction is just beginning to face the challenges generally associated with such a traumatic experience. People who survive these harrowing situations are tasked with psychological, emotional and physical hurdles.

Initially, the victim should be taken to a safe environment where he/she can reconnect with loved ones and be given medical attention. This is particularly true if there was a pre-existing condition (such as asthma or diabetes) prior to being kidnapped. While it is likely that food, warmth, sleep, fresh air and exercise were not provided during captivity, care must be taken even when administering these basic needs post-release. Most people take these things for granted, but they can be extremely overwhelming and cause intense sensory overload for someone who has been deprived of them for any length of time.

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From the time we are very young, Americans are immersed in a culture that promotes and prizes personal freedoms and the ability to make choices. For most of us, every day is an exercise in decision-making. Some of these are once-in-a-lifetime decisions (who to marry, where to go to college) and others are mundane, even subconscious ones we make every day, but one thing seems to be clear – perception of control is likely adaptive to survival. Preference for control and aversion to its removal is observed (even in very young infants) long before autonomy can ever be valued. This leads researchers to believe that the need for control is, in fact, biologically motivated.

Belief in one’s ability to exert control over one’s environment to produce desired results is essential to one’s overall wellbeing. An existence denuded of free will can have grave consequences because psychological torture and physical torture are commensurate in the damage they inflict. Both can cause extensive trauma cognitively (impaired memory and concentration), emotionally (feelings of helplessness and hopelessness) and socially (withdrawal and irritability). If left untreated, these conditions can result in long-lasting personality changes. One who has been in captivity may react by engaging in a variety of unhealthy activities that range from self-destructive (eating disorders, substance abuse) to violence against others. Avoidance, blaming and “catastrophising” are common, as is learned helplessness (the notion that one’s circumstances are hopelessly unalterable). Sometimes a condition called hyper-vigilance causes one to be in a constant state of anticipating danger.

Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is almost certainly a likely diagnosis for anyone who has experienced abduction. This is the feeling of persistent psychological distress brought on by a dangerous, shocking or life-threatening event. Loss of control in the environment of captivity is exacerbated by feelings of hopelessness about ever escaping or being rescued. These states can last months or years and can deeply affect every aspect of one’s life including relationships and work.

The horror of being held captive is something that most of us cannot imagine, and yet positive growth and resilience can follow trauma. While not everyone who experiences a traumatic event develops mental health conditions like depression or PTSD, most survivors of an abduction will need counseling, encouragement of self-expression and time to adjust in order to heal. Nowadays, more clinicians are making the effort to focus on patients’ mental resilience as opposed to their victim-hood in an order to reframe the recovery in a more positive, empowering way.

Tune into A&E on November 20 to hear abduction survivor Elizabeth Smart answer questions from viewers that reveal new details about her nine months in captivity and her recovery. Dr. Drew will guide a revealing discussion about her methods of surviving the ordeal.