I always hope that you will stand up for me again, but you need to keep yourself protected. I understand that and do not fault you for it. I never could fault you for anything. I feel that my part in life is to be there for you when you need and keep you safe and be a shoulder. That is love. Just know I will never hate you. I am here for you as long as I am alive and whatever comes next. I just wanted to have more time to enjoy your sweetness, fun and insight.  It is what I long for.