When I get very sad and down, I try and re-energize with a new plan, something that drags me back up to a new focus. It has been a time inundated with attacks from many different areas and forms. I need to find positive things that overcome the bad. I need to find new hope, a new direction. I always seem to be able to muster the strength to fight. I guess I am more competitive than realized, even if it is with myself. Often, it takes me getting to rock bottom, but sometimes that can be fast. Sometimes, though, too many things can hit at once and I get overwhelmed and I shut down and do nothing. Limbo. I hate that period, but perhaps it is like meditation. "Just sitting". Right? I don't know why the easy way out is never the best way. Seems a bit sadistic. "Yes, you have perfected the couch potato position, keep it up, you're doing great!" No, that isn't the winner, is it?
 
I saw a health page and at one point it said, "now go loose weight!" All I could think was, "how am I supposed to trust their advice, if they can't even spell lose? Maybe I am too picky....but...

I like things to make sense. I saw a doctor who wanted me to take a statin and diabetic medicine. I did not understand the need for the combination, so I asked her. She became indignant and told me, "because I SAID SO!" I am not a fan of that kind of non answer, or crappy attitude.

I like to find out the core reason for health issues. I do not like having symptoms treated without finding the cause. It feels too easy, lazy, temporary. It is like putting a pan under a leaky sink; it stops the floor from getting wet, but it does not fix the initial reason for the wet floor.
I know health can be a lot of forensic detective work, but it is better than a temporary patch job.