Friday, March 29, 2019

In My Life (Remastered 2009)

Smashing Pumpkins - 1979

I just wonder why all the brutal "hazing" was done to me. If it were explained to me, then I might not try and fight it, but otherwise I think they want to hurt me, because they know I would do anything to keep you safe. As long as no one will tell me what is going on, my little brain keeps worrying. If they had said, "okay, we are going to beat the crap out of you for one reason, or another, I would have said , "okay" but this bizarre crap that makes no sense gets me suspicious. It is obvious they are opportunists who lie in wait, looking for the perfect moment to attack, so it looks normal that way. They are obviously professionals at covert methods. Of course, they had people make certain comments to trigger my reaction. I was just a "rat in a cage"... https://youtu.be/8-r-V0uK4u0

Smashing Pumpkins - Mayonaise



Hi!

I need to hear from you. You are always on my mind. I miss you so much it hurts. After all this time, I hope you haven't forgotten me, because I love you and would take the best care of you forever.
Please give me a chance and don't let them hurt me anymore. I will never forget you and will wait for you. If you don't want me, please tell me. Love, H